Monthly Archives: June 2022

T.O.L-Time

Time waits for no one. I take the use of my time seriously. I do not like my time wasted; it irritates me. Time is precious and should be used wisely and how we want while we can.

T-Timely

I-Instant

M-Memories,

E-Eternity

Know that your time is valuable should not be wasted on unwanted BS.

Again, time waits for no one!

Thinking out loud. Short and simple!

Thoughts?

Blessings and Love!

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Wasted Time

Wasted time

Have you ever met somebody, and you hit it off, and you two get along? The good conversations, then boom it freaking ends. Ugh I hate that. That is why I try not to get too attached and get my feelings involved, because people will switch up and change on you. Like do not introduce me to that if you cannot keep it up. I do not like the “oh I will talk to you only on my time” which is when or who knows when can you say irritated? I like consistency is that hard to ask for? I also do not like my time wasted that is so annoying or do not like my damn feelings hurt. These days it is so hard to find a nice genuine person like myself. Maybe I will take a seat and focus on me. Time to myself and not worrying about pleasing the next person. I really liked the person but oh well what can you do? I will move on and let it go. Whatever. Wasted my damn time, SMH

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Control

Control

When you think of control what does it mean to you?

Control to me is having a say over any and everything. Have to be up close and have a hand in everything that is going on around you. Including control over people.

Man, man, man I hate when things are out of my control. I am a Leo and yes sometimes I am bossy and must control everything around me. When something is out of my control, I feel lost, nervous, my body shakes I feel anxious, and I get easily irritated. Anybody else like that? I be a nervous wreck and constantly questioning everything. Then I am overthinking and worrying, crazy huh?

Some people say to me that its ok to let go of having control over everything and relax. It is hard to do that thought. I have been thinking about it lately and maybe I should let go a little, take it one day at a time, relax, do not go overboard, and try to run people lives. I mean how hard can it be? Where do I start? Are there any other control freaks out there? Help lol

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Love, Peace, Happiness, and Blessings!

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Defender

I am a defender

A defender to me

I protect me, myself, and I

Defender

Fighting those who

Threatens me

Defender

On guard of course

Protective gear

I am a defender

A defender to me, to my family

Watch closely

Listen and I am alert

Fighting anything that comes close

Defender

Everything on lock

No one gets through

Nope

Defender

Stand tall

Confident

Strong

I am a defender

A defender of

ME…

Blessings and Love

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Too Good to be TRUE..

Too good to be true…

So tonight, I am sitting and thinking. And of course, this damn dude is on my mind. Like what the fuck, why? My emotions are everywhere and yes, I am a little tipsy and besides what I am dealing with I am thinking of him. Again why? Oh, my yall I am irritating my damn self at the moment. Cannot help but to think is this real? Does he really feel the same way I do, shit does he really like me? Here I go feeling young-minded and questioning myself and the situation instead of letting it all go and that is not good. Just feel confused and out of it, maybe I should just walk away and forget it all thought it was what I wanted but I do not know now. I have mixed emotions and we are both dealing with things. That is why I do not like putting my feelings out there I feel dumb and used it to benefit them talk and texting on their time. Thinking yeah it is too good to be true. Just wish I could find realness, real love besides what I can offer. Ugh it's

too good to be true and I am pissed off. I really need a friend and love I feel dumb and stupid and I am thinking why me why I cannot get what I give. Venting, thinking, and letting it all out, I am rambling, ugh irritated though.

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Feels!

Okay, so I must vent for a minute. Yall know how I do. I am having some feelings about that oh is this shit too good to be true, am I close to my dreams, and sometimes my damn trust issues are at play. I am almost finished with my book and ready to take off. At this moment I really do not trust shit. This weekend and the dates are memories I hate thinking about, so that got me feeling all types of ways.  Emotions are everywhere tonight. And honestly, no one to talk to well on my blog. Just doing so much thinking tonight, maybe I need to go to bed, and try again tomorrow. Glad I got some goals done though.  A calm mind and rest!!!! Thanks for all the support!

I hope everyone else night was great and happy Father’s Day to all the fathers out there. Hope your day was fun and exciting. Remember to love yourself and keep those you love close.  Goodnight!

Blessings and Love

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Scars

Scars inside and out

Deep wounds

Can never be fixed

Scars

Still remain

Walk with me, guide me

The scars

Not pretty

Inside and out

The scars I carry with me

So deep

Nightmares appear

The scars are here

Forever

The scars

Inside and out

I

Cannot hide

Flesh open

Cries are loud

Scars remain

I wonder why.

No help

There’s nobody

Damn scars

On my mind, body

Drowning

Am I still alive?

These

Scars

Sometimes visible

These scars sometimes

Not….Damn

Scars….

Blessings and Love.

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**A Poem**