This feeling again, damn maybe I just need to talk to this man and let my feeling be known. another damn night I am spending with him on my mind. It has been like this for days and do not know why. This man probably does not even think about me or care about me but here my stupid self is just in my feelings about him. Sometimes I think I should pickup the phone and call him to hear his voice, I really want him beside me, but oh well. Wish I can get him off my mind, like seriously. Thinking out loud and very emotional, man getting attached and getting your feelings involved sucks. Yes, I hate that I feel this way I feel like I cannot focus I just see him, I can not help it. I just wanted to let this out and I need to learn to keep my feelings in check. Damn, damn, damn this man, I think I am in love (OH MY). I am rambling, need help. What should I do?
Ugh this damn feeling again. Thank you for reading
Cannot get this man off my mind, damn every day I think of him. His looks, his smile, his voice, and his damn personality. We are a match. We have great chemistry, I can have a good conversation with him, he makes me laugh, and we also can be serious too. It is just something about him. I avoid talking to him because I have strong feelings and do not know how to show it or how to tell him (my scared ass, LOL). I am so guarded and been hurt too many damn times. But for real, I just do not know what to do. Then I worry about if he feels the same way. I do not want to put my feelings out there and he do not feel the same way I do. And that will constantly bother me. What if he does not respond or never talk to me again. I probably sound crazy, but it is how I am feeling and can not shake it. Right now, I want him next to me, us talking and vibing, I want his touch, his eyes on me. Then again, I do not want to look stupid and get hurt. My emotions are everywhere tonight, and I am dinking a little and it is making it worse. Maybe it is bedtime for me because my mind is going miles and I am so over this, maybe because I know the truth. I guess it is what it is. Just my thoughts and feelings tonight. I really want him, like seriously, whatever. Thank you for reading.