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Want What You Cannot Have.

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Want it, Can’t Have it…..

Have you been in a situation where you have to walk away from someone love because you knew in your heart that the two you would not have worked out? I am just sitting here thinking of that person and I miss him. Been feeling so lonely lately and thinking and missing him is making me feel worse because that is who I want. Badly. I miss the way he used to look at me, our conversations, our silliness, our vibe, the compliments, and him always being real with me. We had to walk away from each other, and it still hurts. I want him in my life, and I still feel that it would not work out for me due to me knowing this person well the way they think, and their personality. Sometimes it annoys me wondering about what if. What would happen if we did have a relationship? What if we try now? Wondering if I made a mistake when I had to walkway from him. Hate feeling this way and again feel lonely and want him next to me even if not in a relationship with me just to talk to each other would be good. I need to find something to do because he is too much on my mind. SMH, I do not like it. He probably does not still feel the same way. Should I reach out or just leave it alone? Maybe too much time has passed.

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Have you ever had a person in your life that could not let go? Did all the wrong things in the relationship and you endured a lot and decided to leave but they just will not let you go. Dealing with that currently. Yeah, today I am dealing with a lot got someone who wants me but I don’t want them I feel I tried so hard for years and got hurt and I am over it. Haven’t been with this person for years and they won’t let up. Yeah, fucking annoying. And then I want someone who probably does not want me or thinking about me at all, the difference is I am not bugging the other person or begging them to want me. Constantly calling or texting them. It is the want what I cannot have syndrome we both got I guess lol. Emotions are everywhere though

Damn, can I catch a break…. LOL a little too much at the moment.

That damn feeling of wanting what you cannot have……

Blessings and Love!

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Loyalty!

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Loyalty is a virtue, rare and true 

A steadfast bond that I imbue 

To those I love, to those I know 

My loyalty forever shall flow 

Through thick and thin, through joy and strife 

I stand by those who enrich my life 

With loyalty as my guiding light 

I navigate the darkest night 

Loyalty is more than just a word 

It’s a promise that is always heard 

To be there for those who need me most 

Loyalty is an unwavering host 

I cherish this noble trait 

And hold it close to my heart innate 

With loyalty as my guiding star 

I’ll shine bright and travel far 

Blessings and Love! 

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Embrace

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In this life, it is important that you embrace yourself to the fullest. It is good to take the time to celebrate you. Embrace all that you have and love yourself to the fullest. Embrace the good times as well as the hard times, that is what makes you wiser and stronger. Embrace your healing process and be gentle with your mind, body, and spirit. Embrace your inner happiness and peace. Yes, life happens but always be true to yourself. Embrace yourself, embrace life….

All of it! Just Saying!!

Blessings and Love!

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***This post was inspired by my daughter, also a writer. She thought that I should write about embracing yourself. Big shout out to her, got to love her***

Passion Within Me!

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Passion burns within my heart

A flame that cannot be tamed

It drives me to create my art

And leaves my soul forever changed.

With every beat, my passion grows

And fills me with a fierce desire

To chase my dreams and conquer foes

And reach for goals that are much higher.

My heart and soul are set ablaze

With fiery passion that never fades

And I will follow where it leads

To find the life my heart truly needs.

Passion is the driving force

That fuels our souls and sets us free

And I will follow without remorse

Wherever it may lead me

It is the passion within me!

-Passion Within Me!-

Blessings and Love!

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I, Self-Aware

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I am a force, self-sufficient and strong

Independent in my choices all day long

Love is my fuel, my passion, and drive

I thrive on it, and it keeps me alive.

My heart beats with a rhythm of its own

Guiding me as I walk life’s unknowns

I am tough, resilient, and unbreakable

My spirit unwavering and unshakable.

I love myself most, but I love others too

For love is the bond that makes us all new

I stand tall, proud, and free

My independence is a testament to me.

-I, Self-Aware-

Blessings and Love! 🖤🤎💙💛💗💚🧡❤🤍💜

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Feeling!

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Feeling of wanting love

Feeling of nah I don’t think so

Feeling of letting it all go

Feeling of nah some has to pay

Feeling of wanting to be alone

Damn

Feeling that Ray needs someone

Feeling of giving up

Feeling of nah got to keep going

Emotions everywhere

Feeling of being lost

Feeling like homegirl go find yourself

Damn feelings of being hot, being cold

Feeling very nonchalant

Feeling like turning my back on the world

Feeling!

And Ray doesn’t like it.

-Feeling-

Blessings and Love!

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Feeling of Love!  | Just Write (writeblg.com)

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Battle with myself

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Battle with myself!

I look in the mirror and there are times where I do not like who is starring back

Telling myself to face my fears, be strong

I am battling myself it is tough battle trying to keep control of what is going on around me

I feel like I am losing. The doubting myself, feeling ashamed, I am feeling unworthy

I am battling myself through it all the good, the bad, and most definitely the ugly and the worst

I am my own worst enemy hard on me

Sometimes I like who and what I see and times I do not

I say to myself to suck it up it is life

Battling myself trying to keep from crying

Trying hard to fix my crown

Daily struggles sometimes hold me back

Battling myself this woman is hard to deal with

Tough and strong I say back to the mirror you got this, keep going, stop being in your own way

Battling myself I say take a breather and get back to it

Battling myself it is me versus me

A battle I will come out on top of

Me battling myself through it all enough is enough

Me battling myself it is time I choose I as I stare back in the mirror with a smile

I chose I in this battle with myself!

Burdens…

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We all have them 

Some more than others 

Burdens 

A shadow over us 

We want to defeat 

Burdens 

I have them 

No denying them 

Burdens 

I want to keep to myself 

It’s no one’s problem 

Burdens 

I hold deep inside 

Consumes me like crazy 

Burdens 

Damn overthink on them daily 

Hide from the world 

Burdens 

I do not put it on others 

Ray feels it’s not fair 

So, I do not share 

Burdens 

Mines to keep and bare 

Damn, a shame 

Burdens 

We all carry them! 

-Burdens- 

Blessings and Love! 

Thank you for reading. 

Football Girl! II

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In the bleachers, she finds her place

Eyes alight with a passionate grace

The roar of the crowd, the thrill of the game

Each touchdown ignites her heart’s flame

With every pass, her spirit soars

She cheers along with her voice in the chorus

The field’s her stage, though she doesn’t play

Football’s magic in her life to stay

Under the lights, her dreams take flight

A girl who loves the game with all her might

In every season, through rain or shine

Her heart beats for football, fierce and fine

-Football Girl II-

Blessings and Love!

Thank you for reading.

Football Girl  | Just Write (writeblg.com)

Reflect/Reflections

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R-Remembering

E-Ensuring

F-Familiar

L-Lessons

E-Eager

C-Courage

T-Timing

Reflections

Looking back on the mistakes I made

Now, knowing they were lessons learned

Reflections

Looking back on the chaos that ensued

Now knowing that

You get the bad sometimes before the good

Reflections

Looking back at the rage I felt

Now knowing how to control myself and move forward

Reflections

Looking back on it all

Now knowing I am standing tall

Through it all

-Reflections-

Blessings and Love!

Thank you for reading.

T.O.L.-Reflection

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