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T.O.L- Why Do I?

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Hay, how’s it going my blog peeps? My night is going ok. Just coming through with some of my thinking out loud thoughts.

Tonight, I am having those why did I moments. Thoughts. the last few months, a lot has been going on, and I have been super busy with work, home life, and writing. Don’t know why I added a longer shift to my busy schedule. It has been having me drained. I knew it was going to be hard to juggle. Like why did I do that? Early mornings are kicking my ass lol. Another moment or thought is me writing multiple books at the same time. Whew, hard work again. Why did I do that? Tried to make a deadline for each of them but that is not looking too good. Been trying to write every day and dedicate some time to each, but after a full day, I will be so tired.

I really had to sit and think about how much I have going on and how I need to lighten my load a little. I guess it is the overachiever in me. I have also been feeling like I need to stay busy all the time. Have you ever felt that way? I know you guys have those moments when you question yourself and the decisions you made.

Maybe need to put some projects on pause for now and take a breather. Been thinking about having a weekend to myself with no work, no kids, no household duties, no social media, and no phone. You know have a peaceful moment alone. Silence and positive vibes. Breathe and relax

Just another night. T.O.L- why do I? decisions I have made in my life, that I am still trying to figure out. Sharing my thoughts tonight…..

Hope you all night is good.

Blessings and Love

Thank you for reading.

Straight Up!

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If you have to keep questioning my feelings and everything thing I say or do. You should leave me alone. Obviously, you don’t trust my words or me. Like damn, why bother. Just leave me the fuck alone if that’s the case. I don’t just put my feelings out there and when I do a person dismiss them or don’t believe them. This is why I like to stay guarded. Seriously why would I waste my time putting my feelings out there just because…. Make it make sense. Straight Up.


Wasted time……


If you don’t trust me, let me be. If your insecurities and Jealousy is in the way, fix it or keep it to yourself and away from me. That doesn’t seem like love to me, questioning what I do or how I do it all the time. So annoying and I can do without it. Straight Up.


Ugh Damned if I do, Damned if I don’t.


Story of my life and annoying.

Just my thoughts and venting a little…… Straight Up


Blessings and Love!
Thank you for reading.

Understanding it

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Understanding It

To those who needs these words:

Give yourself time to understand and deal with a situation do not give up hope. We often lose hope, and some people often give up. Please do not, see your worth and move forward. Have the courage to break through the pain, push through. You have to do it for yourself. You can do it be strong. Try to understand what’s going with you get to the real issues and fix it I been through it, so I know it’s hard, damn hard, but with faith and good and loving support around you it will get better. For anyone going through tough times and darkness and depression please get help, you are not alone.

Wishing the best, Prayers and love to those in need and do not forget to love those around you and of course yourself. Love and Happiness Love Faith, Love and Commitment

Just a reminder to LOVE yourself through it all.

Blessings and Love!

Thank you.

Flaws!

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**I had a writing prompt that I wrote and working on and wanted to share. It is about my flaws, what they are, and how I feel about them. Might be familiar with some of what you read in this blog post because I share my true feelings from time to time. Still wanted to share this it’s everything in one lol.**

The writing prompt was: Write down the flaws that make you perfect the way you are.

I feel that my flaws are Trust issues, insecurity in my writing and self-publishing, self-doubt, control, and a bad attitude most of the time.

My flaws make me perfect the way I am because I feel like the trust issues that I have to keep me alert to new people I meet, and I keep them at a distance. I have trust issues because those close to me betrayed me. Most people think of someone cheating on you and that is what brings trust issues in people. But no, for me, it is everybody; I have had friends do me wrong and betray my trust, and I also have had family betray me. And at this point, I am damn sick of it and that is why I do not trust too many people. This flaw could be a terrible thing to others but for me, I am very aware of it and honest about it. The next thing is my insecurity in getting my book done and published. I am not going to lie I fear it, maybe scared of what type of feedback I would receive. I think I take my time with it; I want it to be perfect. Also, I do not know too much about publishing or self-publishing, so I am trying to do some research before I put my work out there for the public to read. Another insecurity in my writing is the promotion and marketing of it all. I need to get out of my shell and make things happen. Another flaw is being scared to take risks. I need to get out of that and fast.

The self-doubting is a flaw. I second guess myself all the time, which is not good but something I am aware of and working on. My controlling habits, I tend to want to be in control of everything around me. Like I hate to sit back and not be a part of something that I think I should be a part of. Also controlling in a way that I want others to do as I say when I say, I get irritated if they don’t or if I feel they are moving too slow for my liking. I know, crazy, right? I am also working on that as well as a bad attitude.

These flaws make me perfect the way I am because I am fully aware of what areas I need to work on and am honest with people about my flaws. Though I feel I am perfect with these flaws, I know that some things need to change. I can admit my strengths and weaknesses and still be proud of who I am. There is no shame in that. I am a work in progress, striving to get better.

Have a better way of thinking and a better life. My flaws make me perfect the way I am. It does not mean perfect in anything but perfect for me.

Do you have flaws that make you perfect the way you are? Care to share? Thoughts?

Blessings and Love!

Thank you for reading.

**Sharing my true feelings. Write it all out. Flaws and all!!**

Lies and more LIES

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Lies and more lies, Liar

Hello all

Liars on Blast lol

Want to blog about liars and lying. Why is it that people lie so much? Like why especially when they lie over stuff so small or lie just because. People go around putting on fronts or I like to call it their mask. They lie about who they are and their identity. Or lie about any and everything. Yes, I know that it happens a lot, and I just think and wonder why they do it. It is something that I truly do not understand at all. Maybe because I am an honest person no matter the situation, I will always be honest with people. Why? Because I do not like to be lied to that shit hurts. So, I wouldn’t lie to others just because I can and get away with it smh. I have heard that some people do it to avoid hurting someone but lies make everything worse. Well, that is what I think. It is such a big deal in any type of relationship you or in, whether it is family or friends. A lie is a freaking lie and can be wrong like seriously. I think some people do not realize it maybe because they are all about themselves and don’t care. How hard is it to be upfront and honest about who you are and what you are about? Again, something I don’t understand and probably never will. Thought about writing about lying because I am currently dealing with it, so many people around me who do it a lot, and it is super annoying. Something I explain to my kids about honesty and integrity. Your presents and words can concern others. It is okay to be honest and be yourself. Do you agree? Have you dealt with a person who constantly lies? How did you deal with it? Again, people why lie? Annoyed seriously

Thinking, venting, of course, too much shady shit going on, and I do not like it. Time for changes, change the untrustworthy people around me. Please feel free to like, comment, and share.

Love, Peace, Happiness, and Blessings all

Thank you for reading.

Lessons II

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There are lessons we learn in life. Whether we like it or not. We have the choice of deciding how we deal with it. We can choose to change things, accept what the lesson is and learn from it. Or we can continue to make the same mistakes. Ignoring what the lesson is and keep going down the wrong path. Again, we have choices. We must choose wisely. With everything in life.

Learn from it and move on and do better.

Lessons… What is life without them!

Have a good one!

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Lessons

Those Lessons!!! It is LIFE!

Consistency.

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Hello all, I want to talk about consistency.

For me, consistency is being steady, accurate, and following through with something prompt. Keep up with what you started. Being consistent is important, especially in working towards your goals and dreams, making changes in your life, fitness, education, and more. You have to be on top of everything and make sure you stay on track. If you keep slacking or putting stuff off for another time, you will get nothing done. Maybe set schedules to help you along the way. I know sometimes life gets in the way, pick yourself up and try to get back on track. Be consistent in life, and you will get results; well, that is my opinion. That goes for friendships and any relationship. You both have to be consistent with each other and on the same page.

Consistency or being consistent can be in any situation, job, or career anything you do or want to do. I wanted to talk about the is. In the past years ago, I had a problem with being consistent with my writing. I would write one day then it will be months before I write again. I had to quickly change that. I am very consistent with the pen now lol. That is on my mind tonight, of course, Ms. Thinker! LOL

Thoughts? What does it mean to you? Do you have a hard time being consistent?

Blessings and Love!

Thank you for reading.

Want to share a few quotes topic of consistency.

Detachment

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Hello all!

I want to talk about detachment and what it means to me and get your thoughts on this topic.

For me, detachment is breaking away or walking away from any situation that you know is no good for you, or you feel off about situations, and are able to walk away from it with no problem easily.

Detachment, for me, is also about detaching from people out of fear of what is to come, or perhaps fear of the unknown. If that makes sense to you. I will stop talking to someone sometimes if my feelings are too much involved. Honestly, detaching from everything comes easily for me. I don’t know why I’m like this. I get into ghosting mode.

Sometimes, detaching myself is not a good thing because I feel like I hurt people in the process, and that is the last thing I want to do is hurt someone, as I definitely know the feeling. I just don’t like making connections, and then they turn out wrong for me. So, I detach myself before it can happen.

It’s crazy because I always talk about wanting to find love, but I would have to work on letting my guard down and not walking away so quickly. But saying goodbye is easy. Even when my feelings are in it, I am scared. I need to get my life together, especially at my age, and let it all out. Damn, I am so guarded, easily detachable, and have trust and abandonment issues. Yeah, I need to work on all of that. It is not good at all.

Detachment can be for the good and be for the bad depending on your situation. When it comes to detachment what comes to mind? Are you easily detachable? Are you good at goodbyes?

Please feel free to like, comment, and share!

Blessings and Love! 🖤🤎💙💛💗🧡💚💜🤍❤️

Thank you for reading.

Detachment: a feeling of not being emotionally involved: to have an air of detachment

Failure.?

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Hello all! How is it going?

I am thinking about life overall and I have been thinking about the things that I have failed at in life and wanted to open up about how I deal with those failures. So I have a question my blog peeps, and this can be used as a writing prompt if you are a writer and like to do writing prompts. The question is below as well as my response.

Do you deal with failure positively?

When it comes to failure and I, we are never on the same page. So, to answer this question I do not positively deal with failure. When I fail at something I am usually in an unpleasant mood. I take it to heart, and I feel like I hurt myself when I fail at something. I kind of shut down for a while and just be in a funk. I feel like it takes a while for me to fully process that I have failed. It is not a good feeling. I then start to question everything I have done leading to it. Feel like I must work so much harder for me not to fail. Failure I know happens from time to time life is not easy and pursuing your passions and your dreams there is a chance of failure. Me knowing this I still don’t like failing and feel like I am letting myself down or others. I know it is not okay for me to feel this way, but I do. Something I try to work on and know that everything will not always go my way. Failure is a part of life. Some of us need to accept that (ME). Learning to take things how they are when they arrive. Yeah, me and my Failures do not get along (LOL),

How do you deal with failure? How do you move past it? Care to share?

Please feel free to like, comment, and share!!!

Blessings and Love

Thank you for reading.

Failing/Failure

Me, Again 

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Just sitting here thinking about the old me. Well back when things were great, and I was happy. I am feeling nostalgic right now. Memories are flooding me. Just thinking and asking myself how I get back there, to my happy self. I feel like I am trying but I am not there yet.  

Constantly questioning what am I doing right and what am I doing wrong. Thinking of ways to fix me, I feel like a burden to those around me due to my unhappiness, and feeling down, depressed, and constantly shutting down. I try to hide it and not mention how I am really feeling. But indeed, I am trying to figure it out. I do not know what is going on with me, I pray I get out of this, I pray I get back to the real me. 

I want to feel alive again. Just be free and me. Happy and at peace. 

Has anyone else felt like this? Do you sometimes feel out of place? Like you do not belong because you are different?  

I do not know I am rambling and of course thinking aloud. Maybe Ray’Elaine is in her feelings. 

 I am still working on me. Always a work in progress. Always room for improvement. 

-Sigh- I need me again! Real Shit! 

Blessings and Love! 

Thank you for.