Monthly Archives: April 2021

I’m Trying(Writing Help)

I’m Trying (Writing helps)

Sometimes I irritate myself and do not like being negative. With so much going on I have been feeling all types of ways and I sometimes feel like it is too much to handle. Me writing my poems, short stories, and my inner thoughts I get some frustration out while writing. At first, I thought I would not get far with it but surprise I love it and it helps. The last couple of months been hectic and I am trying more and more to be happy and not let things get me down, I know I talk about it a lot but like I said getting it out helps me. Some posts are negative or dark some are how I feel, and some is just what I want to write about. I have become comfortable with myself and how I express myself over time and this week is no different more unpleasant news, so I have been in my notebook writing away, writing out my feelings. Bear with me people I am getting there and thank you for any support. What do you write about when you are sad? How do you cope when things are hectic? Hope you all are having a great weekend.  Again, I pray for better days. Thank you for reading.

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My Passion!! – Just Write (writeblg.com)

Bond and Love! – Just Write (writeblg.com)

Too Good to be TRUE.. – Just Write (writeblg.com)

Little Girl Lost

Lost Little Girl

Little lost girl

Fighting to find her way

Lost with no direction

Sad eyes, heart hurting, mind racing

Wounds open, flesh

Lost little girl

Thrown to the wolves, the sharks, the bad

The ugly, clowns, death

Raging to get free

Surrounded by the unknown, Dark

Lost little girl

Scared, shocked, afraid

Alone, cold, wondering

Mad, darkness, raged, shaking

Lost in a world, no clue

She is lost, no soul, no nothing

Lost little girl

Can she be found???

Thank You For Reading.

****Just A Poem!!****

Trapped

Trapped

I feel like I am trapped inside a nightmare

My heart is racing like crazy, thoughts swirling in my head

I am trapped

I feel like I can not move something is

Keeping me still, blank stare, tuning everything out

I am trapped

Pleading that someone wake me up

I am feeling trapped I cannot speak

Again, blank stare, wanting to say something

But cannot mouth will not move, shut closed tight

I am trapped

Feeling dizzy, full of anxiety

What the hell is going on?

I am trapped looking for a way to escape

Trapped all the way around in my mind life

I am trapped

Thank you for reading.

Move On…

When it’s time to move on, that’s just the thing to do. Do not try to force things. Sometimes it’s better to move on and focus on yourself. Everything happens for a reason and you can’t stay stuck wondering why. It can hurt if you have to let a person go but always put yourself and feelings first. Do what is right for you. Move on, heal, and become a better version of you.

Yes it will take time if hurt and pain is there, just take it one day at a time. Trust I know it’s hard. Even if it’s moving on from an old job, or leaving a state or town, changing school, anything. Change can be hard.

Moving on from anything in life can be challenging, have faith and pray that everything will be alright.

Just thinking tonight want to make some changes and move on from the past. Letting out my thoughts and feelings. Just Write and get it out!

Thank you for reading.

I Smile

I Smile!!

Keeping this beautiful smile on my face, sometimes it is hard to do. But I do it and try to be happy

I smile while burying the pain

I smile to keep from crying, hold that shit in

I smile/laugh to mask the real feelings

I smile wide and bright

I smile and I am praying for things to turn out for the better

I smile knowing other lives depend on me, no time for being down

I will continue to smile through it all

I will smile while knowing better days are coming

I smile, you should to.

Thank you for reading.

Trust Issues…

Trust, this word and it’s meaning. I hate that sometimes it is hard for me to trust people and situations. I tend to question everyone and everything around me. I do not open up easy to people because I automatically don’t trust them. Is this a bad thing?

I really look at people and be like nah you can’t be trusted then I just don’t deal with them. I can honestly say that I do not have any friends. None. The closet person I talk to and hang out with is my sister. I also do not want to bring any type of friends around me and my family who don’t have good intentions. I have been through a lot of shit with different people and maybe that’s why. I don’t know just thinking and venting.

What are yours thoughts on trust? Do you easily trust people you meet? Thinking, thinking, thinking and more thinking of course lol. I hope y’all night is good. Wishing love, peace, happiness, and blessing to you and yours! Thank you for reading.

Bond and Love!

Bond and Love!

Hello everyone, how is your night going? Tonight, I want to talk about being a parent and the bond between parent and child.

There is nothing like have a bond with your children. I look at my two children and I know that they fulfill me. I do my best and want to give them the world. The love and bond between a parent and child to me is unmatched. Yes, there will be ups and downs of course that is life. All you can do as a parent is teach them what is right, teach them leadership, discipline, talk to them and always check to see how they are feeling, build them up, teach them responsibilities, teach them finances, and pray over them and for them. Yes, a difficult task, but when you start a family it is what you signed up for it is your priority.

With my two kids I have talks with them all the time and yes, my son gets very irritated lol he is eleven years old and thinks he knows it all and think he is a man. He gets mad sometimes when I have to correct him and let him know what the right way is to do things. I have to teach them the right and wrongs and the way of the world. So, I stay on top of them, always picking their brain and giving them knowledge and teaching them the things I had to learn on my own. I am their friend too but of course I have to let them know that I am their mother first. Even with the challenges I would not change anything. I feel like my kids made me and are making me a better person as we grow together. I often think of what my life would be like if I did not have children that’s kind of scary. I am thankful that I do they have truly saved my life and I sooooo love my bond with them, even when they are getting on my nerves lol (I know I am not the only one LOL). It is still all loving no matter what. A great bond one that you pray will never break.

I am a mother who has come a long way, a mother who is learning and growing, while growing, building, and teaching her children. My little ones, my friends, my buddies, my homies, my cubs, my hearts, my everything, my strength, my life. A bond full of love.

Shoutout to all parents trust I know it is not easy, keep your head up and do your best.

Hope you all have a goodnight. Sending love, peace, happiness, faith and blessings to you and your families. Goodnight and I thank you for reading.

Thank You.

Happy Writing, Blogging!!!!!

Imperfect — Just Write

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Good Afternoon everyone!

I love this poem I wrote and had to read it today. I am imperfect!

I shared it and hope you enjoy it. Thank You.

Imperfect! She is perfect in her imperfections She is happy in her pain Strong in her weakness She smiles through the cries She put on her happy face, ready to help others Knows her weakness, and strengths Keeps her head up no matter what She learns from her mistakes She is beautiful in her own […]

Imperfect — Just Write

My Lonely Why

My lonely Why

Lonely days with nothing but these thoughts, bad ones, negative ones oh man. Sitting in the dark trying to block out everything wondering why. That is what is mostly on my mind all the time, all the bad that has gone on again I ask why? Why me? Lonely nights sitting in the dark with a bottle of liquor in my hands drowning in the liquor trying to drink all the pain away, yes still in the dark its better this way. No reflection of myself and nobody looking this way, good do not want any to see me, just drowning. The past is what brings me here always like why? Why this? Why that? Lonely days and nights turn into darkness, depression, anxiety, pain, despair, and sadness. Lonely with tears in my eyes as I ask my self why. A question to my past. Always lonely and in the dark trying to climb out my own head away from the negative thoughts, climb out my depression, away from my past, away from the madness, and from my lonely why.

Thanks for reading.

updated:04/06/2021