Sick and tired of toxic love
I’m done with all the pain
No longer will I rise above
And endure the same again
The poison that you bring
Has left me feeling drained
My heart no longer sings
From all the hurt and stains
I’m ready to let you go
And find a love that’s true
One that won’t bring me low
Or make me feel so blue
Goodbye to the toxicity
And the pain that it brings
I’m ready for positivity
And all the joy that it sings
Blessings and Love!
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Heart Guarded…
Sometimes I hate that I am so guarded, and I keep everything in. emotions are bottled up and I do not show that side of me. I do not fully put my feelings out there because I have feelings of being wronged and hurt. I do not like to love and be vulnerable, people will use that against you. That is why I guard my mind and my heart. It is true that I can be afraid of rejection. I do not trust easily either I have major trust issues and I know that is holding me back, but I cannot just fully put my trust in others. I am also guarded because I feel like people have negative motives, and I do not like that shit. I am guarded because I have not healed from my past, I need to let go and move on. Is it bad that I cannot let my guard down? Working on changing that, maybe just do not want to get hurt anymore I’ so freaking over it. I am just thinking out loud, my crazy thoughts. SMH it how I am feeling though. My heart is guarded. I need help!
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Wasted time
Have you ever met somebody, and you hit it off, and you two get along? The good conversations, then boom it freaking ends. Ugh I hate that. That is why I try not to get too attached and get my feelings involved, because people will switch up and change on you. Like do not introduce me to that if you cannot keep it up. I do not like the “oh I will talk to you only on my time” which is when or who knows when can you say irritated? I like consistency is that hard to ask for? I also do not like my time wasted that is so annoying or do not like my damn feelings hurt. These days it is so hard to find a nice genuine person like myself. Maybe I will take a seat and focus on me. Time to myself and not worrying about pleasing the next person. I really liked the person but oh well what can you do? I will move on and let it go. Whatever. Wasted my damn time, SMH
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Lost in a maze with no escape in sight,
Down and out, trapped in endless night
Madness creeping, clawing at my mind
No hope to find, no way to unwind.
Futile searching for a glimmer of light
But darkness reigns, an eternal blight
No path to follow, no guide to lead
Alone in my despair, consumed by need.
Trapped in a prison of my own device
No key to freedom, no chance to rise
Suffocating in a world of doubt
Seeing no way out, I scream and shout
Blessings and Love!
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S-Struggle, Spiteful, Stuck
L- Lousy, Losing
I-Impatient
P- Paranoid
P- Poisonous, Pain
I-Incomplete, Imperfect, Insane
N- Numb
G- Gone, Grumpy
Feeling stuck in life, times I want to be spiteful due to my struggles
Slipping
Sometimes I feel like a lousy person who is losing at life
Slipping
So impatient with myself, with everything
Slipping
I’m on edge, constant guard up, and paranoid
Slipping
Been poisoned with hate, hurt, grief, and pain, sometimes the pain is too much to deal with
Slipping
This imperfect self, feeling lost and incomplete. Insane with my thoughts
Slipping
She is numb to it all. It is what it is
Slipping
Lately been grumpy, with no feelings. Drugging and drinking, I’m gone
Damn
I’m
Slipping…..
Blessings and Love!
Thank you for reading.
Time flies past us
As life goes on
Time
Something we have no control over
Time
Waits for no one
Time
We think we have more of it
Think again we really don’t
Time
With life combines, can be chaos
Time
Here and now
Moving at a fast pace
Slows down for NONE
Time
While we stand still, waiting and wanting more
Times flies by us
With no worries
No commitments
Time
Comes with regret, hurt, lost, pain, sadness, numbness
Time
Brings life problems
Time moving fast
Time something we cannot stop
But we must keep moving
Time
Something life will never
Be without
Life goes on, no matter what
Time
We stand by and watch
Time
Again, we cannot stop
Whether we want to or not
-Time-
Blessings and Love
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I cherish the memories
Of the love that once was mine
Though my lost loves has departed
Their love still lives on in time
I keep their love alive each day
In the little things I do
The way I smile, the words I say
Reflect the love that once was true
Their love is like a guiding light
That leads me through the dark
And though they’re gone, with all my might
Their love still leaves its mark
Here’s to the love that once we shared
And to the love that still remains
May it continue to be cherished
And forever hold its place
Blessings and Love!
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My shadows deep and whispers low, I tread a path so lone
Where echoes of my footsteps keep a rhythm, soft, monotone
Around me, souls reach out in hope, their warmth a fleeting day
Yet, in this dance, I falter and choose instead to push away
The world is a tapestry of bonds, threads intertwining tight
Each stitch a promise, colored bright, against the fall of night
But fear, like frost, creeps in my heart, turning warmest gold to gray
And in my chill, I draw the veil and gently push away
Why do I guard this fortress, keep its gates so closely drawn?
Why do I fear the touch of dawn, the light before the morning?
Perhaps in solitude, I find bittersweet dismay
For, in the end, it’s me I’ve lost each time I push away
Yet, in the quiet hope whispers, a tender, fragile strain
Maybe bridges can be built where only walls remain
With cautious steps, could I reach out, let in the light of day?
Or will I wander, evermore, a soul that pushes away?
-Push Away-
Blessings and Love!
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That feeling of being unwanted
Feeling unwanted. Pushed away, casted out
When all I hear is
We don’t want you
You don’t belong
Unwanted
Hearing them loud and clear
Hear it in my mind
Hear it in my heart
Unwanted
I question myself constantly
Is it how I look?
Is it how I talk? Or act?
Unwanted
Feeling unheard, hidden
Feeling misunderstood at times
Thinking how can I be better
For them
Unwanted
Alone
No one by my side
Walking that lonely road
That feeling all my life
Unwanted
That feeling of no love
Thinking would it always be this way?
Is there something wrong with me
Unwanted
And searching for
Someone to hear me, see me and
Love me
In this world of chaos
Just unwanted
That feeling that I don’t like.
-Unwanted-
Blessings and Love
Thank you for reading.
More by Ray’Elaine
Inside the box
That they want you in
Feel funny
Not right
You not you
They not really who they say
They are
Chaos
All around
In this box
Cornered
Scared
Hopeless
You not you
They not what they say
In this little box
I suffer
I am quiet
Do what they want
It is their show
In this box
Sit still
No movement
Mind constantly going
Closed in
What is to come
In this box
Afraid
Lost
Find a way out
Screaming in this box
Let me out
You not you
They are not who they say
What to do in
This box
Let it be
Not say a word
Silence
Do not Speak
Keep it hush
You, not you
They are not who they say
Can I trust me
Can I trust them
This box
I
Am in
Will it be
My life
My sanity
This box
Take ownership
All on me
Pain, hurt, brainwashed
Happy pretending
Will I let them get away?
Do they win?
In this box
Alone
Or
Will I fight
Fight to
Get out this
Box
Confined
Struggling
Speaking but not heard
Will be weak no more
Awake
Ready
Scream, fight shout
My way
Out this
Box.
You, not you
They are not who they say
This box
Me in it
Will go away.
I say think above it all
I say fuck that box
I survive,
That box can suck it!
Blessings and Love!
Thank you for reading.
**A Poem**
Boxed in… No Thanks
