My Heart Guarded

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Heart Guarded…

Sometimes I hate that I am so guarded, and I keep everything in. emotions are bottled up and I do not show that side of me. I do not fully put my feelings out there because I have feelings of being wronged and hurt. I do not like to love and be vulnerable, people will use that against you. That is why I guard my mind and my heart. It is true that I can be afraid of rejection. I do not trust easily either I have major trust issues and I know that is holding me back, but I cannot just fully put my trust in others. I am also guarded because I feel like people have negative motives, and I do not like that shit. I am guarded because I have not healed from my past, I need to let go and move on. Is it bad that I cannot let my guard down? Working on changing that, maybe just do not want to get hurt anymore I’ so freaking over it. I am just thinking out loud, my crazy thoughts. SMH it how I am feeling though. My heart is guarded. I need help!

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Wasted Time

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Wasted time

Have you ever met somebody, and you hit it off, and you two get along? The good conversations, then boom it freaking ends. Ugh I hate that. That is why I try not to get too attached and get my feelings involved, because people will switch up and change on you. Like do not introduce me to that if you cannot keep it up. I do not like the “oh I will talk to you only on my time” which is when or who knows when can you say irritated? I like consistency is that hard to ask for? I also do not like my time wasted that is so annoying or do not like my damn feelings hurt. These days it is so hard to find a nice genuine person like myself. Maybe I will take a seat and focus on me. Time to myself and not worrying about pleasing the next person. I really liked the person but oh well what can you do? I will move on and let it go. Whatever. Wasted my damn time, SMH

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Learn to Love

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Gentle guidance with a patient pace

Learning to love it is a daunting race

Heart aflutter, mind is a maze

Fumbling steps, unsure ways

With each stumble, we grow wise

Love’s mysteries, we begin to surmise

Through trials and errors, we improvise

And in our hearts, love multiplies

The ghazal of love, a journey long

But with each step, we grow strong

Learning to love, a lifelong song

With each verse, our hearts belong.

-Learn to Love-

Blessings and Love

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Orange Rose!

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An orange rose, a symbol of desire

Its fiery hue ignites a passionate fire

A bloom so bold, it speaks of enthusiasm

And a longing for a love without inhibition.

This rose speaks of warmth and energy

Of excitement and fervency

It tells a tale of a love that’s bold

And a heart that’s free, yet still holds.

So when you see an orange rose in bloom

Think of passion, desire, and a love that consumes

For this rose is not just a simple flower

But a symbol of a love that has the power.

Blessings and Love!

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Love I Never Had!

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Damn, feelings and emotions are all over the place
Feelings and thoughts of can I be in love?
I Love the way he makes me feel
It’s really a
Love I Never Had
An understanding love
He gets me, and speaks to me with respect
His care for me and mine for him
It’s a
Love I Never Had
Trusting
Blushing
Feeling appreciated
It’s really a
Love I Never Had
Sometimes makes me wonder
I pause, I’m not too sure
All in my head
Thinking it can’t be real
A love I never had
Believing in me, my dreams
Our future
Encourage me to keep going
Even when I don’t want to, he won’t let me sink
His kind words and gentle voice
Love of gentleness
It’s really a
Love I never had
Feeling safe and secure, wanted
Feel it in my spirit, my heart, in my body
Needing more and more
It’s a
Love I Never Had
He is constantly on my mind
Damn, Day and night
Fighting with me through my pains speaks love to me
He says he cares, he loves me
Me hoping I’m what he needs, what he wants
A soul-to-soul love
A Love I don’t want to fade, want to last forever
Damn, feelings and emotions are all over the place
Still though
It’s a love I Never Had!!!



Blessings and Love!
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A Purpose! 

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Lost in the maze of life’s design 

I search for purpose, a grand design 

I wander through the winding trails 

Hoping that my destiny unveils 

I seek for love, a shining star 

To guide me from the shadows afar 

I yearn for someone to hold my hand 

And lead me to the promised land 

In the quiet of the night, I pray 

For a sign to light my way 

I search for answers in every place 

Hoping to find my rightful space 

Oh, the quest for purpose and love 

A journey that’s always challenging to prove 

But I’ll keep searching, never giving up 

For I know someday, I’ll find my luck 

Still searching…. 

-A Purpose- 

Blessings and Love! 🖤🤎💙💗💚🧡❤🤍💜

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Fear of Me!!

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I fear the girl inside my chest

Inside my mind, body

My soul

The one who never lets me rest

The shadow stitched beneath my skin

The quiet truths I hold within

She rises when the night is deep

Whispers secrets that I try hard to keep

Shows me mirrors I have avoided

Reveals the strength I once destroyed

But still, I walk toward her light

Through trembling hands and restless nights

For every fear I try to hide

Is just my power, turned inside

Maybe turned outside

Fear Of Me

Blessings and Love

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Let It Go

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Let It Go

I am learning day by day that it is okay for me to let things go, let go and be free

Let go of the anger

Let go of the lies

Let go of the pain

Let go of those who are toxic to you and your well being

Let go of it all

Let go and open your mind

Let go and open your heart, let go and let God

Let go and welcome sunshine into your life

Let it all go

It is okay and I am learning to move on and continue to love me and have a happy life. Let go of the things that I can not control and take it for what it is.

I love the feeling of being happy and at peace. I am letting it all go. I am happy and content!

Blessings and Love!

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Structures!

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Solid foundations laid with care

Towers rise, grand as they dare

Rigid frames and beams align

Uniting strength with design

Concrete, steel, and wooden hues

Trust in what the builders choose

Unbending forms that shape our space 

Reflecting skill, enduring grace 

Every piece in place, secure 

Structure stands, steadfast and pure 

Blessings and Love! 

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