Tag Archives: Lost

Time

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Time flies past us

As life goes on

Time

Something we have no control over

Time

Waits for no one

Time

We think we have more of it

Think again we really don’t

Time

With life combines, can be chaos

Time

Here and now

Moving at a fast pace

Slows down for NONE

Time

While we stand still, waiting and wanting more

Times flies by us

With no worries

No commitments

Time

Comes with regret, hurt, lost, pain, sadness, numbness

Time

Brings life problems

Time moving fast

Time something we cannot stop

But we must keep moving

Time

Something life will never

Be without

Life goes on, no matter what

Time

We stand by and watch

Time

Again, we cannot stop

Whether we want to or not

-Time-

Blessings and Love

Thank you for reading!.

Those I Love! 

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I cherish the memories 

Of the love that once was mine 

Though my lost loves has departed 

Their love still lives on in time 

I keep their love alive each day 

In the little things I do 

The way I smile, the words I say 

Reflect the love that once was true 

Their love is like a guiding light 

That leads me through the dark 

And though they’re gone, with all my might 

Their love still leaves its mark 

Here’s to the love that once we shared 

And to the love that still remains 

May it continue to be cherished 

And forever hold its place 

Blessings and Love! 

Thank you for reading. 

Push Away…

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My shadows deep and whispers low, I tread a path so lone

Where echoes of my footsteps keep a rhythm, soft, monotone

Around me, souls reach out in hope, their warmth a fleeting day

Yet, in this dance, I falter and choose instead to push away

The world is a tapestry of bonds, threads intertwining tight

Each stitch a promise, colored bright, against the fall of night

But fear, like frost, creeps in my heart, turning warmest gold to gray

And in my chill, I draw the veil and gently push away

Why do I guard this fortress, keep its gates so closely drawn?

Why do I fear the touch of dawn, the light before the morning?

Perhaps in solitude, I find bittersweet dismay

For, in the end, it’s me I’ve lost each time I push away

Yet, in the quiet hope whispers, a tender, fragile strain

Maybe bridges can be built where only walls remain

With cautious steps, could I reach out, let in the light of day?

Or will I wander, evermore, a soul that pushes away?

-Push Away-

Blessings and Love!

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Unwanted

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That feeling of being unwanted

Feeling unwanted. Pushed away, casted out

When all I hear is

We don’t want you

You don’t belong

Unwanted

Hearing them loud and clear

Hear it in my mind

Hear it in my heart

Unwanted

I question myself constantly

Is it how I look?

Is it how I talk? Or act?

Unwanted

Feeling unheard, hidden

Feeling misunderstood at times

Thinking how can I be better

For them

Unwanted

Alone

No one by my side

Walking that lonely road

That feeling all my life

Unwanted

That feeling of no love

Thinking would it always be this way?

Is there something wrong with me

Unwanted

And searching for

Someone to hear me, see me and

Love me

In this world of chaos

Just unwanted

That feeling that I don’t like.

-Unwanted-

Blessings and Love

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More by Ray’Elaine

Abandonment
Wasted Time

Boxed In

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Inside the box

That they want you in

Feel funny

Not right

You not you

They not really who they say

They are

Chaos

All around

In this box

Cornered

Scared

Hopeless

You not you

They not what they say

In this little box

I suffer

I am quiet

Do what they want

It is their show

In this box

Sit still

No movement

Mind constantly going

Closed in

What is to come

In this box

Afraid

Lost

Find a way out

Screaming in this box

Let me out

You not you

They are not who they say

What to do in

This box

Let it be

Not say a word

Silence

Do not Speak

Keep it hush

You, not you

They are not who they say

Can I trust me

Can I trust them

This box

I

Am in

Will it be

My life

My sanity

This box

Take ownership

All on me

Pain, hurt, brainwashed

Happy pretending

Will I let them get away?

Do they win?

In this box

Alone

Or

Will I fight

Fight to

Get out this

Box

Confined

Struggling

Speaking but not heard

Will be weak no more

Awake

Ready

Scream, fight shout

My way

Out this

Box.

You, not you

They are not who they say

This box

Me in it

Will go away.

I say think above it all

I say fuck that box

I survive,

That box can suck it!

Blessings and Love!

Thank you for reading.

**A Poem**

Boxed in… No Thanks

My Heart Guarded II

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This heart is guarded,

Afraid to give and receive love

Scared to open up

To expose these vulnerabilities.

The fear of being hurt

Of being left broken and shattered

Dismissed, unwanted

It holds me back from taking risks

From letting someone in.

Yet deep down

There is a longing for connection

For a love that is pure and true

A love that can heal and mend.

So, this heart is guarded

Continues to search and yearn

Hoping one day I will find

The courage to take the leap

And give and receive love fearlessly

But, Damn

My heart is still guarded……

Blessings and Love! 🖤🤎💙💛💗💚🧡💜🤍❤️

Thank you for reading.

My Heart Guarded

Forgetting/Forgiving

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Forgetting/Forgiving

I know you are supposed to forgive people and move on with life. Yeah, that is hard to do, well for me it is. Why? Because all I think about is how a person did me wrong or harmed me, and then I do not know why they did it. I am left feeling lost and confused. I have a hard time forgetting the past and forgiving those in my past, I mean all of it, all the bad, and that is probably my biggest problem. I feel like I still live in the past, and that is not cool. I try to forget about it, but pain and anger will not let me, I do not know why I am still this way. I try to not think about stuff. This is something I am working on I need to let it all go and really move on with my life. Try not to seek revenge and be happy with my life. Try to forgive those who have brought harm my way.

I heard that forgiving a person helps. Holding on to hurt can release the emotions it can bring and help with built-up anger. You are not doing any good by holding on to the hurt. I pray that I can forgive people because this feeling of holding on or wanting to hurt back is not good. I am learning how to forgive day by day.

Have you felt like you could not forgive someone? Was it hard to forgive? What do you think?

Thank you for reading.

Facade

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In the shadows where none can see

I wear a mask, not truly me

A facade of smiles, a facade of cheer

Hiding the truth I hold dear

Behind the laughter, behind the lies

A part of me slowly dies

I play my part, I play my role

But deep inside, I lose control

So here I stand, with the facade in place

Hiding the tears on my face

But deep within, a spark remains

Yearning to break free from these chains

-Facade-

Blessings and Love!

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Straight Up!

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If you have to keep questioning my feelings and everything thing I say or do. You should leave me alone. Obviously, you don’t trust my words or me. Like damn, why bother. Just leave me the fuck alone if that’s the case. I don’t just put my feelings out there and when I do a person dismiss them or don’t believe them. This is why I like to stay guarded. Seriously why would I waste my time putting my feelings out there just because…. Make it make sense. Straight Up.


Wasted time……


If you don’t trust me, let me be. If your insecurities and Jealousy is in the way, fix it or keep it to yourself and away from me. That doesn’t seem like love to me, questioning what I do or how I do it all the time. So annoying and I can do without it. Straight Up.


Ugh Damned if I do, Damned if I don’t.


Story of my life and annoying.

Just my thoughts and venting a little…… Straight Up


Blessings and Love!
Thank you for reading.

Mistakes and I

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In her mistakes she finds her strength

Lust and power drive her to great lengths

Her deep soul yearns for something more

Love’s sweet embrace she can’t ignore.

Though flawed, she stands tall and bold

Her story yet to be fully told

With each step, she learns and grows

Her heart full of passion that overflows.

Oh, how she stumbles, but never falls

Her spirit unbreakable through it all

For in her mistakes, she finds her way

Towards a brighter, more beautiful, blissful day

Thank you for reading.

More By Ray’Elaine!

Mistakes

Lessons

https://writeblg.com/2023/03/07/lessons-ii/