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Lies and more LIES

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Lies and more lies, Liar

Hello all

Liars on Blast lol

Want to blog about liars, lying. Why is it that people lie so much. Like why especially when they lie over stuff so small or lie just because. People go around putting on fronts or I like to call it their mask. They lie about who they are, they identity. Or lie about any and everything. Yes, I know that it happens a lot and I just be thinking and wondering why they do it. It is something that I truly do not understand at all. Maybe because I am an honest person no matter the situation, I will always be honest with people. Why? Because I do not like to be lied to that shit hurts. So, I wouldn’t lie to others just because I can and get away with it smh. I have heard that some people do it to avoid hurting someone but lies make everything worse. Well, that is what I think. It is such a big deal in any type of relationship you or in whether it is family or friends a lie is a freaking lie and can be wrong like seriously. I think some people do not realize it maybe because they are all about themselves and don’t care. How hard is it to be upfront and honest about who you are and what you are about. Again, something I don’t understand and probably never will. Thought about writing about lying because I am currently dealing with it, so many people around me who does it a lot and it is super annoying. Something I explain to my kids about honest and integrity. Your presents and words can concern others. It is okay to be honest and be yourself. Do you agree? Have you dealt with a person who constantly lies? How did you deal with it? Again, people why lie? Annoyed seriously

Thinking, venting of course too much shady shit going on and I do not like it. Time for changes, change the untrustworthy people around me. Please feel free to like, comment, and share.

Love, Peace, Happiness, and Blessings all

Thank you for reading.

This Day….

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This Day..Trying

Today I woke up at 4 in the morning screaming and crying out for my mom. Felt scared and lonely. I miss her so much. Wishing I can give her a call I so bad want to hear her voice. I miss her beautiful smile and being around her. Today is so emotional besides missing and thinking about my mom, I am thinking about 9-11 what happened on this day 20 years ago. I still remember where I was at and what I was doing. So, devastating, I remember that was on my mind for months. So much lost and pain that day. It is a day I feel will always be remembered. Again, today has been emotional and I have been trying to do different things to keep my mind off things. It has been hard and as of right now my hear is heavy and all I want to do is drink the pain away. Just a sad day. Maybe try more writing this evening. I don’t know cannot shake this feeling. Venting and feelings out.

Hope you all are doing okay and having a good day. Praying for us all.

Love, Peace, Happiness, and Blessings

Thank you for reading.

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Numb… — Just Write

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At this point I feel helpless, hopeless, soul less. Feel numb to it all my days and nights are a blur. I am constantly pacing and can not focus. Music helps a little. Heart is steadily racing and thinking the worst. It is really bad cause I don’t have anyone to talk to and I […]

Numb… — Just Write

The feeling of this tonight. Praying on it……. And more praying!

What A Day. Hope yours was better. Blessings!

Have a goodnight everyone!!!

Thank you

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Can We

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Can We????

Can we share our worlds

Can we share our secrets

Can we be together in darkness

Can we survive the battles

Can we take a loving oath

Can we face our enemies as one

Can we face our demons

Can we love each other throughout the madness

Can we have passion

Can we last

Can we love till the end of time? Have it all, Forever

My future husband

Can we?

Thank you for reading.

#CanWE

Storms!

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Storms…

There will be bad days, there will be good days there will be days where its up and down. I know it will be a process and I will not feel better overnight. This process, this storm I am in will not last long. Strong winds, heavy rain, hail, lighting, and thundering will not keep me down.

Storm is strong raging on, and I am thankful I am not at the moment. storms continue, I will continue to be strong. Stronger than the winds, stronger than my battles. I will survive this storm it is the only way.

I will be calm; I will not rage with the storm. Yes, I am better than that. One day at a time I tell myself I got this. And I do strength and guidance and with God.

This storm again will not me down. Strong Black Woman. I Got This!

I survive storms!

Thank you for reading.

Little Girl Lost

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Lost Little Girl

Little lost girl

Fighting to find her way

Lost with no direction

Sad eyes, heart hurting, mind racing

Wounds open, flesh

Lost little girl

Thrown to the wolves, the sharks, the bad

The ugly, clowns, death

Raging to get free

Surrounded by the unknown, Dark

Lost little girl

Scared, shocked, afraid

Alone, cold, wondering

Mad, darkness, raged, shaking

Lost in a world, no clue

She is lost, no soul, no nothing

Lost little girl

Can she be found???

Thank You For Reading.

****Just A Poem!!****

Move On…

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When it’s time to move on, that’s just the thing to do. Do not try to force things. Sometimes it’s better to move on and focus on yourself. Everything happens for a reason and you can’t stay stuck wondering why. It can hurt if you have to let a person go but always put yourself and feelings first. Do what is right for you. Move on, heal, and become a better version of you.

Yes it will take time if hurt and pain is there, just take it one day at a time. Trust I know it’s hard. Even if it’s moving on from an old job, or leaving a state or town, changing school, anything. Change can be hard.

Moving on from anything in life can be challenging, have faith and pray that everything will be alright.

Just thinking tonight want to make some changes and move on from the past. Letting out my thoughts and feelings. Just Write and get it out!

Thank you for reading.

Trust Issues…

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Trust, this word and it’s meaning. I hate that sometimes it is hard for me to trust people and situations. I tend to question everyone and everything around me. I do not open up easy to people because I automatically don’t trust them. Is this a bad thing?

I really look at people and be like nah you can’t be trusted then I just don’t deal with them. I can honestly say that I do not have any friends. None. The closet person I talk to and hang out with is my sister. I also do not want to bring any type of friends around me and my family who don’t have good intentions. I have been through a lot of shit with different people and maybe that’s why. I don’t know just thinking and venting.

What are yours thoughts on trust? Do you easily trust people you meet? Thinking, thinking, thinking and more thinking of course lol. I hope y’all night is good. Wishing love, peace, happiness, and blessing to you and yours! Thank you for reading.