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My Heart Guarded

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Heart Guarded…

Sometimes I hate that I am so guarded, and I keep everything in. emotions are bottled up and I do not show that side of me. I do not fully put my feelings out there because I have feelings of being wronged and hurt. I do not like to love and be vulnerable, people will use that against you. That is why I guard my mind and my heart. It is true that I can be afraid of rejection. I do not trust easily either I have major trust issues and I know that is holding me back, but I cannot just fully put my trust in others. I am also guarded because I feel like people have negative motives, and I do not like that shit. I am guarded because I have not healed from my past, I need to let go and move on. Is it bad that I cannot let my guard down? Working on changing that, maybe just do not want to get hurt anymore I’ so freaking over it. I am just thinking out loud, my crazy thoughts. SMH it how I am feeling though. My heart is guarded. I need help!

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Wasted Time

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Wasted time

Have you ever met somebody, and you hit it off, and you two get along? The good conversations, then boom it freaking ends. Ugh I hate that. That is why I try not to get too attached and get my feelings involved, because people will switch up and change on you. Like do not introduce me to that if you cannot keep it up. I do not like the “oh I will talk to you only on my time” which is when or who knows when can you say irritated? I like consistency is that hard to ask for? I also do not like my time wasted that is so annoying or do not like my damn feelings hurt. These days it is so hard to find a nice genuine person like myself. Maybe I will take a seat and focus on me. Time to myself and not worrying about pleasing the next person. I really liked the person but oh well what can you do? I will move on and let it go. Whatever. Wasted my damn time, SMH

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Learn to Love

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Gentle guidance with a patient pace

Learning to love it is a daunting race

Heart aflutter, mind is a maze

Fumbling steps, unsure ways

With each stumble, we grow wise

Love’s mysteries, we begin to surmise

Through trials and errors, we improvise

And in our hearts, love multiplies

The ghazal of love, a journey long

But with each step, we grow strong

Learning to love, a lifelong song

With each verse, our hearts belong.

-Learn to Love-

Blessings and Love

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Love I Never Had!

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Damn, feelings and emotions are all over the place
Feelings and thoughts of can I be in love?
I Love the way he makes me feel
It’s really a
Love I Never Had
An understanding love
He gets me, and speaks to me with respect
His care for me and mine for him
It’s a
Love I Never Had
Trusting
Blushing
Feeling appreciated
It’s really a
Love I Never Had
Sometimes makes me wonder
I pause, I’m not too sure
All in my head
Thinking it can’t be real
A love I never had
Believing in me, my dreams
Our future
Encourage me to keep going
Even when I don’t want to, he won’t let me sink
His kind words and gentle voice
Love of gentleness
It’s really a
Love I never had
Feeling safe and secure, wanted
Feel it in my spirit, my heart, in my body
Needing more and more
It’s a
Love I Never Had
He is constantly on my mind
Damn, Day and night
Fighting with me through my pains speaks love to me
He says he cares, he loves me
Me hoping I’m what he needs, what he wants
A soul-to-soul love
A Love I don’t want to fade, want to last forever
Damn, feelings and emotions are all over the place
Still though
It’s a love I Never Had!!!



Blessings and Love!
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A Purpose! 

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Lost in the maze of life’s design 

I search for purpose, a grand design 

I wander through the winding trails 

Hoping that my destiny unveils 

I seek for love, a shining star 

To guide me from the shadows afar 

I yearn for someone to hold my hand 

And lead me to the promised land 

In the quiet of the night, I pray 

For a sign to light my way 

I search for answers in every place 

Hoping to find my rightful space 

Oh, the quest for purpose and love 

A journey that’s always challenging to prove 

But I’ll keep searching, never giving up 

For I know someday, I’ll find my luck 

Still searching…. 

-A Purpose- 

Blessings and Love! 🖤🤎💙💗💚🧡❤🤍💜

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Let It Go

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Let It Go

I am learning day by day that it is okay for me to let things go, let go and be free

Let go of the anger

Let go of the lies

Let go of the pain

Let go of those who are toxic to you and your well being

Let go of it all

Let go and open your mind

Let go and open your heart, let go and let God

Let go and welcome sunshine into your life

Let it all go

It is okay and I am learning to move on and continue to love me and have a happy life. Let go of the things that I can not control and take it for what it is.

I love the feeling of being happy and at peace. I am letting it all go. I am happy and content!

Blessings and Love!

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Elevate! 

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Elevating, believing in myself 

I hear my voice. It echoes with wealth 

A wealth of confidence and inner strength 

A power within that goes to great length 

Lengths that I once thought were out of reach 

Now I know that my goals I can breach 

My doubts and fears fall away like dust 

As I rise higher in myself, I trust 

Trust in the journey, trust in the climb 

With each step forward, I’m on the incline 

The top may be far, but I will prevail 

For I am capable, and my spirit will not fail 

Elevating, believing in myself 

I hear my voice. It echoes with wealth! 

Blessings and Love! 

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Growing!

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Concrete raised me rough, but I learned to move clean through the noise

I’m growing

Every block tried to mark me, but I flipped the script, and kept my poise

I’m growing

I’ve seen nights that swallowed whole dreams

Left pockets and hearts empty

Still, I stitched my spirit tight, turned hunger into voice

I’m growing

People love the shine now, never the grind

Never the bruised‑knuckle climb

But the mirror knows the truth: I earned every inch of choice

I’m growing

I walk with a calm that comes from surviving storms nobody saw

My shadow stands taller now, carrying a different kind of noise

I’m growing

My path is a garden.

Wild, stubborn, undeniable and beautiful

Every step I take writes its own truth, recognize its own voice.

It’s forever ongoing

I’m growing!

Blessings and Love.

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  • Pause For A Min.
    by Ray’Elaine
    Stop for a moment, let your thoughts just pauseBreathe in deeply, let your worries take a pauseRelax your mind, let your tensions softly fadePause and breathe, a moment’s peace is made. Blessings and Love! Thank you for reading.
  • Sabotage.
    by Ray’Elaine
    In my mind, a constant battle waged A war between reason and impulse, uncaged I knew what was right, what I should do Yet self-sabotage always seemed to ensue. Hurting those I loved, leaving them in tears My actions driven by my deepest fears I couldn’t seem to break free of this curse My inner … Continue reading Sabotage. →
  • The Weight of What Was Real!
    by Ray’Elaine
    The truth came not as a whisper Just raw But a loud thunderclap at dawn Shattering the silence  We’d built our lives upon It wore no mask of mercy No veil to soften the blow Just raw An unvarnished memory  Of things we didn’t know It peeled back painted stories Exposed the hidden seams Turning … Continue reading The Weight of What Was Real! →
  • Clarity!
    by Ray’Elaine
    Mind’s eye opens wide The fog of doubt dissipates Clarity Understanding blooms like dawn Insight -Clarity- Blessings and Love! Thank you for visiting.
  • Possessed Phone!
    by Ray’Elaine
    In the eerie, stiff night a witch took flightHer broomstick riding highBut as she soared, she grew boredAnd pulled out her phone with a sighThe device was new, its features grandAnd the witch was quite impressedShe scrolled and swiped with her bony handUntil she became possessedThe phone controlled her every thoughtHer fingers, they did shakeThe … Continue reading Possessed Phone! →

Football Girl 

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There once was a girl who loved football 
Her team loyalty, she did not cull 
With the NFL on the screen 
She was living her dream 
Having fun and feeling those chill vibes in full 

She’d cheer for her team with great pride 
Her passion for the game could not hide 
Her love for football 
Was infectious to all 
And with her, others would soon abide 

On game day, she’d gather with friends 
Their excitement, she’d always extend 
With snacks and drinks in tow 
They’d watch the game’s flow 
And celebrate each touchdown in the end 

If you’re a football girl at heart 
Don’t be afraid to let out a shout or a fart 
Embrace your love for the game 
And let it ignite a flame 
Of fun and chill vibes that never depart 

-Football Girl- 

Blesslings and Love! 

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