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W.N.T-

My thoughts…..

Sometimes it’s best to sit alone and enjoy the quietness.

Alone with your inner self. Enjoy your being, your life, your dreams

Sometimes it’s best to be alone and sit and think about the future and your happiness and peace.

It’s best to have yourself a zen moment. A to myself moment!

Me, Myself and I

Blessings and Love!

Thank you.

Not the day II: NIGHT

Okay, so an update, my mom’s family decided and made a decision I’m sure a really hard one and took my grandpa off life support earlier today. R.I.P. to my grandpa I can not lie and say I am doing okay.  I am in breakdown mode. He and my mom are together, and I know they will continue to watch over me and be with me. I am sad and just down, very down. Seriously I cannot concentrate, and again like I stated in my blog earlier my emotions are everywhere. WTF and my mind is going miles. Kind of pissed I had to find out on Facebook but I know people are going through it and feeling the loss and grief so I can not take it too personally and take it for what it is. Such a sad night and sorry for the negative post. Your girl is just going through a lot right now and no lie feel like losing it.

 Smoking and drinking(Yeah some do not agree and so what), trying to feel numb that is my night, my mood and honestly, I do not care. Craziness… Too much going on.  For real I am kind of panicking.  Yeah, such a damn day and night.

She venting AGAIN

Love you all and hope your night is better

Again, praying for my family. Strength, guidance, healing, protection, and love.

Blessings and Love!

Thank you for reading.

Not the day.

So today I am trying to keep it all together I have been praying all night as well as this morning. I am in a mood this morning and trying to shake these feelings but man nothing is helping at the moment, I know it is morning, but I really want a few drinks just to feel a little numb. On my mom’s side of the family her dad, my grandpa is on life support, and I am feeling down and depressed about it. The last time I have seen him was around this time last year when I went with my mom to Kansas City, Missouri to see her family before she passed. I am at a loss right now and maybe feeling a little guilty for not talking to him or seeing him sooner. I feel bad and beating myself up about it. He is a good man and been good to his family.

Got that news yesterday as well as news of my uncle on my dad side, his big brother is not feeling well and might be going to hospice due to kidney failure which is what my mom dealt with and she died of kidney failure, which in two weeks it will be a year since she passed. She is always on my mind and often want her. So much is going on with me right now, just want to escape it all. Praying for all my family and hoping things get better. It just seems like it is always something especially when I am trying to overcome things of the past. Ugh, today is not a good one, hopefully, I can get over it all. This post is nothing new about my feelings its just I feel it is too much at one time and I feel hopeless, lost, and scared. So tired of losses Damn. Might have to take a trip to Kansas City, Missouri to see family and give my support to my family.

I am sad, hurt, emotions all over the place.

Just wanted to come and vent my heart is heavy all over again and still thinking about my mom so I’m just a lost cause today. Please pray for me. Thank you all for the support and reading my blog I know I tend to just ramble.

Praying for better days…..

Blessings and Love

Thank you for reading.

Unhealthy Habits.

When I think about my body and the bad habits that I have, I think about trying to make a change. I say try because I know that it will be hard and would be a process, especially if it is something that has been done for ten-plus years. I want to try to stop smoking cigarettes. Also, my drinking and smoking have picked up lately. Just doing too much. Need to stop it all. I know that it is not helping me, my mind, body, and soul. Add to that I do not eat healthy either, love junk food too much. Honestly do not know where to start. I have so many bad habits that need to be moderated or cut completely. Damn bad habits.

This is something that has been on my mind, especially the smoking/drinking thing need to get rid of it. Seems like it is getting very excessive, and I try to stop it. Damn bad habits….

Guess I have to check myself on this. Talk to my doctor and do some research and figure out what is best for me. Cut down on the foods that I eat too much of, cut the drinking, cut cigarettes and hopefully fully stop. I will figure this out and make the right decision. Sometimes in life, a change is needed and why not start with the bad, horrible habits that I have. Even on those tough days, I need to find a different and better solution. Damn unpleasant habits…

Most of us have them.

How is it going? Are there any unhealthy habits you would like to get rid of?

Do you wish to make changes soon? Any tips on healthy eating? Stop smoking? Help LOL!!

Blessings and Love!

Thank you for reading.

On the inside- A different person

A different person

You ever met a person who is beautiful, handsome and has it all together? Or so it seems that way.

On the outside everything is great. The person seem nice, strong, independent, has goals, but on the inside, the real them tells a different story. They can look a certain way to please who they want which is a cover up but act differently around others. They can be extremely mean and unpleasant to be around.

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It is crazy how well you think you know a person when in all honesty you do not know anything but what they tell which is of course lies. Do you know anyone like this? Later down the road you start to think who the hell is this person? What happened to the person I met? Man, these people are good at what they do they are good at acting, seriously a wolf in sheep’s clothing. I have met a person like this and all I can say is Scary. I know it is hard to tell how a person is and who they really are when you met them, I say that to say please people be careful. Be careful who you give yourself access to. Be careful who you trust. My thoughts, letting it out. Thank you for reading.

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Black Entrepreneurs Day 2021



Hello everyone!


It’s Black Entrepreneurs Day

Tonight I am watching a live stream on Facebook for Black Entrepreneurs Day. Daymond John put on the event streaming live. I am so inspired by all the businesses and there is great information being shared. I love when people come together and help others. In the stream they had people who have received grants on their business, also those who came on to share what their business is all about and gave advice on how to get started. So many great people also some celebrities came on giving back to others. I love it. Get focused and stop the self doubt. You can do it, start your business, or whatever project you want and make it happen.


Watching this again has inspired me to really get things going. So many ideas I have and it’s time to just do and get started. Happy Black Entrepreneurs Day!!!!


Do you have a business? How did you get started? Any advice to newbies?


Blessings All!!!


Thank you for reading.


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Lies and more LIES

Lies and more lies, Liar

Hello all

Liars on Blast lol

Want to blog about liars, lying. Why is it that people lie so much. Like why especially when they lie over stuff so small or lie just because. People go around putting on fronts or I like to call it their mask. They lie about who they are, they identity. Or lie about any and everything. Yes, I know that it happens a lot and I just be thinking and wondering why they do it. It is something that I truly do not understand at all. Maybe because I am an honest person no matter the situation, I will always be honest with people. Why? Because I do not like to be lied to that shit hurts. So, I wouldn’t lie to others just because I can and get away with it smh. I have heard that some people do it to avoid hurting someone but lies make everything worse. Well, that is what I think. It is such a big deal in any type of relationship you or in whether it is family or friends a lie is a freaking lie and can be wrong like seriously. I think some people do not realize it maybe because they are all about themselves and don’t care. How hard is it to be upfront and honest about who you are and what you are about. Again, something I don’t understand and probably never will. Thought about writing about lying because I am currently dealing with it, so many people around me who does it a lot and it is super annoying. Something I explain to my kids about honest and integrity. Your presents and words can concern others. It is okay to be honest and be yourself. Do you agree? Have you dealt with a person who constantly lies? How did you deal with it? Again, people why lie? Annoyed seriously

Thinking, venting of course too much shady shit going on and I do not like it. Time for changes, change the untrustworthy people around me. Please feel free to like, comment, and share.

Love, Peace, Happiness, and Blessings all

Thank you for reading.