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Mad….

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Mad at life, mad at the world, mad

The anger within me makes me feel so bad

Why does everything have to be so hard?

Why can’t life just give me a break, a card?

I’m tired of struggling, tired of the pain,

I want to scream, to shout, to break the chains

But instead, I bottle it up, keep it inside

And let the anger fester, grow, and hide.

I know I shouldn’t be so mad at life

But sometimes it feels like an endless strife

I try to find hope, to see the light

But it’s hard to do when everything feels like a fight.

So, I’ll keep on going, keep on trying

And maybe one day, I’ll stop my crying

Until then, I’ll be mad at life, mad at the world, mad

And hope that someday, things won’t be so bad.

-MAD-

***A Poem***

Blessings and Love!

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Boxed In

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Inside the box

That they want you in

Feel funny

Not right

You not you

They not really who they say

They are

Chaos

All around

In this box

Cornered

Scared

Hopeless

You not you

They not what they say

In this little box

I suffer

I am quiet

Do what they want

It is their show

In this box

Sit still

No movement

Mind constantly going

Closed in

What is to come

In this box

Afraid

Lost

Find a way out

Screaming in this box

Let me out

You not you

They are not who they say

What to do in

This box

Let it be

Not say a word

Silence

Do not Speak

Keep it hush

You, not you

They are not who they say

Can I trust me

Can I trust them

This box

I

Am in

Will it be

My life

My sanity

This box

Take ownership

All on me

Pain, hurt, brainwashed

Happy pretending

Will I let them get away?

Do they win?

In this box

Alone

Or

Will I fight

Fight to

Get out this

Box

Confined

Struggling

Speaking but not heard

Will be weak no more

Awake

Ready

Scream, fight shout

My way

Out this

Box.

You, not you

They are not who they say

This box

Me in it

Will go away.

I say think above it all

I say fuck that box

I survive,

That box can suck it!

Blessings and Love!

Thank you for reading.

**A Poem**

Boxed in… No Thanks

Surgery

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Have you ever had surgery? What for?
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Yes, I have had a few surgeries. I have had two C-Sections. I also had my gallstones removed, and there was a stone stuck in my lungs (Scary) so I had to have back-to-back surgery for that. I still have the picture of it (EWE) It happened in 2012 a week after giving birth to my daughter which was my second C-Section. So yes, I was in so much pain and had to be in recovery for weeks. That was the last time I had surgery. Thankfully.

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Worry….ME

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Are you a person who can easily walk away from challenging situations? Are you a person who can easily forgive? Easily forget the negative.

I am not that person. I worry too much and think about the past way too much. Something I do not like about myself. I am always on edge, and thinking about my past makes it worse, and then anxiety kicks in. Wish it were easy for me to forget stuff, to forgive, and to trust more. Want to easily walk away with no wounds. Wishful thinking huh? Yeah, it is annoying at times, and wish I could just leave the negative shit in the past. I worry too much it is crazy. Again, wish I can easily walk away from all the bad. Worrying a lot is stressful.

Ugh, too much on my mind right now, and I want to get away. Head spinning and mind racing fast. Have you ever had one of those days? Praying for it as always. Just writing to get my thoughts and feelings and vent out. Sometimes I have to whether it is a negative post or not. I just want to be able to forgive and forget. I am me, and right now, I am worrying and having anxiety, I must admit writing does help as it calms me for a moment. Praying for all of those having those bad days. Breathe and pray about it. Have faith.

Blessings and Love!

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Cuts of Pain

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Cut Deep

The pain cuts deep, a wound unseen

Lost and hurt, I try to glean

A way forward, to heal and mend

But the ache persists, it does not end

I mourn the loss of what once was

A love that’s gone, now just because

Of things unsaid, or left undone

I wish I could go back, and be someone

Who knew how to love, and how to care

Who could have saved us, from this despair

Now all that’s left, is this elegy

A tribute to what once was, but now must be

Laid to rest, and let go of

The pain and hurt, that once was love

May we find peace, in the memories we keep

And solace in the knowledge, that love runs deep.

While being deep in cuts of pain.

-Cuts Of Pain-

Blessings and Love!

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Scared to Love!

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She lived her life in solitude,
Afraid to give her heart away,
For every time she let someone close
They left her with nothing to say

She was scared of love and all its pain
Of the heartbreak that it brought
So, she built a wall around her heart
And kept her feelings in a knot

She watched as others fell in love
And wanted that bliss, that feeling of love 
But the thought of opening her heart up
Was something she couldn’t dismiss

One day she met a special someone 
Who saw through her tough facade 
And slowly but surely, he broke down her walls
Until she was no longer scared

She learned that love can be a beautiful thing
When shared with the right person
And that taking a chance on love
Is always worth the risk of hurting

So, if you’re scared of love like she once was
Just remember that it’s okay
When you find the right person
All those fears will fade away….. 

-Scared To Love- 

Blessings and Love 

Thank you for reading.

Forgetting/Forgiving

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Forgetting/Forgiving

I know you’re supposed to forgive people and move on with life. Yeah, that is hard to do, well for me it is. Why? Because all I think about is how a person did me wrong or harmed me, and then I do not know why they did it. I am left feeling lost and confused. I have a hard time forgetting the past and forgiving those in my past; I mean all of it, all the bad, and that is probably my biggest problem. I feel like I still live in the past, and that is not cool. I try to forget about it, but pain and anger will not let me, I do not know why I am still this way, I try to not think about stuff. This is something I am working on I need to let it all go and really move on with my life. Try not to seek revenge and be happy with my life. Try to forgive those who have brought harm my way.

I heard that by forgiving a person you help yourself. You can release the emotions it can bring by holding on to it, and it helps with built-up anger. You are not doing any good by holding on to the hurt. I pray that I can forgive people because this feeling of holding on or wanting to hurt back is not good. I am learning day by day how to forgive. Have you felt like you could not forgive someone? Was it hard to forgive? What do you think?

Blessings and Love!

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MOM

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Want to say Happy Heavenly Birthday to my mom. Even though I am sad and still hurt that she is not here I am going to be strong today. Do my writing like I know she wants me to continue to do. Really wish I can hear her voice but again I am going to make it through this day with happy memories of her. Missing her so much and still praying for healing and strength. I love and miss you, mom. Just Showing love to my mom. And know strength is needed badly. Prayers going up

Blessings all

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In My Heart

Forever LOVE

Bitterness 

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I used to be a soul full of love 

My heart was pure, and my spirit dove 

But betrayal and lies left me alone 

Now, my heart is as hard as a stone 

I see the world through jaded eyes 

My trust in others has met its demise 

I’ve been scorned and left to wither 

My soul now bitter like a poisoned river 

I try to let go of the pain and hurt 

But the wounds are deep, and they still assert 

I pray for solace and a new start 

But the bitterness in my heart won’t depart 

I know deep down inside 

That this bitterness I must abide 

For it is a part of who I am 

A survivor of Love’s cruel scam 

Blessings and Love! 

Thank you for reading.