She lived her life in solitude, Afraid to give her heart away, For every time she let someone close They left her with nothing to say
She was scared of love and all its pain Of the heartbreak that it brought So, she built a wall around her heart And kept her feelings in a knot
She watched as others fell in love And wanted that bliss, that feeling of love But the thought of opening her heart up Was something she couldn’t dismiss
One day she met a special someone Who saw through her tough facade And slowly but surely, he broke down her walls Until she was no longer scared
She learned that love can be a beautiful thing When shared with the right person And that taking a chance on love Is always worth the risk of hurting
So, if you’re scared of love like she once was Just remember that it’s okay When you find the right person All those fears will fade away…..
What’s the thing you’re most scared to do? What would it take to get you to do it?
-There are a few….
The thing I am most scared to do is Loose control. In a good way and a bad way. I like to be in control, and I feel that I am scared to lose that. I am not sure of what it will take for me to stop fearing my control issues. On the other hand, sometimes, I feel like I am losing control in a way that is bad and a lot of chaos. My attitude can be bad, and if I am pushed, it’s so much worse. Working on my healing to change that.
I am also scared to drive. I am grown, and I do not drive; it is a fear of mine. I don’t know why I just don’t face my fear and try it. It’s something that is always on my mind. I think I will seek help on how to face that fear. I get so scared, and my anxiety goes up when i am in a vehicle..Crazy right? Another one is scared to open up to people. I keep a guard up and don’t really interact much. I keep my distance and keep to myself. This is something else that I have been working on.
Those are the things I am scared of the most. Might be simple or weird things. I own it.
Why is it that fear seems to be a reason that holds us back? Well, some people including me. Is it the fear of the unknown that makes us pause and put on hold what we really want to do? Is it the fear of rejection? The fear of taking risks. The fear of not being good enough? Fear can bring a lot to a halt.
For me, it is the fear of the unknown. I tend to shut down because I don’t know what is to come. That is why it has been taking a while with my book. I know I am good at writing and have a creative imagination and good ideas. I question everything and think of the what if’s, what if it is not good enough? What if people don’t like what I put out. Questions swimming around in my head, and sometimes the fear of continuing the projects I have going. Fear to put my work out and fear to fully put myself out there and do what is necessary. The fear to take the risks to get out of my comfort zone. Has anyone else had or had this problem? Though fear is within me, I am still trying to overcome it. I tell myself that I must change a lot and be willing to do different things that I usually don’t do. I do feel like it is fear that is holding me back. Writing for this blog sometimes comes easy, and I just write and just do. I have three books that I am working on, and I need to get them done and published. Want to get over the fear of being rejected and the fear of the unknown. Also, get rid of the overthinking too. Want to get rid of my fear of publishing my books and my fear of driving. I know crazy that I love to write but am scared to put some of my work out in the world. SMH. I know I have to have faith and pray the fears away.
Fears make you stop and not want to do anything. Fear has a way of getting in the way of life. Some people stay living in fear and don’t know how to get out of it. Fear can tear you down if you can’t overcome it. Being afraid can ruin your life.
Again, it can hold some back. And I don’t like that I have a little fear, but it is my life and I own it and trying to change it.
What do you think? Ever feared something in life? Do you like to take risks? Is fear getting in the way of your life? What does fear mean to you?
How long does it take for you to really like a person? How long does it take you to let them know how you feel? Do you wait and be patient to see if the feelings are mutual? Or do you let them know right away and deal with the outcome regardless of what it is?
I am asking this because I am an overthinker and I am guarded. So, sometimes I hold back my true feelings and because I do not like rushing at anything. I tend to cut people off early on, regardless of how I feel about them. I question myself constantly as to why I am like this, why do I get scared of being in a relationship? Why do I fear that a person do not really want to be with me? I will avoid them and their questions. Sometimes I think it is because I fear that a person will hurt me, I feel their intentions are not pure (not healthy thinking).
Again, I do not know why I think this way. I hate it because, I have made connections and get along with certain people, they piss me off once and I cut them off with no problem. Yes, that is with family too. I do not like to be hurt, yes I know it is a part of life. I have had it where I do put my feelings out and the other person do not feel the same way and they admit that I was just someone to pass the time ( True as fuck) and I was crushed (No LIE) and want one thing from me( ugh so sad).
I admit here and now that I am scared of love, I am scared of commitment, scared of getting let down by someone I truly love, scared of showing all of me and in return I get shit on my face. It is hard to deal with and no lie, my pride, my ego gets in the way sometimes too. I convince myself that a person is no good for me. I do feel bad to those people who genuinely are there for me, they really care about my feelings, it is real love, and I avoid them because of my own issues, my trust issues. Shit that has noting to do with them. I try to get over this and let things flow. But damn my head and my heart have crazy battles, head-to-head clashing most of the time. I really need help to deal with my crazy ways.
How do I fully let my guard down without so much overthinking? How do I fully put my heart and trust into someone else hands? I feel like I self-sabotage. Been doing this for years and probably missed out on real connections, and opportunities. Wanted to talk about this and let this out because I feel like I have finally met the person for me (I Think) but of course I am overthinking every damn thing, and do not want to move forward. Maybe I feel like he is not really real with me and honestly don’t mean shit to him, and I can definitely be wrong about it all,
Thinking and venting. Crazy I feel more comfortable with writing it out and sharing on my blog before letting him know. But my feelings and how I am dealing with it right now. So WHAT!
My blog peeps I need help (LOL) but seriously cause man, man, man he is on my mind constantly like all day. We have so much in common, I like him way more than I let him know, hell I want him something seriously but like I said above homegirl is scared. But why though?
Okay I am done venting on crazy stuff…. I need to seriously get it together. I am grown and need to act like it!
Anybody understand where I am coming from? Any advice? Been there before?
Why is it that fear seems to be a reason that holds us back? Well, some people including me. Is it the fear of the unknown that makes us pause and put on hold what we really want to do? Is it the fear of rejection? The fear of taking risks. The fear of not being good enough? Fear can bring a lot to a halt.
For me, it is the fear of the unknown. I tend to shut down because I don’t know what is to come. That is why it has been taking a while with my book. I know I am good at writing and have a creative imagination and good ideas. I question everything and think of the what if’s, what if it is not good enough, what if people don’t like what I put out. Questions swimming around in my head and sometimes the fear to continue the projects I have going. Fear to put my work out and fear to fully put myself out there and do what is necessary. The fear to take the risks to get out of my comfort zone. Anyone else had or have this problem? Though there is fear within me I am still trying to overcome it. I tell myself that I must change a lot and be willing to do different things that I normally don’t do. I do feel like it is fear that is holding me back. Writing for this blog sometimes comes easy and I just write and just do. I have two books that I am working on still been a year and need to get them done and published. Want to get over the fear of being rejected and the fear of the unknown. Also, get rid of the overthinking too. Want to get rid of my fear of publishing my books and my fear of driving. I know crazy that I love to write but am scared to put some of my work out in the world. SMH. I know I have to have faith and pray the fears away.
Fears make you stop and not want to do anything. Fear has a way of getting in the way of life. Some people stay living in fear and don’t know how to get out of it. Fear can tear you down if you can’t overcome it. Being afraid can ruin your life.
Again, it can hold some back. And I don’t like that I have a little fear, but it is my life and I own it and trying to change it.
What do you think? Ever feared something in life? Do you like to take risks? Is fear getting in the way of your life? What does fear mean to you?
Today I woke up at 4 in the morning screaming and crying out for my mom. Felt scared and lonely. I miss her so much. Wishing I can give her a call I so bad want to hear her voice. I miss her beautiful smile and being around her. Today is so emotional besides missing and thinking about my mom, I am thinking about 9-11 what happened on this day 20 years ago. I still remember where I was at and what I was doing. So, devastating, I remember that was on my mind for months. So much lost and pain that day. It is a day I feel will always be remembered. Again, today has been emotional and I have been trying to do different things to keep my mind off things. It has been hard and as of right now my hear is heavy and all I want to do is drink the pain away. Just a sad day. Maybe try more writing this evening. I don’t know cannot shake this feeling. Venting and feelings out.
Hope you all are doing okay and having a good day. Praying for us all.
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