This year has been incredibly challenging, and I have been tested many times. There were highs and some very lows, and I am still healing from it all. Even with that, it was an okay year. With the new year coming in I am praying for new things and praying for some positive things to work out for me. Also, for the new year, I am setting fresh writing goals and pushing myself harder to get my books done and published. Looking for new and better opportunities. Looking forward to the new year. Hope all is good with everyone. Want to thank those who supported me this year on this blog and in my life. I am grateful and thankful. All the support is appreciated and was needed. Positive thinking moving into the new year.💙💚❤🧡💜💛🤎🖤🖤
What was your best time of the year? How has the year been for you? Any writing resolutions? New writing goals? Are you ready for the new year?
Okay, so I have a thought and not good like I seriously dislike the person I had kids with like I really wish I can go back in time and change it all meeting him and everything. I hate him and yes it’s a strong word but don’t care about him. So much bad blood. Ugghh why did I have to meet him and spend so many years with the dummy. And still, have to be because of the kids. Even though that is a battle, and he doesn’t take care of them. Guess I was the dummy for real, venting again sorry for the bluntness but that is how I feel. I really have hate for him. Sometimes wish I didn’t feel this way but I do. Oh Well. Feels
Sometimes too much to freaking deal with and no help no nothing. Tired of it
I am thinking tooooo much out loud…..Whatever! lol
Questioning myself lately and asking am I ready to date? Thinking about relationships, love, and having someone by my side. Getting that lonely feeling. Just a little scared honestly of putting myself out there, letting my guard down. I also think that it is time to at least try to meet new people. I am a homebody and I need to get out of that. Want to live a little and be happy enjoying my life. My life consists of motherhood, working, writing all day every day. Do some different things. Just doing a little thinking well of course and it’s on my mind. Just don’t know when I would work up the courage to actually do it. Lol.
I am still a work in progress and still trying to learn to trust. Blah Blah Blah my life is boring…. Thinking out loud.
Wow, I cannot believe that tomorrow is Christmas. To me, it just does not seem like it is the holidays. Just seems like another day. Maybe because so much is going on in the world that it can be hard to get in the Christmas spirit, hard to focus or be happy. I am just sitting here thinking of memories from when I was a kid and me and my siblings could not wait till Christmas. We used to stay up all night days before Christmas and talk about what we thought our gifts were. There were some nights where we just stared at the tree and were overly excited ready for Christmas day. I miss the old days and how things used to be. Since I got older it has never been the same. Does anybody else feel like this? Again, I am sitting here going down memory lane and thinking heavy. On the other hand, I cannot wait to see my kid’s faces light up when they open their gifts. I am trying to get in the spirit.
Are you ready for Christmas? How are you dealing with everything?
You ever met a person who is beautiful, handsome and has it all together? Or so it seems that way.
On the outside everything is great. The person seem nice, strong, independent, has goals, but on the inside, the real them tells a different story. They can look a certain way to please who they want which is a cover up but act differently around others. They can be extremely mean and unpleasant to be around.
It is crazy how well you think you know a person when in all honesty you do not know anything but what they tell which is of course lies. Do you know anyone like this? Later down the road you start to think who the hell is this person? What happened to the person I met? Man, these people are good at what they do they are good at acting, seriously a wolf in sheep’s clothing. I have met a person like this and all I can say is Scary. I know it is hard to tell how a person is and who they really are when you met them, I say that to say please people be careful. Be careful who you give yourself access to. Be careful who you trust. My thoughts, letting it out. Thank you for reading.
Are you a person who can easily walk away from challenging situations? Are you a person who can easily forgive? Easily forget the negative.
Me I am not that person. I worry too much and think about the past way too much. Something I do not like about myself. I am always on edge and thinking about my past makes it worst and then anxiety kicks in. Wish it were easy for me to forget stuff, to forgive, and trust more. Want to easily walk away with no wounds. Wishful thinking huh? Yeah, it is annoying at times, and wish I could just leave the negative shit in the past. I worry too much it is crazy. Again, wish I can easily walk away from all the bad. Worrying a lot is stressful.
Ugh too much on my mind right now and want to getaway. Head spinning and mind racing fast. You ever had one of those days? Praying on it as always. Just writing to get my thoughts, feelings, and venting out. Sometimes I have to whether it is a negative post or not. I just want to be able to forgive and forget. I am me and right now I am worrying and having anxiety, must admit writing does help as it is calming for a moment. Praying for all of those having those bad days. Breathe and pray about it. Have faith.
So today was an okay day. I have the weekend to myself, some good ol me time before my kids head back to school. My kids went out of town for the weekend to meet family and have a fun weekend. I had to check my nerves because I was so nervous about them going out of town without me. Anxious and nervous and of course praying. I am going to use this time wisely and pray they are having fun.
So besides that, I have been writing and editing and it was going great for hours then BOOM my mind went blank and I couldn’t think, focus, or write. Just was staring at my notebook for some minutes waiting for something to come to mind. It’s crazy how I was writing and flowing and then can’t focus, can you say annoyed? Guess it is time for a break or be done for the night. Had some writing goals for this weekend and was hoping to get farther than what I did in my book today. Whew let me take a breather do not want to force anything nothing good comes out of that. Maybe I will read a book or find a good movie to watch do not know yet kind of overthinking it and pissed I just got stuck like that after writing for hours today. Try harder tomorrow. Happy writing all
How was your day? What to do for writer’s block? Does that happen to you often? Do you have any writing goals and are they challenging? Yes, many questions tonight from Ms. Overthinker.
Well, that is my Saturday. Have a good one. Love, Peace, Happiness, and Blessings
This thing called parenting. Whew can be challenging work at times. I feel like from time to time it is a big challenge. Being a parent, you must always be alert and aware of anything and or anyone around your kids. You have to have those eyes and ears wide open. As a parent you are first a safeguard, a protector loving and caring. Second a provider yes kids are not cheap lol. You have to be a protector and be able to take care of and give your kids the necessities needed in life. Third, you are a teacher as they get older it is the parent’s job to teach their kids the rights and wrongs of the world. Teach them to be respectful, smart. It is the parent’s job to help their child with education needs. Keeping them learning new things, keep them engaged. Fourth the parent is a therapist hearing and seeing what our kids go through it is up to us the parents to steer them in the right direction. Give them loving and encouraging words of wisdom, letting them know you love them. Kids have to know that they can come to their parents with any problem and feel comfortable that the parent will be there and help. Fifth you are a chef and a housekeeper lol. Feeding them and supplying food and clothing and of course from time to time the toys and extra things that they need. Also supplying a way to pay for everything including education. Cleaning up after them until they can for themself and sometimes you still will be doing it as life goes on. Sixth you are somewhat of a punching bag; I don’t mean physical beating or anything violent. I mean that the parent takes on all problems and have no choice but to. Dealing with our kids’ attitudes and sometimes behavioral problems. It is up to us to help our children along the way and sometimes that means we the parents are the bad guys. Kids often feel we are too strict or needy but of course, we want nothing but the best for them. Especially those teenage years. Lol, demanding work I tell you. My son is in sixth grade and his thing is the class clown phase which is challenging because it gets him in trouble. Like I have said above parents are all six things plus more. Most important job, I think.
It can be hard from day to day. As a parent sometimes there is no downtime, time for us with working, cooking, cleaning, and making sure the kids are good we are tapped out. Even with the challenges, the troubled times it is something that I will not change. I feel like becoming a parent has changed me for the good. It is hard because they are of course my first concern, and I cannot easily make decisions like I use to. It puts you on high guard. Parenting keeps you on your toes and with your kids being upfront and honest with you it can be kind of chaotic, yeah sometimes they think they are grown lol. Still will not change it. Parenting is a job that is never-ending.
To all parents out there stay strong no matter what. Hold on to those precious moments and memories, try your hardest to always talk to your kids, and understand how they are feeling, what they are going through. Parents often want to shelter their kids keep them close by not sharing with them the ways of the world. I feel as kids grow it is important for parents to be honest with them, teach them well. This thing called parenting is sometimes easy and sometimes hard. Shout out again to the parents keep your head up and be strong during those challenging times. Our kids are sometimes all we have and vice versa.
My feelings tonight just staring at my kids thinking they are growing too fast lol. I love every minute of it. Thankful and grateful. How do you feel about Parenting? Do you like kids? Do you feel it is a challenge raising kids?
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