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Honest-Feels Tonight

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Hello All,

Man, tonight is not a good night. I have been trying to have a positive outlook, and thoughts about life and have been encouraging others to do the same. But me being honest lately it has been hard to do. Especially today. Tonight, my thoughts are dark, and I have been drinking for hours, which I am not supposed to be doing. Without a damn care in the world. Honestly right now my feelings are numb. I do not care about shit right now, and yeah maybe it is the liquor or maybe my wicked thought’s, how I feel about myself at the moment. I want to unleash. Fight mode. Hurting. All day I have being giving myself pep talks and trying to rise above this dark feeling.

But I am tired. Tired of being there for people who can’t help me with shit. It is only so much a person can take. People who I cannot call on to even talk to.  Tired of it all. All I do is give to others, while I am suffering through a lot. Help them always in their time of need. But who is there for me. And yes, I know you should not help others and look for something in return, but damn people I help sometimes I wish I can call them and need them.

Often, I feel like my feelings do not matter at all. It is all about what a person can get out of me. SAD but it is a truth in my life. You’ll think I will be use to it by now. Same shit different day…

So here I am writing in my notebook and my blog and about to tune everything out. Phone is off, tv is off. Just drinking and thinking (SMH) hopefully this would pass, been here before and it is not good.

Venting and letting it out as always, no matter what it is. If you think this is too dark or not for you. MOVE ON. VENT SESSION

Just rambling on and venting. Just wish I had a person for me to talk to about anything. Yes I am guarded but still haven’t met a person who I trust enough to let them in and be vulnerable with them. Sill working on it,

Anyways back to my fucked-up night. Writing and music take me away.

Hope you all night is better!

My misery does not like company! Even though I go through a lot I do not wish it on others.

She just being HONEST. Tired of it ALL

Have a good one.

Blessings and Love

Thank you for reading.

Fear…

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Why is it that fear seems to be a reason that holds us back? Well, some people including me. Is it the fear of the unknown that makes us pause and put on hold what we really want to do? Is it the fear of rejection? The fear of taking risks. The fear of not being good enough?  Fear can bring a lot to a halt.

For me, it is the fear of the unknown. I tend to shut down because I don’t know what is to come. That is why it has been taking a while with my book. I know I am good at writing and have a creative imagination and good ideas. I question everything and think of the what if’s, what if it is not good enough? What if people don’t like what I put out. Questions swimming around in my head, and sometimes the fear of continuing the projects I have going. Fear to put my work out and fear to fully put myself out there and do what is necessary. The fear to take the risks to get out of my comfort zone. Has anyone else had or had this problem? Though fear is within me, I am still trying to overcome it. I tell myself that I must change a lot and be willing to do different things that I usually don’t do. I do feel like it is fear that is holding me back. Writing for this blog sometimes comes easy, and I just write and just do. I have three books that I am working on, and I need to get them done and published. Want to get over the fear of being rejected and the fear of the unknown. Also, get rid of the overthinking too. Want to get rid of my fear of publishing my books and my fear of driving. I know crazy that I love to write but am scared to put some of my work out in the world. SMH. I know I have to have faith and pray the fears away.

Fears make you stop and not want to do anything. Fear has a way of getting in the way of life. Some people stay living in fear and don’t know how to get out of it. Fear can tear you down if you can’t overcome it. Being afraid can ruin your life.

Again, it can hold some back. And I don’t like that I have a little fear, but it is my life and I own it and trying to change it.

What do you think? Ever feared something in life? Do you like to take risks? Is fear getting in the way of your life? What does fear mean to you?

Blessings and Love! Have Faith.

Thank you for reading.

A Night With You!

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All I want is a night with you

Just you and I, music, our bodies

A night with you our wild side

Meeting our hands all over each other

A night with you all I want

Let us dance in each other arms

No care in the world. Just us you and I

A night with you

Hot and steamy I want you bad, Need YOU!

Passion filled, lustful, exotic

A night with you, one I don’t want to end

All I want is a night with you my King!

Hope you enjoy!

Thank You for Reading!

Author’s Day!

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Hello my blog peeps!

Today is National Author’s Day!

Today is the perfect day to celebrate our favorite writers who have shared their works of art with the world. Let’s share our appreciation for all the authors who have given us stories, poems, and plays over the years. From Joseph Conrad to Toni Morrison, Jane Austen to Maya Angelou and many more.

Shout out to all writers, poets, bloggers, journalist, authors everywhere!!

—Happy Authors Day!

Always go for your dreams. Embrace your creativity!

Blessings and Love!

Thank you for visiting.

On the inside- A different person

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This here. Wrote this when I felt shady people were around me. Yeah still feel this way today. SMH. Share!!!

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A different person

You ever met a person who is beautiful, handsome and has it all together? Or so it seems that way.

On the outside everything is great. The person seem nice, strong, independent, has goals, but on the inside, the real them tells a different story. They can look a certain way to please who they want which is a cover up but act differently around others. They can be extremely mean and unpleasant to be around.

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It is crazy how well you think you know a person when in all honesty you do not know anything but what they tell which is of course lies. Do you know anyone like this? Later down the road you start to think who the hell is this person? What happened to the person I met? Man, these people are good at what they do…

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We!

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The way you make my eyes sparkle 

My body blush, 

Always smiling 

I like this feeling 

The feeling of you, 

Around me

Kissing me 

I’m Yours 

We Free 

You 

Loving on me 

Me Loving on you, 

We have Passion 

Great Chemistry 

We got glow 

This is love, this is peace, 

And I am Loving This!

Can we keep this 

We Love!!!! We Good, 

 We together=STRONG 

-We- 

Blessings and Love! 

Thank you for reading. 

Mistakes..

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Mistakes

Happen

Mistakes

Hinder us,

Hurt us

Mistakes

Learn from them

Mistakes

Grow from them

Mistakes

Can’t keep you down

Mistakes

Part of life

Mistakes

Suck them up

Mistakes

Burden last long

Maybe sometimes

The burden is no more

Mistakes

Leave them in the past

Mistakes

We make them

mistakes

Its life

The mistakes we make is up to us to face them

Deal with them

But

Sometimes

It is hard to

Forget them

And

Sometimes

We hate

Mistakes……

Blessings and Love!

Thank you for reading.

Just Write

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I am having a chill night. Still need to do more editing but will do that another day. Tonight, just getting ideas and thoughts out on paper and of course writing to keep my mind of stuff and today it is working so I am good with that. Trying to complete at least 3 more chapters maybe 4(Hopefully) before bed tonight even though I am tired I will push through and meet that goal.

I have writing goals that I try to make and complete every weekend. So much good content tonight that I have a big smile on my face I love this feeling seriously. Of course, got my music playing in a vibey mood. This is my Saturday night!!!! Well back to it then. Hope your night is going great. 🖤🖤💙💙

How is your weekend going? Any writing? What do you like to write about? Any exciting plans?

Love, Peace, Happiness, and Blessings All💚

Thank you for reading.