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Her Eyes!

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In her eyes

You can see it

The way she really feels

The way she cares

In her eyes

The way she loves

The way she hates

In her eyes

Sweet, innocent

A mystery sometimes

In her eyes

Where she holds it in

Carry it all

In her eyes

Smiles, cries

The way she

Show it all

Hurt and pain

Joy too

In her eyes

The way to her soul

The ways of her heart

In her eyes

She is scared

She stares into darkness

In her eyes

She speaks

Without speaking a word

in her world

Her eyes say it all

-In Her Eyes-

Blessings and Love!

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Happiness Inside!

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Smiling inside and out

Can’t hide

Happiness from inside

Feeling like somebody

Do flips inside my body

Right here, right now happy

Things falling in place

Happiness from inside

Making me blush

From my own self

Feeling accomplished

Loved and proud

Happiness from deep

Inside

Where it starts

Loving myself

Like never before

Happiness inside

No one can steal this

Keeping my head up

No matter what

This happiness inside

So bright

Peaceful

Joyful

Happiness inside

I fought hard to make it here

Happiness inside

I’ll never hide

Feeling this way

With big smiles

Inside and out

Everyone can see

I love it, all around this

Happiness inside!

Blessings and Love!

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Prompt 7

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The one thing I would change about myself would be constantly overthinking. I do this all day every day. I overthink everything from being a parent, work life, daily activities, and of course my career in being an author. I try to stop it sometimes, but my mind just be going constantly. Yes, it is annoying at times. I have to always keep myself busy to keep my mind off things. Self-doubting is another thing I would change about myself. Those two things are consuming my life. Changes definitely need to be made. 

Blessings and Love! 

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Lioness!

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L- Leader, Lover, Learner, Leo

I- Independent, Irreplaceable, Interesting

O- Optimistic, Observer, Overpower

N- Nice, Nurture, Naughty

E- Empowering, Energetic, Evolved

S- Superior, Shielded, Sure

S- Strong, Sassy, Stern

Leader, leading the pride, all love inside

Independent in my stride, and interested to the outside

Optimistic and ready for this ride

Can be nice, can be naughty

Empowering within my pride

Superior in my stride, shielded on this ride

Can be sassy, can be stern

In this wild

Lioness

An observer

Ready to pounce

When wronged

Lioness

In the wild

Wherever I go

Inside and out

I am a fearless lioness!

-Lioness-

🖤🤎💙💛🧡🤍💜💗❤

♌♌♌

Blessings and Love!

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LIONESS!!!

Oh well! 

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Damn though it is my fault. Everything is on me and I did this to myself by being in this shell of mine, not letting my true feelings out. I guess I have been in shutdown mode. Grieving today and a broken heart is added. Damn story of my life. I cannot seem to get it together and another person left me, and I do not blame him. It is my fault. It is what it is. Though my heart hurts it’s because of my own doing. DAMN 

 Oh Well, Oh Well, Oh Well, I will be alright……Hopefully 

Hope your day is way better than mine is! 🖤🤎💙💗💚💛🧡🤍💜

Blessings! 

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Love Cycle!

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  • Meet each other
  • Get to know each other- Months to years- depending on the people!
  • Dates- How many? Who knows? People sometimes skip this
  • The talks- The first couple of months all sweet talk on both ends. The I miss you, and cannot wait to talk or see you. Shit, everything is all fine and dandy at the beginning. the sweet nothings hell everything even intimacy if that is the case
    • The lying, the half-truths. The I am not telling them this or that. the battle with each other. Can get crazy at times……. Oh well, you live and learn……. NEXT
  • Strong- Whatever Phase, I going to do me no matter what…… (It is this way sometimes)
  • Both of us will not back down……Fighting and more fighting just damn drama
  • Is it love? should I give up? Is he playing me? Is she playing me? Is this real…. Nah I am tripping it cannot be…. Why do I feel this way? Should I express my true self? Question to ask!
  • The DOUBTING yourself and each other……..Damn, the struggle to not call, to not text, why? At this point, you question everything the good, the bad. How he feels, how she feels, sometimes outside influences like damn sometimes it is too damn much……OKAY
  • Time to self…… Self-reflect, constantly thinking what if, thinking for the future. is it this person or no should I try again or NO…..Damn, think about self-right now. and at this time there might still be doubt but then you like hell why NOT….OKAY Let us try……see where it goes, we let it flow!
  • THE COMEBACK-IF its love!
  • Talking again- more often, more topics in depth, talking about goals, what each other wants, how you can make it work with each other
  • Dating again-More communication, No lies, Trust, Commitment, NO Games- AGAIN IF ITS LOVE
  • Caution- Girl back up, Man Back up- He is mine/Or she is mine very territorial making plans with each other. No one can get the way. NO ONE! LOVE IS STRONG! It is all about us. POSWER of LOVE
  • MOVING IN- THIS IS THE BIG TEST—–WHEW- We go through the motions as we really get to know each other. What we like, what we dislike, how we like this, how we like that, Privacy, Cleaning, Cooking, Eating, Intimacy, damn all of it- AGAIN if true love is in the picture you will work things out. Fighting and oh believe me you will have the dumbest fights, control. This is a tough battle. are you throwing in the towel? Are you up to it….?
  • More Communication. More Bonding, More love. We love Strong!
  • What’s Next? Marriage or more trying? What do you think?

Lonely

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Lonely Tonight

Times when I am down and I am not feeling myself, I hate being lonely. Sometimes I wish there were someone here to love me, talk to me, to hold me, and tell me everything will be okay. Yes, I am strong on my own, but I get lonely sometimes. These last couple of weeks I have been feeling very lonely and been sad about it. Honestly, I wish the guy I talked about in a previous post was here with me, like damn I really want that man bad. And of course, as I stated before he is probably not thinking about me at all. I am just lonely and thinking. There has been so much going on in my life lately and I just want real love, real friendships, just realness in my life. Anyway, I am going to get over it hopefully soon, me thinking this way, I sometimes irritate myself like seriously lol, but it is what it is. Miss Lonely speaking tonight. Hope you all are doing okay and having a good night. Remember to love yourself and those around you.

Love, peace, happiness, and Blessings!

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Chill!

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C- Confident, Creative, Cool, Curvaceous

H- Honest, Have Heart, Helping, Hard-working

I- Important, Impassioned, Imaginative, Irreplaceable

L- Leader, Likable, Lender, Light

L- Lovable, Lush, Laid back, Level-headed.

Chill that I am, even under pressure yes, I vent about it all the while being me and being so chill. I have to be this way no matter what.

Be you!

Be chill!

Blessings and Love!

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Chilling

Tough!

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I am a fortress, built of stone and steel

My heart encased, unable to feel

I am tough, hardened by life’s cruel cost

But lost, adrift, with no sense of exhaust.

My walls are high, my moat is deep

My guard is up, my secrets to keep

I am impenetrable, a force to behold

Yet inside I am empty, alone and cold.

I’ve been hurt before, too many times

So I protect myself, with these hardened lines

I don’t let anyone in, no matter how close

For fear of the pain, the hurt and the blows.

But sometimes I wonder, is it worth the cost

To be tough, hard, guarded and lost?

To live life in solitude, with no one to trust

Is this really what it means to be tough?

-Tough-

Blessings and Love! 🖤🤎💙💚🧡💛💗💜🤍❤

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Honest-Feels Tonight

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Hello All,

Man, tonight is not a good night. I have been trying to have a positive outlook, and thoughts about life and have been encouraging others to do the same. But me being honest lately it has been hard to do. Especially today. Tonight, my thoughts are dark, and I have been drinking for hours, which I am not supposed to be doing. Without a damn care in the world. Honestly right now my feelings are numb. I do not care about shit right now, and yeah maybe it is the liquor or maybe my wicked thought’s, how I feel about myself at the moment. I want to unleash. Fight mode. Hurting. All day I have being giving myself pep talks and trying to rise above this dark feeling.

But I am tired. Tired of being there for people who can’t help me with shit. It is only so much a person can take. People who I cannot call on to even talk to.  Tired of it all. All I do is give to others, while I am suffering through a lot. Help them always in their time of need. But who is there for me. And yes, I know you should not help others and look for something in return, but damn people I help sometimes I wish I can call them and need them.

Often, I feel like my feelings do not matter at all. It is all about what a person can get out of me. SAD but it is a truth in my life. You’ll think I will be use to it by now. Same shit different day…

So here I am writing in my notebook and my blog and about to tune everything out. Phone is off, tv is off. Just drinking and thinking (SMH) hopefully this would pass, been here before and it is not good.

Venting and letting it out as always, no matter what it is. If you think this is too dark or not for you. MOVE ON. VENT SESSION

Just rambling on and venting. Just wish I had a person for me to talk to about anything. Yes I am guarded but still haven’t met a person who I trust enough to let them in and be vulnerable with them. Sill working on it,

Anyways back to my fucked-up night. Writing and music take me away.

Hope you all night is better!

My misery does not like company! Even though I go through a lot I do not wish it on others.

She just being HONEST. Tired of it ALL

Have a good one.

Blessings and Love

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