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A Process II: Life

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A Process II: Life Happens

Have you ever had those moments when you just sit back and think about your life? You think of everything and wonder how you got to where you are in life right now. You think about the good and tough times, and you think of if it went a different way, how would your life be? If this did not happen or that did not happen. Have you ever stopped for a moment and questioned yourself? You question the sacrifices you have made; you question your thought process and everything you have done. Sometimes we cannot help but take those trips down memory lane, sometimes just to see how far we have come or to think of happy times. Maybe to keep yourself in check.

That is me today I do not know why just was thinking about my past and where I am at today. I am blessed, honestly did not think I would make it this far. It has been a journey, and I feel like, within the last couple of years, I have become a better version of myself, and it was a freaking process, and it was hard. Some days it still is hard. I used to question why I was still here in this world, why I was put here. I questioned so much in my life from childhood, education, lifestyles, and life in general. I do not miss the bad, horrible, and all the ugly shit at all, though it made me stronger seriously can do without it and hate thinking about that stuff. It pops up, though. Whatever still healing here. Anyways thinking of how far I have come, and I must say I am satisfied. I have become content with life and happy with my writing when years ago, I was afraid to do so. had so many ideas and was scared to put my work out there, so I am happy that I decided to do so. It is time I really make it happen for my family and myself. Continue to work my hardest, get this book done and continue to be the better version of myself. I really need to stop doing so much questioning myself or maybe reflecting. I do not know just thinking tonight and thinking about my whole life sometimes, I do not know why shit just pops up in my head, and I get frustrated with everything. And then I try to keep myself busy, and sometimes that does not work. Life is a process, I tell you. I know I am not the only one, of course, it is this thing we call life. Life happens, and there are obstacles. The process of life. Me being me and overthinking…… Of course

Life, Life Life……

Have you ever taken that trip? Down memory lane. Have you just thought about the unknown? Thought what if? Or ask yourself why something happened? Are you an overthinker as well?

Blessings and Love.

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The Clouds

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The Clouds

Driving on the highway

Anywhere

I am in the passenger seat

Eyes misty

Eyes wide open

Starring up at

The Clouds

Wondering

Dazed and amazed

Starring up at

The Clouds

Daydreaming

Beauty of life

Beauty of colors

The clouds bring

Peace

Hope

The clouds

I get lost in

Quiet and peaceful

The Clouds

Starring up I

Know I will be okay

The Clouds

Such a Calmness

A scene

The Clouds

Mystery

The Unknown

Wondering

What is up there

The Clouds

What it brings

 The true meaning

Starring Up take it all in

The Clouds

I like, fascinated

Just love staring up and lost in

My thoughts

While looking up

At

The Clouds.

Blessings and Love!

Thank you for reading.

Rainy Days

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Rainy Day

Just sitting here watching the rain fall and thinking

This rainy day has got me in my feelings

Watching the rain and trying to figure out why

Looking and hearing the rain trying to hide and hold back the tears

This rainy day gloomy and dark out matching the mood I am in plus I am mad and raged

Rainy day makes me want to stay in bed, I feel lazy

Trap myself inside and hide from it all

Rainy days sometimes I need a glass of wine or five

Rainy days it is hard but, on these days, I try to see the sunshine, keep calm

Rainy days has me down but not for long, this will past

Rainy days full of teary moments and sadness

Maybe I should keep a smile on my face no matter what on these

Rainy Days!!

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Deceit.

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Deceit…

When you hear the word deceit what does it mean to you? 

How does deceit make you feel? 

Why does it make some of us pained? 

Well, it is hurtful to get deceived and constantly being lied to, when you are a good person and love hard. Someone who is willing to lie, cheat, and steal to hurt you and they know that what they are doing is hurting you that person is leading with deceit they are so deceitful. Hiding their true intentions with the lies, sweet talk, gifts, and all the fake love they give. I have been in certain situations when a person was deceitful and wanted to bring harm to me and I was being nice, maybe stupid by loving them and was getting used the whole time. Yes, thankful I found out when I did.  

Some people are just that way and nothing we can do about it but leave them alone. Especially when you start to see the signs, it is best to leave. I wish I can get inside people head to see what they are really thinking and to somewhat better understand and deal with them. Because right now I just do not understand why people like that do it. Yeah, I know its apart of life, a part of learning lessons. I know some like to lie and be deceitful just to see what they can get away with it. Some see it as a job deceiving, scamming, to make money. Man, these people and their deceitful ways smh..  

Sometimes we feel so hurt by deceit and that is where the trusting others come in. Being aware of who and what is around us. People will try you suck you dry verbally, emotionally, physical, and financial. Craziness, right? You must learn from those past deceitful situations, and that can be hard sometimes.  

My feeling/thoughts tonight… My wondering mind lol. F Deceit!

Blessings All! 

Thank you for reading. 

Saturday Joy!

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Happy Saturday!!

When it is the little thigs that count and the little things people do to make you happy, your heart burst with joy

When you can make those close to you happy putting a smile on their face, your heart burst with joy

Being around family and enjoying each and feeling love, your heart burst with joy!

Wishing/Sending love, positive vibes your way today, remember to love yourself and those around you.

Love, Peace, Happiness, Blessings

Thank You!

Fun!

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List five things you do for fun.

The five things I do the most that I consider fun is:

Number One: Having game/movie night with my kids. Have to get our bonding time in

Number Two: Writing. Writing is my passion I love creative writing

Number Three: Dancing. I like to put music on and dance all around the house. It is fun and a stress reliever for me. Anyone else like this with dancing?

Number Four: Coloring. Fun and relaxing with good music!

Number Five: Baking… I love making desserts. Especially cookies!!!

What are your five things to do for fun?

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Change

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Change

Sometimes we know a change is needed

We see what’s going on

 We see how things play out in front of us

We feel a change is needed

Then we think, okay let’s do it

Make those necessary changes

Be firm

But then

Fear steps in

We fear the change

Don’t want too no longer

Make excuses

Doubt sets in

Questioning

Even when we know this needs to be done

Tell yourself do what is right

They say making a change could be a good thing

But

Why is it that changing things can be hard?

Easier said than done. Right?

Can we change for the better?

Why some fear change?

Is it the fear of the unknown while changing…?

Change yay or nay!!! LOL

Blessings and Love!!

Thank you for reading.

***A Poem***

Hurting

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Hurting…..Re-Share!!! Feels today
Have you felt this before? So Hurt you do not know what to do.
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Hurting

Have you ever felt unhappy, filled with rage? You just want those who hurt you to hurt also. You want them to suffer and feel all the pain you feel plus more. Past pain, relationships, anybody. Sometimes I think of revenge, wanting to inflict torture and pain, to see them squirm, see them feel helpless, powerless, weak, lost, and scared. I want them to feel it all. That is how I am feeling at the moment I know some people can relate and some can’t **Shrugs**. Payback.

It is crazy how they are out living there lives, they suffered no consequences, out and free. And me I feel I am still trapped in that time in that pain. Replaying the shit that was done and it still feels like no time has passed. Crazy world I feel this way and must deal with it every day. Yes, I have…

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