Tag Archives: Lost

Drained….

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In my quiet glooms, I find my place

Where echoes of dreams fade without a trace

Once vibrant hues are now muted and grey

A weary heart seeks the end of the day

The weight of the world, heavy on my chest

Whispers of fatigue, denying me rest

Eyes that once sparkled with boundless light

Now dimmed by the endless, tiring night

Each breath a whisper, faint and thin

The echoes of the strength within

Fading like a distant hymn

As shadows close and light grows dim.

-Drained-

Blessings and Love!

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Lies and more LIES

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Lies and more lies, Liar

Hello all

Liars on Blast lol

Want to blog about liars and lying. Why is it that people lie so much? Like why especially when they lie over stuff so small or lie just because. People go around putting on fronts or I like to call it their mask. They lie about who they are and their identity. Or lie about any and everything. Yes, I know that it happens a lot, and I just think and wonder why they do it. It is something that I truly do not understand at all. Maybe because I am an honest person no matter the situation, I will always be honest with people. Why? Because I do not like to be lied to that shit hurts. So, I wouldn’t lie to others just because I can and get away with it smh. I have heard that some people do it to avoid hurting someone but lies make everything worse. Well, that is what I think. It is such a big deal in any type of relationship you or in, whether it is family or friends. A lie is a freaking lie and can be wrong like seriously. I think some people do not realize it maybe because they are all about themselves and don’t care. How hard is it to be upfront and honest about who you are and what you are about? Again, something I don’t understand and probably never will. Thought about writing about lying because I am currently dealing with it, so many people around me who do it a lot, and it is super annoying. Something I explain to my kids about honesty and integrity. Your presents and words can concern others. It is okay to be honest and be yourself. Do you agree? Have you dealt with a person who constantly lies? How did you deal with it? Again, people why lie? Annoyed seriously

Thinking, venting, of course, too much shady shit going on, and I do not like it. Time for changes, change the untrustworthy people around me. Please feel free to like, comment, and share.

Love, Peace, Happiness, and Blessings all

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Worry….ME

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Are you a person who can easily walk away from challenging situations? Are you a person who can easily forgive? Easily forget the negative.

I am not that person. I worry too much and think about the past way too much. Something I do not like about myself. I am always on edge, and thinking about my past makes it worse, and then anxiety kicks in. Wish it were easy for me to forget stuff, to forgive, and to trust more. Want to easily walk away with no wounds. Wishful thinking huh? Yeah, it is annoying at times, and wish I could just leave the negative shit in the past. I worry too much it is crazy. Again, wish I can easily walk away from all the bad. Worrying a lot is stressful.

Ugh, too much on my mind right now, and I want to get away. Head spinning and mind racing fast. Have you ever had one of those days? Praying for it as always. Just writing to get my thoughts and feelings and vent out. Sometimes I have to whether it is a negative post or not. I just want to be able to forgive and forget. I am me, and right now, I am worrying and having anxiety, I must admit writing does help as it calms me for a moment. Praying for all of those having those bad days. Breathe and pray about it. Have faith.

Blessings and Love!

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Cuts of Pain

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Cut Deep

The pain cuts deep, a wound unseen

Lost and hurt, I try to glean

A way forward, to heal and mend

But the ache persists, it does not end

I mourn the loss of what once was

A love that’s gone, now just because

Of things unsaid, or left undone

I wish I could go back, and be someone

Who knew how to love, and how to care

Who could have saved us, from this despair

Now all that’s left, is this elegy

A tribute to what once was, but now must be

Laid to rest, and let go of

The pain and hurt, that once was love

May we find peace, in the memories we keep

And solace in the knowledge, that love runs deep.

While being deep in cuts of pain.

-Cuts Of Pain-

Blessings and Love!

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Storms…

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Storms…

There will be bad days, good days, and days where it’s up and down. I know it will be a process, and I will not feel better overnight. This process, this storm I am in, will not last long. Strong winds, heavy rain, hail, lightning, and thunder will not keep me down.

The storm is strong and raging, and I am thankful I am not at the moment. As the storms continue, I will continue to be strong—stronger than the winds, stronger than my battles. I will survive this storm; it is the only way.

I will be calm; I will not rage with the storm. Yes, I am better than that. One day at a time, I tell myself I got this. And I do strength, guidance, and with God.

This storm again will not me down. Strong Black Woman. I Got This!

I survive storms!

Blessings and Love!

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Emptiness 

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I feel empty inside 

Like a hollow shell 

Nothing fills the void 

No joy, no love, no hope 

I wander through the days 

Like a ghost in the crowd 

No one sees me, no one hears me 

No one knows I exist 

I wonder why I’m here 

What is the purpose of my life 

Is there a reason, is there a meaning 

Or am I just wasting time 

I wish I could feel something 

Anything at all 

A spark, a flame, a passion 

To light up my soul 

Damn 

I’m Empty Inside…… 

-Emptiness- 

Blessings and Love 

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Disappointed-Me,Myself,and I 

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As I look in the mirror, I see 
A face that’s lost and filled with grief 
I thought I knew just who I’d be 
But now I’m lost and feel naive 

I had such high hopes and grandiose dreams 
But they fell flat, or so it seems 
I thought I’d make a bigger mark 
But now I’m struggling in the dark 

I’m disappointed in myself 
For not achieving all my goals 
I put my dreams up on the shelf 
And now I’m paying heavy tolls 

I wish that I could find my way 
And be the person I once dreamed 
But now I’m lost, with nothing to say 

Silent, at a stand still 
And all my hopes are coming undone at the seams 

So here I stand, with heavy heart 
And wonder where I’ll go from here 
I hope that I can find a start 
And overcome this crippling fear. 

Just so disappointment in me, myself, and I  

Blessings and Love! 

Thank you for reading. 

Not What You Want.

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In the depths of my heart, I know it’s true

That what I offer is not enough for you

I’m not the one who can fulfill your needs

And I fear my love will only cause you to bleed

I want to be the one who makes you smile

But it seems that I fall short by a mile

My flaws and faults are too much to bear

And I can’t escape this feeling of despair

I wish that I could be the perfect one

To hold you close until the setting sun

But my love is not enough to make you stay

And I am left to face another lonely day

Perhaps one day I’ll find the strength to see

That I deserve a love that’s meant to be

Until then, I’ll try to learn and grow

And pray that the pain inside will soon let go.

The sad truth is, I am not what you want….

-Not What You Want.-

Blessings and Love!

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Broken…

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In the depths of despair, a tale unfolds

Of a heart shattered into countless pieces

A soul adrift in a sea of sorrows untold

In the silence of the night, anguish increases

Once whole, now fragmented and torn

Memories like sharp shards, cutting deep

A spirit weary, battered, and worn

Lost in a labyrinth of pain, unable to sleep

Yet in the darkness, a glimmer of hope

Whispers of healing, a chance to mend

Slowly gathering the fragments to cope

A journey of resilience, towards the light to ascend

Through the trials of being broken and scarred

Emerges a story of strength and grace

A testament to the human spirit, unmarred

A phoenix rising from the ashes, finding its place

-Broken-

Blessings and Love!

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Slipping

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S-Struggle, Spiteful, Stuck
L- Lousy, Losing
I-Impatient
P- Paranoid
P- Poisonous, Pain
I-Incomplete, Imperfect, Insane
N- Numb
G- Gone, Grumpy

Feeling stuck in life, times I want to be spiteful due to my struggles
Slipping
Sometimes I feel like a lousy person who is losing at life
Slipping
So impatient with myself, with everything
Slipping
I’m on edge, constant guard up, and paranoid
Slipping
Been poisoned with hate, hurt, grief, and pain, sometimes the pain is too much to deal with
Slipping
This imperfect self, feeling lost and incomplete. Insane with my thoughts
Slipping
She is numb to it all. It is what it is
Slipping
Lately been grumpy, with no feelings. Drugging and drinking, I’m gone
Damn
I’m
Slipping…..

Blessings and Love!


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