Tag Archives: Sad

Mad….

06/24/2025poetry, thoughtsA Poem, Blog, Blogging, Feelings, Grieving, hurt, JustWrite, life, Mad, Pain, poetry, Ray'Elaine, Sad, thoughts, WritingRay'Elaine

Mad at life, mad at the world, mad

The anger within me makes me feel so bad

Why does everything have to be so hard?

Why can’t life just give me a break, a card?

I’m tired of struggling, tired of the pain,

I want to scream, to shout, to break the chains

But instead, I bottle it up, keep it inside

And let the anger fester, grow, and hide.

I know I shouldn’t be so mad at life

But sometimes it feels like an endless strife

I try to find hope, to see the light

But it’s hard to do when everything feels like a fight.

So, I’ll keep on going, keep on trying

And maybe one day, I’ll stop my crying

Until then, I’ll be mad at life, mad at the world, mad

And hope that someday, things won’t be so bad.

-MAD-

***A Poem***

Blessings and Love!

Thank you for reading.

Storms…

04/23/2024poetryBlogging, Faith, Feelings, JustWrite, life, Lost, Love, MyThoughts, Poem, poetry, Ray'Elaine, Sad, Storms, thoughts, WritingRay'Elaine

Storms…

There will be bad days, good days, and days where it’s up and down. I know it will be a process, and I will not feel better overnight. This process, this storm I am in, will not last long. Strong winds, heavy rain, hail, lightning, and thunder will not keep me down.

The storm is strong and raging, and I am thankful I am not at the moment. As the storms continue, I will continue to be strong—stronger than the winds, stronger than my battles. I will survive this storm; it is the only way.

I will be calm; I will not rage with the storm. Yes, I am better than that. One day at a time, I tell myself I got this. And I do strength, guidance, and with God.

This storm again will not me down. Strong Black Woman. I Got This!

I survive storms!

Blessings and Love!

Thank you for reading.

MOM

01/23/2024thoughtsBirthday, Blog, Feelings, Grief, hurt, JustWrite, life, Lost, Love, Mother, Pain, Prayers, rage, Ray'Elaine, Sad, thoughts, WritingRay'Elaine

Want to say Happy Heavenly Birthday to my mom. Even though I am sad and still hurt that she is not here I am going to be strong today. Do my writing like I know she wants me to continue to do. Really wish I can hear her voice but again I am going to make it through this day with happy memories of her. Missing her so much and still praying for healing and strength. I love and miss you, mom. Just Showing love to my mom. And know strength is needed badly. Prayers going up

Blessings all

Thank you for reading.

In My Heart

Forever LOVE

Little Girl Lost

09/28/2023Poems, thoughtsBlogging, Dark, Feelings, hurt, JustWrite, life, Lost, Love, Pain, Passion, poetry, Ray'Elaine, Sad, thoughts, Truth, WritingRay'Elaine

Hello All,

I wrote this a couple years ago. It is one of my favorites!!! Wanted to share again. hope you like and enjoy it.

Lost Little Girl

Little lost girl

Fighting to find her way

Lost with no direction

Sad eyes, heart hurting, mind racing

Wounds open, flesh

Lost little girl

Thrown to the wolves, the sharks, the bad

The ugly, clowns, death

Raging to get free

Surrounded by the unknown, Dark

Lost little girl

Scared, shocked, afraid

Alone, cold, wondering

Mad, darkness, raged, shaking

Lost in a world, no clue

She is lost, no soul, no nothing

Lost little girl

Can she be found???

Thank You For Reading.

****A Poem!!****

Frustrated..

09/23/2023poetryBlog, Faith, Feelings, Frustrated, Hurting, JustWrite, life, Poem, Poerty, Ray'Elaine, Sad, Venting, WritingRay'Elaine

That feeling of being full of rage, full of sadness, seeing dark

Frustrated with it all

With all the weight I carry, Damn so fucking heavy

Frustrated

Life is in disarray

Frustrated

With me, myself, and I, all my fault

I am not happy, not where I want to be

Frustrated

Seems like I am failing, I am deep under water

Frustrated

I am drowning, no hope

Feelings of powerless, weak, misunderstood

Feelings of being useless

Frustrated

Mad at the world, at those around me

Though it is not their fault I am fucked up

Frustrated

Lonely, hurt, and lost

I am a nobody, obviously

Frustrated

When do it end

Damn

So tired, and frustrated with being frustrated

Story of Ray’s life

Frustrated

Damn, never ending….

Blessings and Love!

Thank you for reading.

No More Tears

06/24/2023Poems, poetry, thoughtsBlog, Faith, Feelings, Hurting, JustWrite, life, Love, Past, Poems, poetry, Prayers, Ray'Elaine, Sad, thoughts, WritingRay'Elaine

Learning to be okay

With my past

I often tell myself

No more tears

Learning to let go

Of the tight hold

The past has over me

Again, I say

No more tears

Want it all to be forgotten

Blocked out my mind

Struggling to move on

No more tears

For those who caused pain

No more tears

For my benefit

Let it go Ray

Do not let it define you

No more tears

Tired of being tied down

No more I say

I have to gain control

No more tears

Be myself, be free

No more questioning why

All cried out I am

Stay strong

Stand tall, rise above my past

Be proud, wear my scars

I say to myself, no, nope, done

No More Tears.

Blessing and Love.

Thank you for reading.

Damn Tears…

Letting it all out…

06/14/2023Short Stories, thoughtsBlogging, Faith, Feelings, happy, JustWrite, life, Love, Pain, Ray'Elaine, Sad, Sunday, thoughts, Venting, WritingRay'Elaine

Letting it out…

My heart and mind are heavy, my heart hurts. I feel broken and I have been trying to remain positive and pray about my life and the feelings I have. I have made post about being positive and taking care of self, but lately nothing is working for me. I feel so empty and lost. Since my mom has passed away it seems that everything in my life, the past has surfaced. I am constantly thinking of the bad, cruel, and all the shitty things that has happened to me since I was a child hate this feeling and I do not know why everything is coming to mind and heart. I try to keep busy, so I do not think about stuff, but no matter what it happens, I’m thinking and sad and crying. Another thing is the nightmares which that right there is scary some things happened to me, and I still have nightmares about it and also nightmares of me seeing my mom’s lifeless body. That is why I have not been sleeping really. I see my mom and her condition before she passed. I was taking care of her while she was in hospice care from home and watching her day-by-day change and watching her body fail and seeing her take her last breath the look on her face and all, that is what I see when I am trying to sleep. It was so hard to see and horrible going through it. It is still hard for me it has been four months and I’m not over it at all. I do not know what to do. Yes, I am not going to lie I am mad, mad at the world, and mad at myself. I have been feeling like I do not want to be here on this earth. Like, why cannot I shake these feelings, I do not like feeling this way, all I do lately is cry, cry, cry, cry. Why is it so hard? I have been too much in my mind and in the past for some weeks now, and it has me all messed up, and very emotional.

Damn, what is going on with me? For those who have lost someone, how do you go on? How to you heal?

It is hard and I feel very lonely and scared ad mainly scared of myself. Again, trying to make it through the days but it seems my life is spiraling. Sigh, what to do? Letting it all out tonight. My feelings, my thoughts sorry to those who feel it is a dark and negative blog entry. I am my true self and I express my true. Just going through a lot and emotional and need to vent. Thank you for reading.