Have you ever felt unhappy, filled with rage? You just want those who hurt you to hurt also. You want them to suffer and feel all the pain you feel plus more. Past pain, relationships, anybody. Sometimes I think of revenge, wanting to inflict torture and pain, to see them squirm, see them feel helpless, powerless, weak, lost, and scared. I want them to feel it all. That is how I am feeling at the moment I know some people can relate and some can’t **Shrugs**. Payback.
It is crazy how they are out living there lives, they suffered no consequences, out and free. And me I feel I am still trapped in that time in that pain. Replaying the shit that was done and it still feels like no time has passed. Crazy world I feel this way and must deal with it every day. Yes, I have…
Happy Thursday! people. Wishing you love and blessings this beautiful day. I hope you succeed in what you want to accomplish today. Get that to do list done, make time for your self and try to have a relaxed day and yes trust I know that can be hard if you have a lot going on or work is stressful, just breathe through it and pray. Just want to send love and a positive message today.
It’s almost Friday Yay! Have a great day. please feel to like, comment, and share. thank you for reading.
Tonight, I am too much in my head. So much going on lately, with personal and work as well as my business. I have so many decisions to make in the next week and a half about my new business, and I am wrecking my mind about it. It gets hectic doing it all on your own (SIGH). Sometimes I feel stuck. Over analyzer. Miss overthinker, as always. Haven’t been meeting my writing goals either my mood has completely been down, and been overthinking that, so I have to work on that. And that’s not all I am overthinking about. My mom’s birthday is coming up and the emotions have started already. And I am constantly thinking about her all the memories and her smile. A crazy and lonely night for me. Yeah, soooooo much going on up in my head…Feel likes too much weight I am carrying. Guess it is bedtime for me. I am a mess right now and just want to curl up somewhere and cry it all out…. I wish I could stop all this damn overthinking and thinking on too much at once. Yall know I have to vent it out!
This too shall pass! Lord be with me.
With that being said I am going to sleep and pray on it Whew just need a breather.
Sending love to all this Sunday morning. I hope all is well! Have a great day people. Short workday so It’s a chill day for me after. Enjoy the day with family and friends or get those goals completed or have a relaxing day just enjoying yourself. You deserve it.
Practice self-love today and be gentle with yourself! 🖤💙💛🧡🤎💜💚🤍💗
Today I have been doing some thinking about my future and was asking myself a few questions about my career and what I need to do to get further in my writing process, and the process after my book is done. One thing I am constantly thinking about is publishing my book. Sometimes I think that I should get a publisher and other times I want to try and self-publish. Also trying to figure out if I want to fully edit myself or hire someone and that goes for the cover for my book too. I know that I should get help with everything but of course I feel like I can do it all. I know one reason could be my trust issues and not trusting that someone else can get the result that I desire. It has been annoying trying to figure it out and I know that in the end, I will do my best to make the right decision. Another thing on my mind is getting out of my shell and trying to open up more. I need to be able to do interviews and speak to others about my work. That will be hard because I have never liked public speaking and am not very good at networking lol and in interviews, I get nervous and don’t want to do it. Seriously need to get out of this. Push me harder and give myself those pep talks. I tell myself that me getting out talking to people and getting my name, brand, and book out there that I must do the work and promote myself and be good at it. No nervousness, shyness, or awkwardness when I do interviews. I need to be confident in myself and my passion, my craft. I tell myself to take those chances, and risks and just do it. I try to hype myself up. I just want my career to be good and one that I can manage and be confident in. If I want more, I have to do the work and do more.
A little venting lol. Thinking out loud. Just thinking about how to change a lot and be great. I know the change will not happen overnight, but I am so ready for it. Ready for something new and that starts with me changing some things.
Have you ever felt like this? Scared to fully put yourself or your projects out in the world? Are you scared to take risks or scared of change? What do you think?
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