Tag Archives: Truth

Sabotage.

In my mind, a constant battle waged

A war between reason and impulse, uncaged

I knew what was right, what I should do

Yet self-sabotage always seemed to ensue.

Hurting those I loved, leaving them in tears

My actions driven by my deepest fears

I couldn’t seem to break free of this curse

My inner demons, my own worst enemy, perverse.

I pushed away those who wanted to help

My stubbornness, my pride, my greatest yelp

But deep down inside, I knew the truth

That I was the cause of my own abuse.

It took time and effort to turn things around

To break free of the chains that had me bound

Apologies were made, amends were sought

And slowly but surely, my life was re-wrought.

It’s not easy to face the harm we’ve caused

To admit our faults, to remove the gauze

But in doing so, we can find redemption

And learn to love ourselves without exception.

But damn sometimes itโ€™s the

Self sabotage

That gets us!

Blessings and Love

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The Weight of What Was Real!

The truth came not as a whisper

Just raw

But a loud thunderclap at dawn

Shattering the silence 

Weโ€™d built our lives upon

It wore no mask of mercy

No veil to soften the blow

Just raw

An unvarnished memory 

Of things we didnโ€™t know

It peeled back painted stories

Exposed the hidden seams

Turning lullabies into warnings

And daylight into dreams

We begged it to be more kinder

To lie just one more time

But truth does not negotiate 

With comfort or with crime

It named the ghosts we buried

Uncloaked the quiet pain

And stitched our hearts with needles 

Of loss we canโ€™t explain

Yet in its cruel unveiling

A strange release was found

For trauma born of honesty 

Still walks on solid ground

So let it burn the pages

Let it flood the past with light

Truth may wound without permission

But it never hides from sight!

Blessings and Love!

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Fierce

In the way I walk

In the way I talk

Fierce

Let my personality

Shine

My eyes glow

Fierce

My posture

My spiciness

Iโ€™m Fierce

And everything nice

True and confident

Black and Beautiful

Fierce

Me coming through

Claiming me

And all that belongs to me

I am indeed

Fierce!

Blessings and Love! ๐Ÿ–ค๐ŸคŽ๐Ÿ’™๐Ÿ’›๐Ÿ’š๐Ÿงก๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿคโค

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I Admit!

I Admit that I am a person who is so stuck in my ways

I Admit that my attitude is not the best, I rage from time to time (SIGH)

I Admit that I can be a little hard to deal with and sometimes need reassurance that Iโ€™m still wanted and loved

I Admit that I have a tough time letting go

I Admit that it is hard to let my guard down and for me to fully be open

I Admit that I am afraid to love, to be vulnerable with someone

I Admit that it will be hard to not be in control all the time, when I feel the need to want to control everything

I Admit that I can be toxic in a way when I shut down and shut off from the world. I do not want to be bothered with anything or anybody. I really would not talk to anyone for days. I feel its toxic because I should just address shit instead of running a away and shutting down my emotions (BIG TRUTH)

I Admit that I have major trust issues and sometimes I just donโ€™t believe what a person says sometimes

I Admit that it would be hard to let a man come into my life and take lead, also ADMIT this is something I will definitely work on

I Admit that when I do love someone, I LOVE HARD and care way too much

I Admit that when I find REAL LOVE I would be willing to make changes that I need to make for that right one

I Admit that I do not have all my shit together

I Admit that I feel like grief has taking over my life

I Admit that I get lost in my head, replaying a lot from the past

I Admit I am trying and a work in progress, I am healing and indeed working on me

I Admit that I am willing to change things that serve no good in my life

I Admit guilt to things I cannot change

I Admit I am always me

I Admit my truths here and now, BARE it ALL

My truths are here, LAID OUT

How about you???? What do you ADMIT?

-I ADMIT-

Blessings and Love

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Want What You Cannot Have!

Want it, Can’t Have it…..

Have you been in a situation where you have to walk away from someone love because you knew in your heart that the two you would not have worked out? I am just sitting here thinking of that person and I miss him. Been feeling so lonely lately and thinking and missing him is making me feel worse because that is who I want. Badly. I miss the way he used to look at me, our conversations, our silliness, our vibe, the compliments, and him always being real with me. We had to walk away from each other, and it still hurts. I want him in my life, and I still feel that it would not work out for me due to me knowing this person well the way they think, and their personality. Sometimes it annoys me wondering about what if. What would happen if we did have a relationship? What if we try now? Wondering if I made a mistake when I had to walkway from him. Hate feeling this way and again feel lonely and want him next to me even if not in a relationship with me just to talk to each other would be good. I need to find something to do because he is too much on my mind. SMH, I do not like it. He probably does not still feel the same way. Should I reach out or just leave it alone? Maybe too much time has passed.

 Or

Have you ever had a person in your life that could not let go? Did all the wrong things in the relationship and you endured a lot and decided to leave but they just will not let you go. Dealing with that currently. Yeah, today I am dealing with a lot got someone who wants me but I donโ€™t want them I feel I tried so hard for years and got hurt and I am over it. Havenโ€™t been with this person for years and they wonโ€™t let up. Yeah, fucking annoying. And then I want someone who probably does not want me or thinking about me at all, the difference is I am not bugging the other person or begging them to want me. Constantly calling or texting them. It is the want what I cannot have syndrome we both got I guess lol. Emotions are everywhere though

Damn, can I catch a breakโ€ฆ. LOL a little too much at the moment.

That damn feeling of wanting what you cannot haveโ€ฆ…

Blessings and Love! ๐Ÿ–ค๐ŸคŽ๐Ÿ’™๐Ÿ’›๐Ÿ’š๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿงก๐Ÿคโค๐Ÿ’œ

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Fully Open!

To Fully be open

Let my story show

Express my feelings, thoughts and

The realness of me

To be fully open

To new opportunities, businesses, life

Live free

To fully be open and

Put myself out there

Take risks be open to

New friends, new love, relationships

Fully be open

Express all of me

Learning daily how to

Fully open up and

Just go for what I want

To be open

Fear free

Finally living for me

To fully be open

Something I am

Working on

Most definitely!

-Fully Open!-

Blessings and Love!

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Not Forcing!ย 

In this era of all about me 

I won’t force a relationship, you see 

My focus is on self-love and growth 

Not on pleasing others or making oaths 

I won’t settle for just anyone 

Or try to change to fit someone 

My worth is not defined by another 

I’ll wait for the right one, like no other 

I’ll cherish my own time 

And let my heart heal and shine 

I’ll nurture my soul, my mind, my heart 

And when the time is right, a new love will start 

Let me be, in this all-about-me phase 

I won’t force a relationship just to pass the days 

I’ll wait for a love that’s true and real 

Until then, I’ll focus on myself and how I feel 

Blessings and Love! 

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Lessons II

There are lessons we learn in life. Whether we like it or not. We have the choice of deciding how we deal with it. We can choose to change things, accept what the lesson is and learn from it. Or we can continue to make the same mistakes. Ignoring what the lesson is and keep going down the wrong path. Again, we have choices. We must choose wisely. With everything in life.

Learn from it and move on and do better.

Lessonsโ€ฆ What is life without them!

Have a good one!

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Those Lessons!!! It is LIFE!

Emotional Unavailable

I am a fortress, strong and tall 

Yet within me lies an empty hall 

I keep my emotions locked away 

Afraid to feel what they might say 

I tell myself that I am fine 

That love and pain are not worth the time 

But deep down, I know it’s not true 

For the ache inside just continues to brew 

I push away those who come too close 

And keep my heart tightly closed 

But sometimes in the dead of night 

I wonder if I’m doing this right 

Is it better to be alone and secure 

Or to risk it all and hope for more? 

I am emotionally unavailable, it’s trueย 

Maybe one day, I’ll let someone through 

Until then I am Ms. Emotional Unavailable! 

Blessings and Love! ๐Ÿ–ค๐ŸคŽ๐Ÿ’™๐Ÿ’š๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ’›๐Ÿงกโค๐Ÿค๐Ÿ’œ

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True Story!!

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