Monthly Archives: December 2022

End of Year!

12/31/2022thoughtsBlogging, Day 365, Faith, Feelings, happy, JustWrite, life, Love, new year, Thankful, thoughts, WritingRay'Elaine

Yay day 365……

This year has been incredibly challenging, and I have been tested many times. There were highs and some very lows, and I am still healing from it all. Even with that, it was an okay year. With the new year coming in I am praying for new things and praying for some positive things to work out for me. Also, for the new year, I am setting fresh writing goals and pushing myself harder to get my books done and get more of my books published. Looking for new and better opportunities. Looking forward to the new year. Hope all is good with everyone. Want to thank those who supported me this year on this blog and in my life. I am grateful and thankful. All the support is appreciated and was needed. Positive thinking moving into the new year.💙💚❤🧡💜💛🤎🖤🖤

What was your best time of the year? How has the year been for you? Any writing resolutions? New writing goals? Are you ready for the new year?

Happy New Year!!!!!!

Blessings and Love!

Thank you for reading.

A Process…

12/23/2022thoughtsAnxiety, Blogging, Calm, Confused, Grieving, Just Write, Lost, Love, Pain, Ray'Elaine, Sad, WritingRay'Elaine

Hello all

It has been some days without me writing or actually doing anything. I have been in a bad mood and trying to shake these feelings. This grieving shit is annoying it’s understandable but so annoying. One minute I am okay, able to get things done and I am content, than the next I am a emotional wreck ugh. Wanna just SCREAM. Yes I know it is a process and healing and getting over things take some time. I just hate being emotional and having these feelings. I’m a person who don’t like to show my emotions or feel them uhh. Some days it takes a lot out of me, feel so drained and sad. I know I have to be strong for myself and my family, but it is so hard grieving and being on top of everything. I guess I have to continue to pray and take it one day at a time and trust that it will all get better.

Today I am going to try and stay busy and not think too much on negative things or sad things. Just breathe, relax, and pray. I hope you all have a good day I know I will try too. It’s almost Friday!!!

Blessings All!

Thank you for reading.

Trying! A Poem!

12/22/2022Poems, thoughtsBlogging, Breathe, Creative Writing, Feelings, happy, Hard work, life, Love, Poems, poetry, Positive, Ray'Elaine, thoughts, Trying, writer, WritingRay'Elaine

Trying to catch a break

In this world

Struggles and

Burdens surround me

Follow ME

Feeling all alone

Trying to catch a breath

Staying afloat and sane

Carrying the most pain

Smile and cover it

All up

Trying to catch a break

Asking when it will end

Will I survive this fall?

Survive this world

Trying to catch a breath

Feel deep underwater

Needing help needing guidance

Falling, fast and in a hurry

Trying to catch a break

Living a different way

Pretending to be happy

Trying to catch a breath

Take deep breaths in and out

Relax and heal

Content indeed

While still

Underwater

Take a breather and a break

I am trying!

Blessings All

Thank you for reading.

**A Poem** 💙🖤💛💜🤎💚

What to do?…..

12/22/2022thoughtsAuthor, Blogging, Feelings, happy, JustWrite, life, Love, Ray'Elaine, thoughts, Trying, writers block, WritingRay'Elaine

What to do?

So, things have been going okay the last couple of days despite the bad that is going on and trying not to think about it. Been writing for days on and off and the ideas and dialogue were flowing great I mean I was writing and editing with no problem, getting a lot done. Now today I am sitting here blank stare and do not know where to begin, mind is blank and cannot think straight. Maybe today is not the day to write or maybe I should try again later. My brain is not working, like what is going on, ugh what to do when you have writers block? No work today so I have been trying to keep myself busy. I guess I will find a good book to read and come back to the pen and paper later and hopefully get those creative juices flowing again, should be resting but whatever. How is you guys day going? Hope it is going well.

Blessings and Love!

Thank you for reading.

Thoughts on Love

12/21/2022UncategorizedRay'Elaine

Just Write

I think love is complicated

Sometimes and

Love is hard to get out of you. Can be annoying at times but

Hay love is a challenge

Love, what is it about love

Love is like

War

Love is easy

Start

Love is hard

End

And

Love is

Impossible to forget

Love is

Many

Things

Love?

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Scared

12/21/2022Poems, thoughtsBlackWriter, Blog, Faith, Feelings, happy, JustWrite, life, Love, Poems, poetry, Ray'Elaine, Scared, thoughts, WritingRay'Elaine

You do not know what is out there

Your scared to take that step

Scared of rejection, embarrassment, failure

Scared of the unknown

You tell yourself I can do it

But doubt, and anxiety tells you otherwise

You are scared of what you might or might not become

Scared of what people will say or think about you

You procrastinate, put things on hold

Scared to put yourself out there

Scared to follow your dreams

Your scared of your own potential

Thank you for reading!

Battle With Myself II

12/21/2022Poems, thoughtsBattles, Blogging, Faith, Feelings, Growing, Hope, hurt, JustWrite, life, poetry, Ray'Elaine, Thinker, thoughts, Truth, WritingRay'Elaine

Battle with Myself II

Still here battling the

Inner me

Scars that scream out

Damn these struggles

Even with them I

Try to rise above

Within the struggles

Remain

Beautiful

Smart

Woman

Remain positive

Stand my ground

Battles that I try

To overcome

Try not to

Let it keep

Me down

Get the grasp

Of life

Love

Hope

The world

Even with these battles

I am becoming

One with me

Grown woman

Inner me

Battles

It will not last long

Well

That is what they say

Battles

Do not stay

They leave wounds

Battle in me

Going to

Go down

I will keep

Fighting

Destroying

Who comes against me

Taking them as they come

Struggle/battles

Life battles

I will win

Even with

The demons within

The dark side of ME

Still this

Battle within myself

Will subside.

A work in progress

Or maybe

The

Battle with myself continues….

Blessings and Love!

Thank you for reading.

**A Poem**

Battle with myself

Wednesday Chill

12/21/2022thoughtsBlogging, Chilling, Feelings, JustWrite, life, thoughts, Wednesday, WritingRay'Elaine

This Wednesday is just a kick-back day (Not really LOL). Finally off work and tired whew a long day but it’s my writing night, I am just doing a little writing and editing. Working on two books is hard and challenging but I love it. Tonight is challenging because in one book I have two different endings and another idea popped up in my mind and I have been having a hard time deciding what ending to go with. I see it’s going to be a long night and hopefully by the end of the week, I will have my mind made up. For now, I will continue to edit and see where that takes me for the night. Wish me luck. #JustWrite #Passion

-Thanks

My Wednesday Night

12/21/2022thoughtsBlogging, Feelings, happy, life, Love, thoughts, WritingRay'Elaine

Tonight, I feel like I am over thinking and over analyzing over a person and a situation. The situation is making me want to write a rage 3. Here we go again!

Have you ever had that feeling that something is meant to be? Or

You constantly think of someone or something and think what if? Or

Should I have made that choice? Should I have gave that person a chance?

My feelings tonight, of course I had to let it out…. (About to burst)

Wow so many mixed emotions tonight, sorry I am all over the place. As always, a certain somebody is on my mind, yes still thinking about him every day. As of a couple months ago we have not been really talking, but I do get random texts from him and it gets me excited. When I respond to the text, I do not get a reply, then weeks later another text and the same thing. Like damn it is getting on my damn nerves. I keep telling myself to let him go and try not to think about him. But then I also tell myself to let him know how I feel, quit being scared and get it over with. Or ask him how he feels about me I feel like a teenaged girl and weird. Should I be feeling this way at my age? do not know why I get so nervous about him. Damn. Tired of him being on my mind, in my thought and feelings and not knowing where we stand. It must be a reason why I am always thinking of him, this is my third post about my feelings for him, ugh craziness. Then I think about what if he does feel the same way as me, should we date? Should we try for a relationship? All sorts of thoughts going through my head and maybe because I might be afraid to fall in love, yes, I like him a lot, but I am still unsure when it comes to loving someone and being in a relationship do not know if I am ready or not. My heart is so guarded, and I tell myself to take a chance, go for it. Put it all out on the line what is the worst that can happen? Again, I need to quit being scared about the situation. Well leaning towards asking him take it from there. This love thing is crazy and probably not for me, but we shall see. Wish me luck. Tell me am I the only one? Again, feeling weird about it. What should I do? Help!

Thank you for reading.