Tag Archives: Past

Reflect/Reflections

R-Remembering

E-Ensuring

F-Familiar

L-Lessons

E-Eager

C-Courage

T-Timing

Reflections

Looking back on the mistakes I made

Now, knowing they were lessons learned

Reflections

Looking back on the chaos that ensued

Now knowing that

You get the bad sometimes before the good

Reflections

Looking back at the rage I felt

Now knowing how to control myself and move forward

Reflections

Looking back on it all

Now knowing I am standing tall

Through it all

-Reflections-

Blessings and Love!

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Forget…

Forget

Want to let it all go

Forget the past, forget the humiliation

Forget the hurt, forget it all

Forget the people who played a part in my hurt

Forget those who knew but did not help, looked away

Forget those who said they care, but really do not

Forget the feelings I had, forget my tears

Forget being a child, forget all of my childhood

Damn

Forget having too much weight on my shoulders

Forget getting over shit alone and afraid

Damn yall

I just want to forget

Forget it all…

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Memories of Me!

Memories of my past consume me whole
A life once lived is now a distant goal
The path I chose now seems unclear
And all I have left are memories to revere
Days gone by, but etched in my mind
The laughter, the tears, all intertwined
I wish I could go back and relive it all
But time moves forward. It doesn’t stall
My path ahead may be uncertain
But the memories of my past they remain certain,
For they remind me of who I used to be
And the person I can still strive to see
I hold on to my memories with care
For they are a reminder that I was once there
And as I move forward, I take them along
To guide me and inspire me to be strong

Blessings and Love!

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Loving The Wrong Person

Hello, my blog peeps!

Have you been in a situation where you felt it was all bad, so negative? Have you loved the wrong person before?

Loving the wrong person and being in love by yourself is disturbing and not good at all. Even when you see the signs and know that you should walk away, you love so hard, give your all and the other person does not care at all. But here you are still trying. Loving the wrong person will hurt you to your core. Being everything to them while hurting yourself, along with your mental and rational thinking out the door. It will have you questioning yourself all the time. Wondering if you are good enough. But of course, when you love someone, you will try your hardest to make it work and go the distance. You feel like you shouldn’t give up on them. Loving the wrong person can take away your smile and maybe lower your self-esteem; loving the wrong person can take a lot of you. You might feel like you will never love again. You are scared that it will happen again.

I feel I can speak on this subject somewhat because I have been there and was left feeling lost and hurt. I was in so much pain because I thought it was forever with this person (Silly Me). A reason why I am so guarded now. That feeling of being scared to fall in love again. I was loving the wrong damn person, and it had cost me. Yes, I am still healing from it and learning to deal with the issues and be okay no matter what. Loving the wrong person is so damn draining. Please, people, pay attention to those red flags that arrive; do not ignore them. Always talk about it to get an understanding. Loving the wrong person made me more aware, cautious, guarded, and distant. Though with all of that I do wish to love again and find someone special. Where I am for them, and they are for me.

Feel free to use this as a writing prompt if you like? What do you think of this topic?

Just thinking! Maybe Venting!

Have you been there before? How did you deal with it?

Have a good one!

Blessings and Love! 🖤🤎💙💛💗💚🧡💜🤍❤

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Worry….ME

Are you a person who can easily walk away from challenging situations? Are you a person who can easily forgive? Easily forget the negative.

I am not that person. I worry too much and think about the past way too much. Something I do not like about myself. I am always on edge, and thinking about my past makes it worse, and then anxiety kicks in. Wish it were easy for me to forget stuff, to forgive, and to trust more. Want to easily walk away with no wounds. Wishful thinking huh? Yeah, it is annoying at times, and wish I could just leave the negative shit in the past. I worry too much it is crazy. Again, wish I can easily walk away from all the bad. Worrying a lot is stressful.

Ugh, too much on my mind right now, and I want to get away. Head spinning and mind racing fast. Have you ever had one of those days? Praying for it as always. Just writing to get my thoughts and feelings and vent out. Sometimes I have to whether it is a negative post or not. I just want to be able to forgive and forget. I am me, and right now, I am worrying and having anxiety, I must admit writing does help as it calms me for a moment. Praying for all of those having those bad days. Breathe and pray about it. Have faith.

Blessings and Love!

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Nostalgic

I’ve been thinking about all the fun things I used to do as a kid. Back when technology was just beginning and hasn’t fully taken over yet. Thinking of the good memories of the games me my family and friends used to play. Games that were fun and sometimes competitive. Games that were fun to just pass the time, especially in the summertime. Like Double Dutch, this was so fun, and I used to get lost in it and of course, thought I was the best in it. Hopscotch is another game that was fun and a pastime, and bonding with sisters, cousins, or friends. Houla Hoop is another one. This was fun, but to be honest, I wasn’t that good at it, lol. Jump roping also. 

Games like hand clap (Do yall remember that one?), talent shows, charades, ding dong ditch, football-two hand touch, Hide and seek, the freeze game, Simon says, and board games on family nights. I am just sitting here thinking about it all. I feel like games like this is not around anymore and it’s kind of sad, I know things come and go. Some of these games kept my mind occupied and I loved it. 

Also, little flirty games at school were fun, though some of them we had no business playing lol.  

Again, I am feeling nostalgia and thinking about some good times.  

What was your favorite game to play? Do you have any to add to the list? What did you do to pass the time? 

Blessings and Love! 

Thank you for reading. 

Remember This??

Farewell!

Goodbye to hurt, goodbye to pain 

Farewell to all that I have lost 

I’ll leave behind the endless rain 

And bury all my past mistakes at any cost 

I’ll wipe away the tears I’ve shed 

And bid adieu to all my fears 

I’ll let go of what’s already dead 

And embrace a future that’s bright and clear 

For though my heart was once in pain 

And though I’ve lost so much along the way 

I know that I can start again 

And create a brighter, better day 

So, farewell to all the hurt and strife 

And goodbye to all that I have lost 

I’ll make the most of this new life 

And leave behind the pain and cost 

Blessings and Love! 

Thank you for reading. 

The Past

Hello to you

The past

Memories good and bad

Along with those tough decisions

The past

Many hopes and dreams

Many setbacks lost dreams

Loveless, trustless from loves that didn’t last

The past

Down and out, that lost feeling

Not feeling yourself, have mixed emotions

Brighter days to come

Faith steps in and it’s time for healing

The past

Unleash all that’s in my bag

Unleash all the bad

Overflowing

They say pain doesn’t last forever

The past makes me think otherwise

The past

Must let go, no longer holding baggage

Started with a hello

Now its ends with

Goodbye to you

The past.

Blessings and Love

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No More Tears

Learning to be okay

With my past

I often tell myself

No more tears

Learning to let go

Of the tight hold

The past has over me

Again, I say

No more tears

Want it all to be forgotten

Blocked out my mind

Struggling to move on

No more tears

For those who caused pain

No more tears

For my benefit

Let it go Ray

Do not let it define you

No more tears

Tired of being tied down

No more I say

I have to gain control

No more tears

Be myself, be free

No more questioning why

All cried out I am

Stay strong

Stand tall, rise above my past

Be proud, wear my scars

I say to myself, no, nope, done

No More Tears.

Blessing and Love.

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