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Failing/Failure

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Failure…

Hello all,

When you hear the word failure what does it mean to you? To me failure is letting yourself down over and over, not doing what is necessary to succeed, or having things happen in the process of doing what you need or want, and not following your goals or dreams. Yeah, sometimes life steps in and stuff happens that you can not control, it is all about how you recover.

From time to time, I feel like I am failing in life and feel like a loser or failure. When I don’t complete some goals, I feel that I am letting myself down and being lazy even when I’m sick or just feeling down or lazy that day, and when I am not in the mood to write. Feeling like a failure is not okay to me maybe because I tend to be a perfectionist in everything I do. I want everything to be perfect and get pissed when it is not to my standards. Not good. I question myself when failing happens and think about the situation all the time. And of course, I get angry, sad, feel lost, feel like nothing. Always been this way yes even as a child. My parents use to say that I am my own enemy and I hold my own self back. My dad says it constantly and it something that I am very aware of. I know that in life their will be times you will fail, you must keep it moving

I just do not like it, losing, failing, none of it. Is it just me? Failure is not an option is a saying that constantly replays in my mind. Failure is not an option, you get knocked down, brush it off and keep your head up (I tell myself) Simple right?

What do you think? Have a good one! Please feel free to like, comment, and share your thoughts about failure. Love peace, happiness, and blessings all.

Thank you for reading.

Nerves

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Nerves lol

Chaotic day and stressed day for me well not really lol it is all in my freaking head. I say stressed because my feelings and emotions have been everywhere having damn anxiety all day. I know the reason is me missing and worrying about my kids. Panic and full of nerves. I stated in a previous post that the weekend was my kids first time going out of town without me even though they are with their father, and I trust him my nerves are still bad.  Also, they were supposed to be back today but had car trouble and crazy I know because I had got pissed about it knowing that these things can sometimes happen. Need a damn drink or 3 lol I know they are doing okay and having fun I have been talking to them since they left. Why am I like this? I annoy myself by worrying all the time. Feel out of control and that can be why anxiety is in play. My kids seem like they are enjoying themselves and seem like they don’t even miss me lol.

I know its just me with my trust and control issues. Seriously need to calm down, maybe a joint or a drink will do and of course writing, get my mind off it all. A little venting tonight about nothing really lol. Have a good one all.

Happy writing!

Love, Peace, Happiness, and Blessings

Thank you for reading.

Let It Go

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Let It Go

I am learning day by day that it is okay for me to let things go, let go and be free

Let go of the anger

Let go of the lies

Let go of the pain

Let go of those who are toxic to you and your well being

Let go of it all

Let go and open your mind

Let go and open your heart, let go and let God

Let go and welcome sunshine into your life

Let it all go

It is okay and I am learning to move on and continue to love me and have a happy life. Let go of the things that I can not control and take it for what it is. I love the feeling of being happy and at peace. I am letting it all go. I am happy and content!

Thank you for reading!

Happy Thursday!

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Thursday!

Happy Thursday! people. Wishing you love and blessings this beautiful day. I hope you succeed in what you want to accomplish today. Get that to do list done, make time for your self and try to have a relaxed day and yes trust I know that can be hard if you have a lot going on or work is stressful, just breathe through it and pray. Just want to send love and a positive message today.

It’s almost Friday Yay! Have a great day. please feel to like, comment, and share. thank you for reading.

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Back to school!

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Back to school!!

Morning all, how is it going?

So excited at the moment and yes, a little nervous. My son will be starting middle school, the sixth grade in a week. Today he has a half a day for orientation. Do not know why I am very nervous, but I am even though it is just orientation lol. I cannot believe that I have a child in middle school. Time is going by fast, and they are growing, something that I can’t stop lol. It is a beautiful yet scary thing for me. Crazy. Maybe I am that parent that will not be able to let go.

Even though I feel anxious I am happy for my son. Starting a new grade and at a new school is exciting and a new experience. I am sure he will do great. My daughter will start fifth grade and she is excited also to start the new school year. My kids are growing up and love it (And Scared).

Shout out to all parents who are homeschooling or sending their kids back to school. It is not easy especially with everything going on in this world, but we do what we must for our children. No matter what! Praying for our children that they are safe and praying for strength and guidance.

Are you ready for back to school? Do you feel it is challenging this year? Hope you all have a good day. Blessings! 💙🖤

Thank you for reading.

Stuck

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Stuck

Stuck here in the same spot

Stuck fighting

Figuring it out

Stuck

All alone

Stuck in a bubble

Want to break free

Scared, nervous

Stuck feeling the weight of the world

Pushing, shoving, reaching

Nothing happens

Stuck in life

Stuck in a shell

Trying to overcome it all

Stuck

Facing fears

Don’t want to

Stuck

Want to be heard

Stuck

Suffer in silence

Stuck

No change, give up

Stuck

Where’s light

Where is Love

I am stuck here and now

Trying to breathe

Get out of it, Climb

Man, man, man

I am just

Stuck

Thank you for reading.

**Just A Poem**

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Pressure

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Pressure

When you feel the weight of the world, of life.

Pressure

Trying to make everyone around you happy.

Pressure

Trying to make yourself happy.

Pressure

Having those bad days, struggling

Pressure

The drama and let downs.

To be perfect

Pressure

Dealing with people who are toxic to you.

Pressure

Heaviness

Too much weight

It is all around.

Damn the pressure.

Thank you for reading.

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Numb… — Just Write

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At this point I feel helpless, hopeless, soul less. Feel numb to it all my days and nights are a blur. I am constantly pacing and can not focus. Music helps a little. Heart is steadily racing and thinking the worst. It is really bad cause I don’t have anyone to talk to and I […]

Numb… — Just Write

The feeling of this tonight. Praying on it……. And more praying!

What A Day. Hope yours was better. Blessings!

Have a goodnight everyone!!!

Thank you

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Morning!!!

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Wednesday Morning!!!!!

Every morning no matter how I feel I tell myself that I am loved, I am strong, I am beautiful and I am worth it.

Even if someone else does not see my worth I do. I teach this to my daughter and my nieces I tell them to always love their selves. Loving yourself and believing in your self comes from within.

Good Morning People this is how I get ready in the morning happy face or sad face I have to remind myself how far I have come and I am still going. Remember to always love yourself through it all. Hope you all have a great day and do not let the troubles of the day get you down and yes I know it can be hard, but do your best and think positive. I wish you all a good day, love, peace, happiness, and blessings.

Thank you for reading.

Happy Hump Day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Intimacy!

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Intimacy

Want to talk about intimacy and different types of intimacy. Also, my thoughts on it and what I want out of intimacy. Of course, the word intimacy in most people mind is just dealing with sex, but there is more to it and other ways to be intimate, and I want to discuss it. Not a professional just my thoughts on it!

First, I want to talk about having a partner in a relationship that you can go to and talk about anything, and I mean anything even on a subject you both do not agree on, you both can have a good discussion about the subject without arguing and fighting about it. This can be in a friendship also with family this is called intellectual intimacy. I would want this in any relationship I am in. Want to be able to talk to a person with complete honesty and not get judgement like I will do for others. A person who can hear what I am saying. Another type is spiritual intimacy a couple who are on the same page and believe the same thing when it comes to spiritually. That can be a good type of way to bond with your partner and a way to talk and heal each other when problems come up. Both having faith and willing to pray together. Praying for each other, building a strong connection through faith. Emotional intimacy is important too, being they’re for a person and having compassion is good. Listening and understanding, a shoulder to cry on. A person who cares if they hurt you or not, a person who protects your heart and you protect theirs. Physical intimacy is a type of intimacy with looking in each other eyes, touching, hugging, kissing, holding hands. Connection through physical touch and letting your partner know how much you love them. I would like all of these in relationship being grounded and strong with each other. Intimacy is not all about sex through these different types is how you can build in a relationship. Take the time to get to know each other on different levels, grow together. And have good communication just want to say that. Again, not a professional

What does intimacy mean to you? How do get to know a person? Do you agree with the types I listed above? Feel free to like, comment, and share.

Blessings and Love!

Thank you for reading.