The one thing I would change about myself would be constantly overthinking. I do this all day every day. I overthink everything from being a parent, work life, daily activities, and of course my career in being an author. I try to stop it sometimes, but my mind just be going constantly. Yes, it is annoying at times. I have to always keep myself busy to keep my mind off things. Self-doubting is another thing I would change about myself. Those two things are consuming my life. Changes definitely need to be made.
Being an overthinker, my mind’s always tense I worry and fret, it just doesn’t make sense I analyze everything, from big to small My thoughts never stop. I can’t relax at all I replay conversations, thinking what I could say Wondering if I offended, if they’ll think I’m okay I worry about the future, what it may hold And if I’ll be ready if I’ll be bold But being an overthinker isn’t all bad It helps me prepare for what may be had I’m always thinking, always one step ahead I won’t be caught off guard, that’s what I’ve said So, even though my mind’s always on the go I’ll embrace my overthinking and let it flow It’s a part of who I am, and that’s okay I’ll keep moving forward, day by day
How long does it take for you to really like a person? How long does it take you to let them know how you feel? Do you wait and be patient to see if the feelings are mutual? Or do you let them know right away and deal with the outcome regardless of what it is?
I am asking this because I am an overthinker and I am guarded. So, sometimes I hold back my true feelings and because I do not like rushing at anything. I tend to cut people off early on, regardless of how I feel about them. I question myself constantly as to why I am like this, why do I get scared of being in a relationship? Why do I fear that a person do not really want to be with me? I will avoid them and their questions. Sometimes I think it is because I fear that a person will hurt me, I feel their intentions are not pure (not healthy thinking).
Again, I do not know why I think this way. I hate it because, I have made connections and get along with certain people, they piss me off once and I cut them off with no problem. Yes, that is with family too. I do not like to be hurt, yes I know it is a part of life. I have had it where I do put my feelings out and the other person do not feel the same way and they admit that I was just someone to pass the time ( True as fuck) and I was crushed (No LIE) and want one thing from me( ugh so sad).
I admit here and now that I am scared of love, I am scared of commitment, scared of getting let down by someone I truly love, scared of showing all of me and in return I get shit on my face. It is hard to deal with and no lie, my pride, my ego gets in the way sometimes too. I convince myself that a person is no good for me. I do feel bad to those people who genuinely are there for me, they really care about my feelings, it is real love, and I avoid them because of my own issues, my trust issues. Shit that has noting to do with them. I try to get over this and let things flow. But damn my head and my heart have crazy battles, head-to-head clashing most of the time. I really need help to deal with my crazy ways.
How do I fully let my guard down without so much overthinking? How do I fully put my heart and trust into someone else hands? I feel like I self-sabotage. Been doing this for years and probably missed out on real connections, and opportunities. Wanted to talk about this and let this out because I feel like I have finally met the person for me (I Think) but of course I am overthinking every damn thing, and do not want to move forward. Maybe I feel like he is not really real with me and honestly don’t mean shit to him, and I can definitely be wrong about it all,
Thinking and venting. Crazy I feel more comfortable with writing it out and sharing on my blog before letting him know. But my feelings and how I am dealing with it right now. So WHAT!
My blog peeps I need help (LOL) but seriously cause man, man, man he is on my mind constantly like all day. We have so much in common, I like him way more than I let him know, hell I want him something seriously but like I said above homegirl is scared. But why though?
Okay I am done venting on crazy stuff…. I need to seriously get it together. I am grown and need to act like it!
Anybody understand where I am coming from? Any advice? Been there before?
If you offer me a sincere apology and change your behavior, I’ll never bring up our past issues again.
But if no apology was given and you’re still repeating mistakes, you can’t ask me to stop mentioning the past. The past is actually the present if you haven’t changed…..
Somethings I know about myself that I feel is not a good thing would be overthinking, non-trusting, and being in my head too much. I feel sometimes these things hold me back and seem to not have it all together. Oh, and self-doubting I tend to second guess myself all the time in anything that I do. It annoys me sometimes that is why I want to change it. I must figure out all the craziness inside my mind and try my best to move forward, make better changes. Be more relaxed, stress free. Try to do something without over thinking it or have self-doubt. Self-doubting is one of the reasons my book is not done yet, again craziness it has been 2 years. Yeah, I definitely need to get it together. No, I don’t know how I can overcome these things, but I will do some research and try.
Just thinking of the things that I feel is holding me back and thinking of ways to change that about myself. Want to be able to put good work out there and feel happy with the decisions I have made. Try something new surrounding my daily life. I don’t know. Anybody else having problems with self-doubt? Are you an overthinker? Are you too much in your head? Is anything holding you back? Thinking and more thinking!
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