I Surrender!
I give myself to you
I surrender
Yours to love, to cherish
I surrender.
Your life, your love, your heart
I surrender
Our bond, our time, the beauty
I surrender
Pains and sorrow
Sadness and grief, all the bad
I surrender it all to you
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#Love #Surrender #Just write
Rough day yesterday!
Yesterday was a hard day for me. I had to take a moment for myself. I sat on my bed rocking back and forth and taking deep breaths. Minutes before that I was in attack mode. I felt hurt and just rage and wanted to do damage to that person. Ugh I do not like having this feeling and I am glad I walked away because the way I was feeling was madness and did not want to do anything stupid. So, I had to take some deep breaths and put on some music to calm myself. I hate that I let someone get the best of me and got me out of control for a minute. I also had to pray for strength, I was a different person and had to check myself really quick. Right now, I am still a little upset, but happy the situation is over and nothing bad happened. I kept it cool. Very thankful and proud of myself for having the strength to walk away.
I will continue to pray for strength and guidance. Really trying to have peace, get to my happiness. Have you ever been in a scary situation before? How did you deal with it?
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Feeling this Again…..
This feeling again, damn maybe I just need to talk to this man and let my feeling be known. another damn night I am spending with him on my mind. It has been like this for days and do not know why. This man probably does not even think about me or care about me but here my stupid self is just in my feelings about him. Sometimes I think I should pickup the phone and call him to hear his voice, I really want him beside me, but oh well. Wish I can get him off my mind, like seriously. Thinking out loud and very emotional, man getting attached and getting your feelings involved sucks. Yes, I hate that I feel this way I feel like I cannot focus I just see him, I can not help it. I just wanted to let this out and I need to learn to keep my feelings in check. Damn, damn, damn this man, I think I am in love (OH MY). I am rambling, need help. What should I do?
Ugh this damn feeling again.
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In My Heart
In my heart I will remember your love
In my heart I will always see and feel your smile
In my heart I will keep your voice, your words
In my heart I will always see and feel you
In my heart I will keep your memories
In my heart, in my mind you will
Forever be missed
In my heart you will always be
I love you always mom
Sill in my heart
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This Day..Trying
Today I woke up at 4 in the morning screaming and crying out for my mom. Felt scared and lonely. I miss her so much. Wishing I can give her a call I so bad want to hear her voice. I miss her beautiful smile and being around her. Today is so emotional besides missing and thinking about my mom, I am thinking about 9-11 what happened on this day 20 years ago. I still remember where I was at and what I was doing. So, devastating, I remember that was on my mind for months. So much lost and pain that day. It is a day I feel will always be remembered. Again, today has been emotional and I have been trying to do different things to keep my mind off things. It has been hard and as of right now my hear is heavy and all I want to do is drink the pain away. Just a sad day. Maybe try more writing this evening. I don’t know cannot shake this feeling. Venting and feelings out.
Hope you all are doing okay and having a good day. Praying for us all.
Love, Peace, Happiness, and Blessings
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***More by Ray’Elaine***
Failure…
Hello all,
When you hear the word failure what does it mean to you? To me failure is letting yourself down over and over, not doing what is necessary to succeed, or having things happen in the process of doing what you need or want, and not following your goals or dreams. Yeah, sometimes life steps in and stuff happens that you can not control, it is all about how you recover.
From time to time, I feel like I am failing in life and feel like a loser or failure. When I don’t complete some goals, I feel that I am letting myself down and being lazy even when I’m sick or just feeling down or lazy that day, and when I am not in the mood to write. Feeling like a failure is not okay to me maybe because I tend to be a perfectionist in everything I do. I want everything to be perfect and get pissed when it is not to my standards. Not good. I question myself when failing happens and think about the situation all the time. And of course, I get angry, sad, feel lost, feel like nothing. Always been this way yes even as a child. My parents use to say that I am my own enemy and I hold my own self back. My dad says it constantly and it something that I am very aware of. I know that in life their will be times you will fail, you must keep it moving
I just do not like it, losing, failing, none of it. Is it just me? Failure is not an option is a saying that constantly replays in my mind. Failure is not an option, you get knocked down, brush it off and keep your head up (I tell myself) Simple right?
What do you think? Have a good one! Please feel free to like, comment, and share your thoughts about failure. Love peace, happiness, and blessings all.
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Sharing Again. Let it Out
Letting it out…
My heart and mind are heavy, my heart hurts. I feel broken and I have been trying to remain positive and pray about my life and the feelings I have. I have made post about being positive and taking care of self, but lately nothing is working for me. I feel so empty and lost. Since my mom has passed away it seems that everything in my life, the past has surfaced. I am constantly thinking of the bad, cruel, and all the shitty things that has happened to me since I was a child hate this feeling and I do not know why everything is coming to mind and heart. I try to keep busy, so I do not think about stuff, but no matter what it happens, I’m thinking and sad and crying. Another thing is the nightmares which that right there is scary some…
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Nerves lol
Chaotic day and stressed day for me well not really lol it is all in my freaking head. I say stressed because my feelings and emotions have been everywhere having damn anxiety all day. I know the reason is me missing and worrying about my kids. Panic and full of nerves. I stated in a previous post that the weekend was my kids first time going out of town without me even though they are with their father, and I trust him my nerves are still bad. Also, they were supposed to be back today but had car trouble and crazy I know because I had got pissed about it knowing that these things can sometimes happen. Need a damn drink or 3 lol I know they are doing okay and having fun I have been talking to them since they left. Why am I like this? I annoy myself by worrying all the time. Feel out of control and that can be why anxiety is in play. My kids seem like they are enjoying themselves and seem like they don’t even miss me lol.
I know its just me with my trust and control issues. Seriously need to calm down, maybe a joint or a drink will do and of course writing, get my mind off it all. A little venting tonight about nothing really lol. Have a good one all.
Happy writing!
Love, Peace, Happiness, and Blessings
Thank you for reading.
New Month
Hello all it is the first day of September. August just flew by here and I am ok with that. Time for new goals for this new month, and fresh starts. Kids start school next week, so I am re doing a schedule for us, hoping to start the month off right. So today I will try not to complain and be grateful and be positive think happy thoughts. Make any necessary changes that need to be made. Overall hoping for the best. Work and writing today also writing out new goals for the weekend and the rest of the month. Happy Wednesday! Happy Writing!
How is your day going so far? Ready for the weekend already? Hope it’s a good day for you all.
Love, Peace, Happiness, and Blessings
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I wrote this some months ago. It is one of my favorites!!! Wanted to share again. Enjoy, thank you.
Lost Little Girl
Little lost girl
Fighting to find her way
Lost with no direction
Sad eyes, heart hurting, mind racing
Wounds open, flesh
Lost little girl
Thrown to the wolves, the sharks, the bad
The ugly, clowns, death
Raging to get free
Surrounded by the unknown, Dark
Lost little girl
Scared, shocked, afraid
Alone, cold, wondering
Mad, darkness, raged, shaking
Lost in a world, no clue
She is lost, no soul, no nothing
Lost little girl
Can she be found???
Thank You For Reading.
****Just A Poem!!****
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