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Battle With Myself II

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Battle with Myself II

Still here battling the

Inner me

Scars that scream out

Damn these struggles

Even with them I

Try to rise above

Within the struggles

Remain

Beautiful

Smart

Woman

Remain positive

Stand my ground

Battles that I try

To overcome

Try not to

Let it keep

Me down

Get the grasp

Of life

Love

Hope

The world

Even with these battles

I am becoming

One with me

Grown woman

Inner me

Battles

It will not last long

Well

That is what they say

Battles

Do not stay

They leave wounds

Battle in me

Going to

Go down

I will keep

Fighting

Destroying

Who comes against me

Taking them as they come

Struggle/battles

Life battles

I will win

Even with

The demons within

The dark side of ME

Still this

Battle within myself

Will subside.

A work in progress

Or maybe

The

Battle with myself continues….

Blessings and Love!

Thank you for reading.

**A Poem**

Battle with myself

Random, Random

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Just want to give a big ass shout out to all my Beautiful, Gorgeous, women out there. Keep being strong

We all know how it go.

It be days like this. Just don’t want to be bothered with the world…. And sometimes it makes shit more fucked up…Ladies am I Alone??

Yesss. Shout out to Mary J Blige for this song..

Feels right now….

Okay! Venting a little

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Hello all, my blog peeps. Tonight, I am not cool…..

So, I just posted a poem earlier I wrote about me being tired of my past having a tight ass hold on me. Is there anyone else like this? Where you seem like you cannot escape it, the past? Sometimes I hate that I replay past situations in my head. Then here I am on a damn emotional rollercoaster. Sometimes I just want revenge, I want to do harm, I want to unleash the beast. It gets crazy in this head of mines, and I try to contain it all. I also question why am I like this, why can’t I let it all go? Ugh. I just want some people to fucking suffer. Is that a bad thing? Damn these scars I have.

BREATHE

It is too much right now. I need to get back to focus.

 Okay! Whew had to let that out. I am still a work in progress and have thoughts like this from time to time. Was triggered a little today and it had me in a mood. Just venting don’t know if I am the only one. I must continue to pray. I felt close to the edge.

Praying on it and hopefully sleep good and better afterwards. Of course, my blog is my therapy. Please don’t judge me. Just had a fucked-up moment. LET IT Out!!!!

I am trying…WHEW

Again, BREATHE

Thank you for reading.

My Lonely Why…

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My lonely Why

Lonely days with nothing but these thoughts, bad ones, negative ones oh man. Sitting in the dark trying to block out everything wondering why. That is what is mostly on my mind all the time, all the bad that has gone on again I ask why? Why me? Lonely nights sitting in the dark with a bottle of liquor in my hands drowning in the liquor trying to drink all the pain away, yes still in the dark its better this way. No reflection of myself and nobody looking this way, good do not want any to see me, just drowning. The past is what brings me here always like why? Why this? Why that? Lonely days and nights turn into darkness, depression, anxiety, pain, despair, and sadness. Lonely with tears in my eyes as I ask myself why. A question to my past. Always lonely and in the dark trying to climb out my own head away from the negative thoughts, climb out my depression, away from my past, away from the madness, and from my lonely why.

Thanks for reading.

**Poetry**

COLD

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Cold

Cold like the wind

Heart chilled, cool, cold

Shut off from me, you, the world

Standing still, stiff body, damn cold

Pitch black, where am I, nothing around

Iciness, trembling body, I’m cold

What is going on? Damn, freezing

Am I coming or going?

Maybe So.......

Damn I am cold

Thank You For Reading!!

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***Just a poem!****

Rage – Just Write (writeblg.com)

Rage II – Just Write (writeblg.com)

Worry…ME

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Are you a person who can easily walk away from challenging situations? Are you a person who can easily forgive? Easily forget the negative.

Me I am not that person. I worry too much and think about the past way too much. Something I do not like about myself. I am always on edge and thinking about my past makes it worst and then anxiety kicks in. Wish it were easy for me to forget stuff, to forgive, and trust more. Want to easily walk away with no wounds. Wishful thinking huh? Yeah, it is annoying at times, and wish I could just leave the negative shit in the past. I worry too much it is crazy. Again, wish I can easily walk away from all the bad. Worrying a lot is stressful.

Ugh too much on my mind right now and want to getaway. Head spinning and mind racing fast. You ever had one of those days? Praying on it as always. Just writing to get my thoughts, feelings, and venting out. Sometimes I have to whether it is a negative post or not. I just want to be able to forgive and forget. I am me and right now I am worrying and having anxiety, must admit writing does help as it is calming for a moment. Praying for all of those having those bad days. Breathe and pray about it. Have faith.

Blessings and Love!

Thank you for reading.

Hurting

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Hurting

Have you ever felt unhappy, filled with rage? You just want those who hurt you to hurt also.  You want them to suffer and feel all the pain you feel plus more. Past pain, relationships, anybody. Sometimes I think of revenge, wanting to inflict torture and pain, to see them squirm, see them feel helpless, powerless, weak, lost, and scared. I want them to feel it all. That is how I am feeling at the moment I know some people can relate and some can’t **Shrugs**. Payback.

It is crazy how they are out living there lives, they suffered no consequences, out and free. And me I feel I am still trapped in that time in that pain. Replaying the shit that was done and it still feels like no time has passed. Crazy world I feel this way and must deal with it every day. Yes, I have been trying to forget it all it is hard some days are way harder than other days. I feel this way towards anyone who brought harm my way no matter who it was or is. I want them to feel what I feel sometimes. Venting like I do and sitting and thinking why they got away with it and why am I still suffering.

Am I the only one who feels this way towards a person or towards people who hurt you? Want to get pass it. And no, I do not understand it at all. Still hurting, forever hurting.

My thoughts tonight people. Hope you have a great one. Please feel free to like, comment, and share. Thank you for reading.

Love This song by Saint Bodhi named hurt like me wanted to share the video. Match the mood I am in tonight Again thank you for reading. Again just my thoughts for the night!

Saint Bodhi – Hurt Like Me (Official Video) – YouTube

Pain Pain, Go Away

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Pain Pain, Go Away!


Just do not understand, why? why me. The pain that is in my heart

It seems to be too much, The hurt in my voice, the hurt on my face

Please make it stop, I am hurting, I am weak

I cannot take it

My mind, my body and spirit are in pain

Life is dark, and I do not care any longer

Just want the pain to go away

Cannot live like this

Why? why? why?

This damn pain it is too much

Pain pain go away

Thank you for reading.

***A Poem***

Pain Pain, Go Away

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Pain Pain, Go Away!


Just do not understand, why? why me. The pain that is in my heart

It seems to be too much, The hurt in my voice, the hurt on my face

Please make it stop, I am hurting, I am weak

I cannot take it

My mind, my body and spirit are in pain

Life is dark, and I do not care any longer

Just want the pain to go away

Cannot live like this

Why? why? why?

This damn pain it is too much

Pain pain go away

Thank you for reading.

***A Poem***

Love this Sunday Night!

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Sending love to all

Hello everyone, hope you Sunday is going okay. Tonight, I just want to send love to those who are going through stuff, hurting, in pain at the moment. I pray that you are able to heal from the hurts, the pains, all the bad that is going on in your life. I want to let you all know that you are not alone. Today my mom was on my mind heavy and I had to pray about it and take some deep breaths. I know the healing process is not easy, but man it gets so hard on some days. I know the best thing for me to do is pray.

Again, I want to send love, and faith and hope your way and let you know again you are not alone. Wishing you all a great night. Wishing peace, love, happiness, and blessings to you and yours. 🖤💙💚💛🧡❤💜🤎🤍💕💔

Thank you for reading.