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One day at a time!

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Sometimes things happen in life that is out of our control and at times it can be hard to deal with. Having to deal with all the emotions that come from different situations in your life can be difficult. Trust, I know. Take it one day at a time. Take deep breaths, pray.

Trust your healing process and know that everything will be ok. Take it one day at a time. If you feel you need to rest, take a break do that, calm yourself it will be okay.

In life sometimes it’s best to slow down and focus on your mental health. Make sure you are good. Take time for you. Have strength and courage. Have faith. Be kind to yourself and trust I know it’s hard when taking care of a family, but it is important. Be a gentle you, a more focused you. I am still healing, and I know that sometimes it is ok to not be okay but pick yourself back up. Learning to love me more every day and wish the same for others. Again, I am still healing and a work in progress.

Again, take it one day at a time.

Blessings and Love! 🖤🤎💙💛💗💚🧡❤🤍💜

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Darkness

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Sometimes being alone

In the darkness

No light

Me and my thoughts

Sometimes thinking

Sinister thoughts

Darkness

Keeps me up

Wondering

What is next

Darkness

All I see

Lashing out

At anybody

I see

The darkness

It pulls me in

There is no

Apologies

I don’t care

Darkness is me

I is darkness

With the feelings

Of loving it here

This darkness

It takes over

I can no longer see

Clear

Down under

Deep

In this

Darkness

I’m along for the ride

Inside this

Darkness

I still can

Not hide.

Damn

All around

There is Darkness

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Move On..

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When it’s time to move on, that’s just the thing to do. Do not try to force things. Sometimes it’s better to move on and focus on yourself. Everything happens for a reason and you can’t stay stuck wondering why. It can hurt if you have to let a person go but always put yourself and feelings first. Do what is right for you. Move on, heal, and become a better version of you.

Yes it will take time if hurt and pain is there, just take it one day at a time. Trust I know it’s hard. Even if it’s moving on from an old job, or leaving a state or town, changing school, anything. Change can be hard.

Moving on from anything in life can be challenging, have faith and pray that everything will be alright.

Just thinking tonight want to make some changes and move on from the past. Letting out my thoughts and feelings. Just Write and get it out!

Blessings and Love!

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Rage II

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This fire, this hurt, this pain, sadness built up

I just want to let it out

My body, my mind wants bloody revenge

Rage inside and I do not care who I hurt, do not care of the outcome

Rage roaring if you are in my view, tears will be cried, blood will be shed

Rage causing me to lose focus, I cannot see, its darkness

Rage want me to react

Rage got me drowning, drinking constantly

Rage inside of me ready to burst

Flames everywhere

Hurt, pain everywhere

Rage rage rage as it continues to build

Damn rage inside of me

Blessings and Love!

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Act’s Up!

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Act’s Up

When the curtains close

Your behind closed doors

The happiness simmers

The smile fades

The fame gone

The fake love disappears

No one around

Your quiet

You stare and wonder

What is it all for?

Is it just the act in me?

Can they not see the real me?

On stage its all love

All happiness

Roses and candies

balloons and confetti

The act keeps them near

When curtains close

Where are they?

Why, I fear?

Aloneness

Staring in the mirror

Cannot pretend with myself

With none

Behind that curtain

Who am I?

An act, a person…….

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#Much Love #APoem

Oh Man.. WTF!

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Doing good then Boom…. Why?

Okay so everything was fine, and I am writing and then my mom pops up in my
head. Oh man that just made me pause and just start balling. Hate this feeling and now feeling a little down. Why does this happen? Now I am going to pray then turn on some music and hopefully stop feeling this way.

UGh shake it off I’m saying to myself. Maybe I need to go to bed. Put the notebooks and pens up and rest. Maybe she is telling me something I don’t know. Whatever music and a shot of something strong, a joint, shower and the damn bed. Just want to feel numb and not think for a while. Crazy months ago, thought I would be done drinking but here I am tonight with all these damn emotions, and a damn drink in hand (SMH). And it is really past my bedtime lol have to be up at 5am (Got To Work! YAY!) plus I have a migraine on top of all this.

Whew! Just venting and a little freaked out. It’s like I am feeling her. Again, have to shake it off….. Get it together. Oh Man, WTF- My feelings tonight.

 I Love and miss you mom. R.I.P.

Hope you all night is good! Have a good one.

 Blessings and Love!

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Fight…

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Fight

Sometimes in life, we have to fight

Fight for ourselves, fight for those we love

Those we protect

Fight for what we want

Fight for love, our peace

For Justice

Fight for happiness

Fight tough battels

Fight tough addictions

Fighting hard

Fight for the dreams we desire

Fight for the right job

In life, we fight

Fight hard

Fight off your bad thoughts, bad energy

Fight off those who try to bring you down

Fight and more fighting

To

Get to the top, in any which way you can

Or feel

Fight hard

Fight demons, fight predators

Fight time

Fight people

Fight our inner selves

Fight temptation

Fight the ugliness of the world

Sometimes in life we

Just keep fighting

Sometimes we have no choice

But, to fight

Fight through it all.

Fight….

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***And I AM A FIGHTER!!!!

***Much love all

Another Vent Night!

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Venting….She Just Write! 🤷🏾‍♀️

Hello all,

 Really hate when I try my hardest to get over someone who my feelings were too involved with. Had strong feelings for them and I feel used, I feel uneasy. Seems like they really did not care about me, do not love me the way they said SMH. Been four months since I have heard from this person. But now he is trying to reach out to me. Like why? I am so pissed right now and yes; I am having a little anxiety. Have posted to my blog in the past about this person. No, it is not the first time he has just out of nowhere stopped talking to me. This is a cycle ugh and me do not like it at all. I do not understand it, maybe because twice already I have allowed it. Thinking he is already in a relationship and just talking to me for his convenience. In the past I did have feelings and wanted to give it another chance and that lasted all but three freaking months and not really with consistency. Here I go questioning myself and feeling confused and lost. So over it, told myself the last time that if he did it again that it would be done. I am standing on that. Cannot keep putting my love, my feelings, my soul, my mind, myself out there for people to keep hurting me, laughing at me. Especially when I am already going through so much stuff. Do not need the extra stress in my life.

Whew, breathe had to pause and write about this because it bothers me badly and you know that I like to write about how I feel. Let it all out. **Shrugs** SMH thinking damn again, why? What do he want from me? I know I am not the only one who have been here before. Hate when my feelings are strong and for the wrong freaking person. Now he misses me and want me, sending a lot of messages since Sunday evening. Need a drink something strong. It makes no sense. Was having a good day until this BS, UGH. Going to keep breathing and calm myself and focus on my writings. Try not to let it really get under my skin cause really have harsh ass words for him.

My feelings and venting are out and done, my bad if it’s too much for you all. Again, I vent and keep it real. He deserves my fist to his face seriously. Whew breathe again.

Am I crazy? The only one? Why? Hope your day and night was better.

Blessings all.

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#Vent #OVERIT

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A Process…

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Hello all

It has been some days without me writing or actually doing anything. I have been in a bad mood and trying to shake these feelings. This grieving shit is annoying it’s understandable but so annoying. One minute I am okay, able to get things done and I am content, than the next I am a emotional wreck ugh. Wanna just SCREAM. Yes I know it is a process and healing and getting over things take some time. I just hate being emotional and having these feelings. I’m a person who don’t like to show my emotions or feel them uhh. Some days it takes a lot out of me, feel so drained and sad. I know I have to be strong for myself and my family, but it is so hard grieving and being on top of everything. I guess I have to continue to pray and take it one day at a time and trust that it will all get better.


Today I am going to try and stay busy and not think too much on negative things or sad things. Just breathe, relax, and pray. I hope you all have a good day I know I will try too. It’s almost Friday!!!


Blessings All!

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