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My Feelings: Whew lol

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My feelings-why I feel this way?

Its funny or crazy how I am feeling about this situation I got myself into. On one hand it is what I want, what I being wanting. But on the other hand, I feel that shit is off, and something just do not seem right. Sometimes I think I am getting in my own way or thinking way too much. Maybe I am scared to take that leap. I do not know right now I am over analyzing the situation. Now I have talked about this man a lot and thought that maybe it was or who I wanted but like I said shit do not seem right. I have extraordinarily strong feelings for him, and I keep telling myself to go for it. What Is stopping me? A question I ask myself all the time. He has been checking on me lately to see if I am okay and I love that he seems like he really cares but of course I think that it is too good to be true something else I wrote about. I have to really make my mind up plan and stick with it; I do not want to get hurt and I do not want to hurt anybody feelings. I just do not know what to do, I like him and we vibe well, I like our conversations and we can talk about anything, I also feel like I and be myself around him even with this there is still some doubt. And I am not the type who worry about what others think about me or my life. When I think of me and him in a relationship, I always think about what my family will think it is weird because I usual do not care what people say or think.

Maybe it is me I got some things to decide. What will you do in this situation? Should I just say forget it all? Should I quit over thinking/analyzing?

Well, I am just venting on this Monday of course got to let it out. My feelings, My thoughts. Have a great night people and I thank you for reading. Love and Blessings

Thank You.

I am SOOO Confused

In the night

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In the night!

In the night when all is still

I am up and my mind is awake

Racing with thoughts good and bad

In the night when its hard to sleep

In the night is when I write

Letting it all flow together

In the night, my heart is free, free to be me

In the night I see clear

In the night, my imagination is wild

In the night, my mind is wild

In the night I write freely, freely me

And it is Night! Time to write

Thanks for reading.

#InTheNight

My Heart Guarded

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Heart Guarded…

Sometimes I hate that I am so guarded, and I keep everything in. emotions are bottled up and I do not show that side of me. I do not fully put my feelings out there because I have feelings of being wronged and hurt. I do not like to love and be vulnerable, people will use that against you. That is why I guard my mind and my heart. It is true that I can be afraid of rejection. I do not trust easily either I have major trust issues and I know that is holding me back, but I cannot just fully put my trust in others. I am also guarded because I feel like people have negative motives, and I do not like that shit. I am guarded because I have not healed from my past, I need to let go and move on. Is it bad that I cannot let my guard down? Working on changing that, maybe just do not want to get hurt anymore I’ so freaking over it. I am just thinking out loud, my crazy thoughts. SMH it how I am feeling though. My heart is guarded. I need help!

Thank you for reading, please feel free to like, comment, and share.

#HeartGuarded

Rough Day…..

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Rough day yesterday!

Yesterday was a hard day for me. I had to take a moment for myself. I sat on my bed rocking back and forth and taking deep breaths. Minutes before that I was in attack mode. I felt hurt and just rage and wanted to do damage to that person. Ugh I do not like having this feeling and I am glad I walked away because the way I was feeling was madness and did not want to do anything stupid. So, I had to take some deep breaths and put on some music to calm myself. I hate that I let someone get the best of me and got me out of control for a minute. I also had to pray for strength, I was a different person and had to check myself really quick. Right now, I am still a little upset, but happy the situation is over and nothing bad happened. I kept it cool. Very thankful and proud of myself for having the strength to walk away.

I will continue to pray for strength and guidance. Really trying to have peace, get to my happiness. Have you ever been in a scary situation before? How did you deal with it?

Thank you for reading.

Failing/Failure

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Failure…

Hello all,

When you hear the word failure what does it mean to you? To me failure is letting yourself down over and over, not doing what is necessary to succeed, or having things happen in the process of doing what you need or want, and not following your goals or dreams. Yeah, sometimes life steps in and stuff happens that you can not control, it is all about how you recover.

From time to time, I feel like I am failing in life and feel like a loser or failure. When I don’t complete some goals, I feel that I am letting myself down and being lazy even when I’m sick or just feeling down or lazy that day, and when I am not in the mood to write. Feeling like a failure is not okay to me maybe because I tend to be a perfectionist in everything I do. I want everything to be perfect and get pissed when it is not to my standards. Not good. I question myself when failing happens and think about the situation all the time. And of course, I get angry, sad, feel lost, feel like nothing. Always been this way yes even as a child. My parents use to say that I am my own enemy and I hold my own self back. My dad says it constantly and it something that I am very aware of. I know that in life their will be times you will fail, you must keep it moving

I just do not like it, losing, failing, none of it. Is it just me? Failure is not an option is a saying that constantly replays in my mind. Failure is not an option, you get knocked down, brush it off and keep your head up (I tell myself) Simple right?

What do you think? Have a good one! Please feel free to like, comment, and share your thoughts about failure. Love peace, happiness, and blessings all.

Thank you for reading.

Caution! (Her)

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Caution! (Her)

I say caution, please proceed with caution.

She is still trying to find herself.

Caution

Loving her will not be easy, it will not happen overnight.

Caution

Be gentle with her, her heart is fragile.

Caution

Her heart has been misguided.

Caution, please proceed with caution.

She does not know what real love is.

Caution, please proceed with caution when getting to know her.

Caution

Be aware, be alert when loving her.

I say caution please proceed with caution!

Thank you for reading.

Imperfect

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Imperfect!

She is perfect in her imperfections

She is happy in her pain

Strong in her weakness

She smiles through the cries

She put on her happy face, ready to help others

Knows her weakness, and strengths

Keeps her head up no matter what

She learns from her mistakes

She is beautiful in her own way because she is herself

Yes she is perfect in her imperfections!

Thank You For Reading!

***Updated:7/19/2021***

***Poems***

Perfect ME | Just Write (writeblg.com)

Pressure | Just Write (writeblg.com)

The Feeling of Secure! | Just Write (writeblg.com)

Hurting

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Hurting

Have you ever felt unhappy, filled with rage? You just want those who hurt you to hurt also.  You want them to suffer and feel all the pain you feel plus more. Past pain, relationships, anybody. Sometimes I think of revenge, wanting to inflict torture and pain, to see them squirm, see them feel helpless, powerless, weak, lost, and scared. I want them to feel it all. That is how I am feeling at the moment I know some people can relate and some can’t **Shrugs**. Payback.

It is crazy how they are out living there lives, they suffered no consequences, out and free. And me I feel I am still trapped in that time in that pain. Replaying the shit that was done and it still feels like no time has passed. Crazy world I feel this way and must deal with it every day. Yes, I have been trying to forget it all it is hard some days are way harder than other days. I feel this way towards anyone who brought harm my way no matter who it was or is. I want them to feel what I feel sometimes. Venting like I do and sitting and thinking why they got away with it and why am I still suffering.

Am I the only one who feels this way towards a person or towards people who hurt you? Want to get pass it. And no, I do not understand it at all. Still hurting, forever hurting.

My thoughts tonight people. Hope you have a great one. Please feel free to like, comment, and share. Thank you for reading.

Love This song by Saint Bodhi named hurt like me wanted to share the video. Match the mood I am in tonight Again thank you for reading. Again just my thoughts for the night!

Saint Bodhi – Hurt Like Me (Official Video) – YouTube

A Night With You!!

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A Night With You!

All I want is a night with you

Just you and I, music, our bodies

A night with you our wild side

Meeting our hands all over each other

A night with you all I want

Let us dance in each other arms

No care in the world. Just us you and I

A night with you

Hot and steamy I want you bad, Need YOU!

Passion filled, lustful, exotic

A night with you, one I don’t want to end

All I want is a night with you my King!

Hope you enjoy!

Thank You For Reading!

Write/Movie Day!

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Write/Movie Day!

Hello everyone, how is it going? Happy Sunday!

So, I started my day early this morning woke up at 5 in the morning and could not go back to sleep so I got out the notebook and pen and continued my brainstorming. of course, I got to writing. After that I began writing for my book. Was writing for hours and happy that I got some work done and I do not feel like it was rushed and happy with what I came up with. So, 2 hours ago I decided to take a break from writing till later tonight and now movie time.

I am watching some of my favorite movies first up was American Gangster, then some of Deep Cover, now watching Harlem Nights laughing my but off. Next is Hoodlum then later Black Panther. In that order!! Just a few of my favorites, with some of my favorite snacks. Then back to writing.

I am having a relaxed day so far and enjoying this Sunday. How are you today? What are your Sunday plans? What are your favorite movies? Hope you all enjoy the rest of your day. Stay safe and blessings.

Thank you for reading.