In the night!
In the night when all is still
I am up and my mind is awake
Racing with thoughts good and bad
In the night when its hard to sleep
In the night is when I write
Letting it all flow together
In the night, my heart is free, free to be me
In the night I see clear
In the night, my imagination is wild
In the night, my mind is wild
In the night I write freely, freely me
And it is Night! Time to write
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#InTheNight #JustWrite
Good Morning all how is it going?
My morning…….
Man, man man what a Morning it has been. One child sick and another one suspended from school and its chaos here. LOL. Patience and strength are needed seriously. Will not be working today so maybe writing when things calm down. It is going to be a long and maybe stressful day and I have a damn migraine also so there’s that. Need a BIG cup of coffee lol. It’s one of those days today, I guess. Maybe try to do some editing or just watch tv and be lazy I rather be working but it is what it is. What to do????
What are your plans for the day? Any writing goals? Work goals?
Hope you all have a great day and enjoy it. Yay Friday tomorrow
Love, Peace, Happiness, and Blessings All
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Be You!
It is okay to be yourself I don’t understand why people don’t get that
Be You, Be original, Be Brave, Be Awesome, Do what you want, Be wild, Be exciting what ever You WANT BE You!!!!!!
Even if they don’t get you, they do not have to understand you BE YOU!
BE YOU, please and thank you
Just wanted to say that.
Heart Guarded…
Sometimes I hate that I am so guarded, and I keep everything in. emotions are bottled up and I do not show that side of me. I do not fully put my feelings out there because I have feelings of being wronged and hurt. I do not like to love and be vulnerable, people will use that against you. That is why I guard my mind and my heart. It is true that I can be afraid of rejection. I do not trust easily either I have major trust issues and I know that is holding me back, but I cannot just fully put my trust in others. I am also guarded because I feel like people have negative motives, and I do not like that shit. I am guarded because I have not healed from my past, I need to let go and move on. Is it bad that I cannot let my guard down? Working on changing that, maybe just do not want to get hurt anymore I’ so freaking over it. I am just thinking out loud, my crazy thoughts. SMH it how I am feeling though. My heart is guarded. I need help!
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Lies and more lies, Liar
Hello all
Liars on Blast lol
Want to blog about liars, lying. Why is it that people lie so much. Like why especially when they lie over stuff so small or lie just because. People go around putting on fronts or I like to call it their mask. They lie about who they are, they identity. Or lie about any and everything. Yes, I know that it happens a lot and I just be thinking and wondering why they do it. It is something that I truly do not understand at all. Maybe because I am an honest person no matter the situation, I will always be honest with people. Why? Because I do not like to be lied to that shit hurts. So, I wouldn’t lie to others just because I can and get away with it smh. I have heard that some people do it to avoid hurting someone but lies make everything worse. Well, that is what I think. It is such a big deal in any type of relationship you or in whether it is family or friends a lie is a freaking lie and can be wrong like seriously. I think some people do not realize it maybe because they are all about themselves and don’t care. How hard is it to be upfront and honest about who you are and what you are about. Again, something I don’t understand and probably never will. Thought about writing about lying because I am currently dealing with it, so many people around me who does it a lot and it is super annoying. Something I explain to my kids about honest and integrity. Your presents and words can concern others. It is okay to be honest and be yourself. Do you agree? Have you dealt with a person who constantly lies? How did you deal with it? Again, people why lie? Annoyed seriously
Thinking, venting of course too much shady shit going on and I do not like it. Time for changes, change the untrustworthy people around me. Please feel free to like, comment, and share.
Love, Peace, Happiness, and Blessings all
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Rough day yesterday!
Yesterday was a hard day for me. I had to take a moment for myself. I sat on my bed rocking back and forth and taking deep breaths. Minutes before that I was in attack mode. I felt hurt and just rage and wanted to do damage to that person. Ugh I do not like having this feeling and I am glad I walked away because the way I was feeling was madness and did not want to do anything stupid. So, I had to take some deep breaths and put on some music to calm myself. I hate that I let someone get the best of me and got me out of control for a minute. I also had to pray for strength, I was a different person and had to check myself really quick. Right now, I am still a little upset, but happy the situation is over and nothing bad happened. I kept it cool. Very thankful and proud of myself for having the strength to walk away.
I will continue to pray for strength and guidance. Really trying to have peace, get to my happiness. Have you ever been in a scary situation before? How did you deal with it?
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#JustWrite
Feeling this Again…..
This feeling again, damn maybe I just need to talk to this man and let my feeling be known. another damn night I am spending with him on my mind. It has been like this for days and do not know why. This man probably does not even think about me or care about me but here my stupid self is just in my feelings about him. Sometimes I think I should pickup the phone and call him to hear his voice, I really want him beside me, but oh well. Wish I can get him off my mind, like seriously. Thinking out loud and very emotional, man getting attached and getting your feelings involved sucks. Yes, I hate that I feel this way I feel like I cannot focus I just see him, I can not help it. I just wanted to let this out and I need to learn to keep my feelings in check. Damn, damn, damn this man, I think I am in love (OH MY). I am rambling, need help. What should I do?
Ugh this damn feeling again.
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#JustWrite #Love
In My Heart
In my heart I will remember your love
In my heart I will always see and feel your smile
In my heart I will keep your voice, your words
In my heart I will always see and feel you
In my heart I will keep your memories
In my heart, in my mind you will
Forever be missed
In my heart you will always be
I love you always mom
Sill in my heart
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This Day..Trying
Today I woke up at 4 in the morning screaming and crying out for my mom. Felt scared and lonely. I miss her so much. Wishing I can give her a call I so bad want to hear her voice. I miss her beautiful smile and being around her. Today is so emotional besides missing and thinking about my mom, I am thinking about 9-11 what happened on this day 20 years ago. I still remember where I was at and what I was doing. So, devastating, I remember that was on my mind for months. So much lost and pain that day. It is a day I feel will always be remembered. Again, today has been emotional and I have been trying to do different things to keep my mind off things. It has been hard and as of right now my hear is heavy and all I want to do is drink the pain away. Just a sad day. Maybe try more writing this evening. I don’t know cannot shake this feeling. Venting and feelings out.
Hope you all are doing okay and having a good day. Praying for us all.
Love, Peace, Happiness, and Blessings
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Failure…
Hello all,
When you hear the word failure what does it mean to you? To me failure is letting yourself down over and over, not doing what is necessary to succeed, or having things happen in the process of doing what you need or want, and not following your goals or dreams. Yeah, sometimes life steps in and stuff happens that you can not control, it is all about how you recover.
From time to time, I feel like I am failing in life and feel like a loser or failure. When I don’t complete some goals, I feel that I am letting myself down and being lazy even when I’m sick or just feeling down or lazy that day, and when I am not in the mood to write. Feeling like a failure is not okay to me maybe because I tend to be a perfectionist in everything I do. I want everything to be perfect and get pissed when it is not to my standards. Not good. I question myself when failing happens and think about the situation all the time. And of course, I get angry, sad, feel lost, feel like nothing. Always been this way yes even as a child. My parents use to say that I am my own enemy and I hold my own self back. My dad says it constantly and it something that I am very aware of. I know that in life their will be times you will fail, you must keep it moving
I just do not like it, losing, failing, none of it. Is it just me? Failure is not an option is a saying that constantly replays in my mind. Failure is not an option, you get knocked down, brush it off and keep your head up (I tell myself) Simple right?
What do you think? Have a good one! Please feel free to like, comment, and share your thoughts about failure. Love peace, happiness, and blessings all.
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